Why do you want to kill yourself so badly?

[Winniethepooh]

I would kill myself if I could. The fear of failure and being found is what's holding me back. Furthermore, suicide is forbidden according to most if not all religions. And I'm religious. God could punish me.

Therefore, I've accepted that life is not a choice and that I have to accept the circumstances that I've chosen for myself. I'm wondering how you plan on killing yourself. Have you no survival instinct? Do you intend to force yourself?

We all die so wouldn't you rather have a peaceful death in old age?

 

[sadworld]

Furthermore, suicide is forbidden according to most if not all religions. And I'm religious. God could punish me.

I'm sorry but religions are such bs
It's funny how they are literally only there to force humans to live and give them a reason for their fucking existence because there is no reason, so they believe in stupid fairy tale stories to find one.

 

[Endeavour]

Who says all deaths are peaceful? I know someone who recently died of cancer and they were in agony for weeks, lost a ton of weight, were being so pumped full of painkilling drugs they were on a different planet and in bed for weeks, had bed sores, the works.

Of course life is a choice, if your God or sky fairy wants you to live then your attempt will fail, how do you know that isn't their plan for you - to die by your own hand?

How could God punish you?

Honestly we're living in the 21st Century and people still believe in witches and magic. Haven't really evolved much have we, despite the technology?

Now, where did I put my ducking stool...

 

[Ghost2211]

Who says your death at old age will be peaceful? Heart attacks hurt, and so does cancer. Losing mental faculties is scary, too.

 

[Endeavour]

Who says your death at old age will be peaceful? Heart attacks hurt, and so does cancer. Losing mental faculties is scary, too.

And the rest of the things that you might die by. The idea OP has that all old people fall asleep and never wake up and die in peace is just about the most naive thing I've ever heard.

I'd say probably 95% of natural deaths are painful or traumatic and probably protracted over a long period of time as well.

 

[neverever]

I would kill myself if I could. The fear of failure and being found is what's holding me back. Furthermore, suicide is forbidden according to most if not all religions. And I'm religious. God could punish me.

Therefore, I've accepted that life is not a choice and that I have to accept the circumstances that I've chosen for myself. I'm wondering how you plan on killing yourself. Have you no survival instinct? Do you intend to force yourself?

We all die so wouldn't you rather have a peaceful death in old age?

I find comfort in the stories of biblical characters who have died by suicide.

 

[Endeavour]

Maybe convince your dad that God is telling him to sacrifice you, then at the last second as he's about to plunge the knife into you God will shout "stop" - kill a sheep instead.

If God doesn't shout "stop" then that must have been His plan for you.

Do you believe God would shout "stop?"

No?

So why do you believe He exists then, or has a plan for you?

 

[Ghost2211]

And the rest of the things that you might die by. The idea OP has that all old people fall asleep and never wake up and die in peace is just about the most naive thing I've ever heard.

I'd say probably 95% of natural deaths are painful or traumatic and probably protracted over a long period of time as well.

I would love if the fairytale of peacefully dying in ones sleep at old age was real. It's just so rare.

 

[RainAndSadness]

[...]I'm religious. God could punish me.[...]

I don't think a loving God would punish you for leaving this cruel, terrifying existential nightmare behind. Religions are pushing this narrative because they don't like the autonomy and empowering that comes with suicide. Religions all around the globe want you as a sheep, they don't like people that think for themselves and you're not a sheep anymore if you rebel against this cruel existence - that apparently was created by your God. But I'm an atheist so this perspective doesn't help you very much.

So in respect to your beliefs, I would simply ignore what religion says and put their interpretation aside and instead assume that this God, that created this place, understands and sympathizes with your struggle and therefore with the decision to commit suicide.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Have you no survival instinct? Do you intend to force yourself?
We all die so wouldn't you rather have a peaceful death in old age?

 

[LooksAtMoonDog]

God is dead, I want to join him.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I don't think a loving God would punish you for leaving this cruel, terrifying existential nightmare behind. Religions are pushing this narrative because they don't like the autonomy and empowering that comes with suicide. Religions all around the globe want you as a sheep, they don't like people that think for themselves and you're not a sheep anymore if you rebel against this cruel existence - that apparently was created by your God. But I'm an atheist so this perspective doesn't help you very much.

So in respect to your beliefs, I would simply ignore what religion says and put their interpretation aside and instead assume that this God, that created this place, understands and sympathizes with your struggle and therefore with the decision to commit suicide.

If god is kind, we still won't be able to answer why we end up here.
The theory doesn't stand.

 

[justanotherstar]

I simply cannot believe in a loving God in such a cruel and unjust world. If he cares wouldn't he save you from CTB?

 

[Symbiote]

Like most religions, I can walk down to the county registrar and declare that I'm opening up a new religion called JeBuGa (Jesus, Buddha, Gandhi) and make suicide is not a sin. I can also add other tenets such as "thou shalt not force other beliefs down people" and "thou shall can end thy own life at any time".

Back in the old days, some self-righteous prick who thought that suicide was evil and immoral added it to the bible to prevent people from killing themselves especially in war and in life. He probably laughed his sadistic ass off when people who were suffering couldn't end it.

 

[Endeavour]

What went in the bible was decided by Constantine (first Roman Christian Emperor) at the council of Nicea. The rest was burned, if you got caught with a text that wasn't approved it was punishable by death.

