why do you want to die?

[allthebrightplaces]

I'll go first. I have been diagnosed with a severe case of major depressive and I've been hospitalized a few times. I'm never happy. Almost always angry. I always want to be alone. I have no one, and don't want anyone. I'm tired. tired of everything. who would want to exist in this miserable loop of school, dead end 9-5, retire at 60 and die in a nursing home. there's no point. I barely have any motivation for school right now as is. I never chose to be born. I'm glad I'll have some control over when i die. we're all going to die anyway so what difference does it make? at this point living is just prolonging to inevitable. there's no point to anything. Life is meaningless. people die everyday. and soon i'll be joining them.

 

[carnivore]

I'm sick of living in pain

 

[hamvil]

Crushed dreams

 

[Huntfish34]

Some of your reasons are pretty close to mine.... My depression / anxiety, immense self hatred, relationships, resentments, my job. Life on life's terms basically, and Im sick and tired of being sick and Fckn tired of being around to experience the bullshit. Im Done, I don't care anymore.

 

[Hope:-)]

Devastating effects of medication for 16 years.

 

[Degen]

Doomed to neethood

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

Schizophrenia, constantly living with voices. Psychosis at the same time.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

I already feel dead

 

[OliA]

The fear of hurting those closest to me.

 

[Sick&TiredURGH]

Chronic pain and tiredness. Inability to progress financially. Many many past mistakes, life gets harder every year.
Doctors don't take my medical stuff seriously, when I turn up with copious amounts of research that could point in the direction of what is happening with me, they ignore it and don't offer to explore things that might improve my quality of life.
Every time I plan for a nice thing to happen, something comes and kicks my feet out from under me.
Tired of struggling, tired of reaching and missing, just tired of this banal existence that I never wished for.

 

[flightless bird]

All I do is suffer, I can't dream anymore. Horrible thing to live in pain and confusion all the time. I can't even believe that I exist. All I want is deep sleep. It's not that I wanna die, I just wanna be unconscious of myself and this world. I am not one for existing in this realm. Who put me here? WHO PUT ME HERE!?!? I just wanna have a word with him!!!!!

 

[carnivore]

All I do is suffer, I can't dream anymore. Horrible thing to live in pain and confusion all the time. I can't even believe that I exist. All I want is deep sleep. It's not that I wanna die, I just wanna be unconscious of myself and this world. I am not one for existing in this realm. Who put me here? WHO PUT ME HERE!?!? I just wanna have a word with him!!!!!

I love to sleep because I don't feel pain.

 

[Astronauta]

Sequelas da vacina covid, sintodores 24 horas por dia.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

I love to sleep because I don't feel pain.

Same

 

[Fktw0rld]

Dissociative identity disorder, major depressive disorder and debilitating PTSD. All selflessly provided to me by the united states army.

 

[FuneralCry]

Because I don't see life to be worth living at all. There is nothing desirable about living, life is just a pointless experience that is just endless suffering and problems all for the sake of it. There was never a need for life to even be a thing in the first place and I see no point to enduring this existence when instead I could be peacefully not existing.

There is no benefit to being alive, as long as we exist things could always get so much worse. Dying would prevent this possibility. All of the pain and cruelty that exists is enough to make me want to leave and I am tired of being trapped in this human body.

I believe that non existence is ideal, free from everything that is wrong with living and I also think that wanting suicide is perfectly rational in a world like this, it is what makes sense. All that humans have to look forward to is old age where they will watch themselves deteriorate. To me this is horrifying and escaping this world is the best thing possible. I will die eventually anyway so I would rather exit at a time of my own choosing.

 

[chronicphysicalpain]

I don't want to die. I'm very hurt I can't try to live even if I was always unhappy. It's just permanent severe pain is unbearable.

I feel it akin to those who jump from a tall building on fire... I bet they did not "want" to die...

 

[Airie]

I hate the human condition. I don't like having parents. Nowadays I sometimes wish I was aborted. Neither of my parents have their shit together (not that both are seriously messed up people). I am concerned and mad that I will likely have to deal with at least my mom due to filial responsibility laws. It feels like a shackle and I want to be free of it. I'm sick of the obligations placed on children to their parents just for being born, including filial responsibility laws.

I think it's ridiculous how eager so many people are to bring more people into existence- especially if their lives aren't that great themselves. I want no soul ties to the relatives I had this lifetime.

I'm afraid to live often. I am afraid of getting sick and vomiting. I feel by ctb, I can control what I experience: passing on means I won't have to worry about vomiting anymore unless I am reborn into this world. Thinking this way makes me feel more comfortable about ctb.

 

[jawdropped123]

i have this condition that makes me smell very bad. And even tho people tell me to find an online job and work from home they need to understand that im 21 and i also want to finish school and have relationships and do normal things but i cant

 

[Hollowman]

I'm too stupid to make it on my own.

 

[Life_and_Death]

my life sucks is the short story of why

 

[thedaywillcome]

Genetic issue/my brain is broken.

 

[Lifeaballache]

I don't want to die. I'm very hurt I can't try to live even if I was always unhappy. It's just permanent severe pain is unbearable.

I feel it akin to those who jump from a tall building on fire... I bet they did not "want" to die...

I completely get you. I don't 'want to die but feel like I have been left with no choice. My life is about to go completely down the shitter if I don't CBT at some stage soon

 

[Sourdough]

I don't want to die. I'm very hurt I can't try to live even if I was always unhappy. It's just permanent severe pain is unbearable.

I feel it akin to those who jump from a tall building on fire... I bet they did not "want" to die...

God man, this message truly gutted me. That is such a poignant analogy you made, for those in such great pain it isn't even really a choice is it? Bless you if there is a god I hope they smile upon you

 

[Mofreeko]

For me it's a practical choice. Continuing this pathetic excuse for a life isn't worth it. I'll risk the pain of dying for the reward of eternal peace.

 

[Winterreise]

Adhedonia. Empty. Things can only get worse

 

[Hangnail]

Disfigurement which led me to losing everything I had...

 

[Musketeer]

I'll go first. I have been diagnosed with a severe case of major depressive and I've been hospitalized a few times. I'm never happy. Almost always angry. I always want to be alone. I have no one, and don't want anyone. I'm tired. tired of everything. who would want to exist in this miserable loop of school, dead end 9-5, retire at 60 and die in a nursing home. there's no point. I barely have any motivation for school right now as is. I never chose to be born. I'm glad I'll have some control over when i die. we're all going to die anyway so what difference does it make? at this point living is just prolonging to inevitable. there's no point to anything. Life is meaningless. people die everyday. and soon i'll be joining them.

chronic pain physically and emotionally.

 

[HumansAreHell]

Chronic pain and tiredness. Inability to progress financially. Many many past mistakes, life gets harder every year.
Doctors don't take my medical stuff seriously, when I turn up with copious amounts of research that could point in the direction of what is happening with me, they ignore it and don't offer to explore things that might improve my quality of life.
Every time I plan for a nice thing to happen, something comes and kicks my feet out from under me.
Tired of struggling, tired of reaching and missing, just tired of this banal existence that I never wished for.

I'm really sorry to hear this. I have had a lot of similar experiences with doctors as well and I makes me very angry. I hate that I have to pay them so much money and they don't even have to care about there job…

 

[jodes2]

It turns out, after filling in the Pegasos form that I have quite a few reasons! They're all small, but it really adds up. I'm just tired of struggles in life. I don't care for the measerly good times that come around, I won't miss them once I'm dead