Discussion Why do you want to CTB ?

[Stan]

My ex alienated me from 2 of my 3 children I lost all contact with my son my eldest daughter comes and goes I lost tax credits lost child benefit and the debt piled up I'm starting a new job soon but it won't touch the debt I'm in.
I'm worried he is winning and by me ctb I've allowed him to win but the day to day struggles are getting worse the voices are getting stronger

Thats horrible. I am in a similar boat. My heart goes out to you

 

[CTB-London]

I have a gay friend who is very disappointed with the gay community in his area, and heartbroken by his relationship. But do you really think it matters sex is for breeding? A lot of straight couples are child-free for many reasons. I wish you peace and that you be gentle with yourself.

It makes me grit my teeth when I hear the work "community" used in the context of gay men. One thing that distinguishes gay men from other minority groups is a sense of community. There is little concern for or kindness towards each other. Even gay rights groups are extremists who seek to justify the negative acts of gay men that make being gay so miserable.

 

[Juicebox]

I've experienced all of the things that I care to experience, and, from my point of view, that means things can only go downhill from here

 

[woxihuanni]

It makes me grit my teeth when I hear the work "community" used in the context of gay men. One thing that distinguishes gay men from other minority groups is a sense of community. There is little concern for or kindness towards each other. Even gay rights groups are extremists who seek to justify the negative acts of gay men that make being gay so miserable.

I hear you, but I am not quite sure if you are angry at me? I understand that your irritation with the state of things is valid, and have heard the same from another friend so obviously it is not just you.

 

[CTB-London]

I hear you, but I am not quite sure if you are angry at me? I understand that your irritation with the state of things is valid, and have heard the same from another friend so obviously it is not just you.

No, I'm not angry at you ... it's just that you're not in a position to understand. It's like having a man say that women shouldn't complain about PMT when they don't experience it!

 

[woxihuanni]

No, I'm not angry at you ... it's just that you're not in a position to understand. It's like having a man say that women shouldn't complain about PMT when they don't experience it!

Fair enough, but I did not say you should not complain. I hope you find peace...

 

[azucaramargo]

And far more don't!


Religions mostly consider homosexual activity to be a sin but that's not my issue because I'm not religious. My scientific mind does consider it to be a defect because sex was designed to procreate species, not for members of the same gender to do it. Most importantly, male homosexuality comes with gay men who are the worst population segment of the human race. You have to be gay to understand how shallow, unkind and and sometimes vile so many of them are. To me I cannot combine being gay with being happy so I intend to CTB when my life is in order.

This is very sad to me.

 

[imstillhungry]

Abusive parents
Abusive ex (I fell head over heels in love and he crushed my soul)
Lifetime of being treated like absolute shit by everyone I've ever come across
Lifetime of loneliness
Being a failure, going nowhere in life
Having no one and nothing to live for
Lifelong illness with shitty symptoms

 

[passenger27]

Various mental problems that 18 years of meds and therapy never fixed and debt to the Nth power.

 

[Sad_Autistic_boy_101]

There is so much mental pain. Growing up I experianced a lot of bad things that led me to PTSD. Everyone I come close to leaves. I'm autistic and failed to get any support until age 16 (now turning 19) where i'm to messed to be able to work on things and so i'm going to lose the support next year. My best friend died by suicide in August and they meant everything to me. I have tried but I just can't be happy. There is so much pain. My parents are not supportive. Feels like the only way out. I have a list of a few things I want to get done before. I have a lot of diagnosis's and it all gets to much.

 

[Istanbulite]

Because I am sick of life and its bullshit ground hog day

its so repetitive

 

[FuneralCry]

I want to ctb as I simply do not like living and I prefer the sound of non existence. Life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it, it is just meaningless suffering and I have no interest in living. Life is tiring, stressful and depressing. I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live. All I want is to escape this life and sleep for all eternity. I cannot cope with life and I was never meant for this world.