why do you want to ctb?

[Prime0]

Tired of this prison

 

[ddn.ctb]

It's always been the plan ever since I was a teenager.

 

[RosebyAnyName]

Crippling anxiety and fear of the future. My desire to ctb has always been in avoiding the future, because thinking about the future makes me miserable and I struggle to direct my attention away from it.

That, and a slew of other mental health problems and learning disabilities. Growing up being social isolated from others without a diagnosis has essentially conditioned me to believe I will never find happiness or companionship just by virtue of who I am. Even if I were to get a diagnosis, it's hard to unlearn that response. I guess I just feel like an alien from everyone else, and that everyone would be better off without me, and I would be better off without myself as well.

 

[turbomightbegone]

People fucking suck, especially family. They've driven me to the point where I feel like the only thing that gives me any worth is my art. If I cant even do that anymore then why should I even exist?

 

[bigfishlittlefish]

what's your reason? even if it's something you think is meaningless or small, share it :)

Because I'm in constant physically pain, disabled, weak and dependent and have no friends, family or anything else left to live for.

 

[Lookoutbelow]

Broken relationship.

 

[Ksmиda]

I just want to rest

 

[EmpathyMinded]

I'm always failing. To do anything with my life, to support the people I care about well. I'm accomplishing nothing meaningful. If that's the case there's no reason I need to be here. Just makes me a burden on people capable of actually finding happiness.