It's not surprising a king would want to make it (essentially) illegal to kill yourself, since he'd then get not taxes off you, but note it was still okay for him to have you killed.

The bible isn't the word of God, it's the word of Constantine.

 

[justsad&done]

We all have different beliefs, backgrounds, and experiences and @Winniethepooh if you do believe in God than try to find comfort rather than fear in what you believe.
Growing old definitely does not mean that you will have a peaceful time in death. It's often quite the opposite.

 

[WornOutLife]

You're probably a pro-lifer troll but I'll reply anyway:

Why do I want to CTB so badly? Well, the shortest answer is that I never asked to be born and live in this unfair world so, why would I want to keep on living?

Yet, there's more to this than meets the eye. In my case I suffer from BPD, depression, overweight but what really annoys me, is how absurd the very fact of existing in this universe is. Nothing makes sense and all religions lie.

What's more, there are people here and everywhere who have more serious problems than mine. How on earth would they want to live? Just read some threads and you will understand why we want to CTB or in other words, stop suffering.

 

[Zhontafly]

I would kill myself if I could. The fear of failure and being found is what's holding me back. Furthermore, suicide is forbidden according to most if not all religions. And I'm religious. God could punish me.

Therefore, I've accepted that life is not a choice and that I have to accept the circumstances that I've chosen for myself. I'm wondering how you plan on killing yourself. Have you no survival instinct? Do you intend to force yourself?

We all die so wouldn't you rather have a peaceful death in old age?

I am not a christian, but I was raised christian in my early childhood. Later in my life I searched for truth in the bible and found it to be full of absurdity, wanton violence (from God and his faithful servants), contradictions, exaggeration, false claims and lies.

That said, I am wondering where you find that it is a sin to commit suicide. I've never found it in the bible, but I have found stories of God and his 'chosen people' killing (including babies and children), raping, cursing, plaguing , torturing and enslaving other people and destroying their cultures.

I have native american blood and they were and still are being trampled on and victimized by an evil christian government and society.

 

[Secrets1]

I think the differences between modern religions are bs, as is the veil of expected submission. But they're not a black and white topic. Certain aspects hurt people while others undeniably help.

As far as a higher power is concerned we really don't know shit. Personally I and people I trust have experienced enough spooky shit that makes it impossible for me to deny there is some type of spiritual realm occurring beyond what we see on earth. And to echo some other posters... if god created a world inclusive of suicide that was done by choice with a purpose and knowledge that some people would die this way and contribute to the trillions (more but who cares after trillions..) of ripple effects on earth, which hopefully lead us to evolve into better more loving human beings.

 

[Secrets1]

They have far lower suicide rates than atheism, honestly 5th grade le edge atheistic nihilism like this just shows you up as extraordinarily unintelligent. Maybe if you had of learnt something from those you criticize you wouldn't of ended up a biological dead end and loser.

Your main response to their point in sentence #1 wasn't especially intelligent itself.

What's up with that anger and unnecessary hate for a simple opinion, are you some type of proud winner in comparison?

 

[Miss_Takes]

Wow.

Was that response a personal choice or did your 'god' make you do it?

And this is the problem isnt it?
'Religion' doesn't make someone kind, or inclusive or respectful.

And that was a serious question for which I d like an answer btw.

 

[KleinerWolf]

wait a minute, I just realise op's username is
Winnie the Pooh lol

 

[Starseedchip]

This life is just not for me. Once I hit adolescence I began to realize I didn't want to participate in this. Why would I want to go to school, work, and then die? All the while dealing with the words bullshit on top of it. Racism, sexism, economic inequality, etc. I dreaded the idea of not being able to shut myself away in a room for the rest of my life. I still feel the same way. This life just isn't worth it to me. At worst it's painful and at best it's boring. The least this life can do for me is offer me a good and peaceful end.

 

[Futile]

Extreme loneliness and no way to get out of it

 

[thes]

the biggest reason for me is that I have nothing to live for. I honestly wish I had succeeded 5 years ago because since then my life has been a waste and more recently just utter rubbish, every day I wake up wishing I hadn't.

 

[Futile]

Wait I just read the post again and the title is different from the question in the post which is different from the question at the end. Bit confusing ngl

 

[Life_and_Death]

Mental illness to sum it up. Although the past few seconds I've been wondering if maybe life just scares me. I don't want to be remembered. I don't want to be here. Every second I'm alive is another second I make an impact on this world and for some reason..... I feel like I don't like that... But I'm not sure why. And yet still... Here I am.... Typing words... Making an impact... For someone to read... Think about.... Whatever. I'm not sure what to think or how to feel about this....maybe this is why even in "recovery" I don't feel right...

Wait I just read the post again and the title is different from the question in the post which is different from the question at the end. Bit confusing ngl

Yes but if you look at the whole of each question they're all intertwined

 

[homesick28]

lost all function, no future, no hope

 

[Mr. Bill]

I've tried to improve my life for many years and nothing works. I refuse to live my life working shitty jobs just to get by until I die.
In my opinion, I'm too mentally ill to have kids, raising them or just having kids that inherit my bullshit.
I only really exist for the benefit of other people. If people list my good qualities they always say "but you're so nice, accepting, helpful, bla bla". Basically qualities that benefit others and keep me on the lowest rung. I don't want to do this anymore.

 

[MrAsclepius]

The wish for death is similar to your explanation for life. Some of us just have to.