Permanent failure, no success any more, depressed because every effort to break this downward spiral doesn't help, this life is not the life I want to live, it's pure agony and suffering, it'd be better I did not exist at all (from todays point of view), that would have saved me (and others) from a lot of sufferings.
charlotte_
Arcanist
- Mar 12, 2023
- 436
Mental illnesses and trauma fucked me up a lot. I can't function like how a normal human being would. I don't have what it requires to live a fulfilled life.
LastBusHome
Member
- Nov 6, 2022
- 41
I guess it's a mix of things. For starters, I told a lie that got way too big and the consequences of the truth coming forward would cause irreprable damage to my life. On top of that I got the usual grab bag of mental illnesses that were kind of the root cause of my current circumstances vis-à-vis that lie. On top of that I'm pretty apprehensive about the future overall. My heart just can't handle all the shit that's going on out there in the world. The high cost of living being a huge one. I don't care if y'all think I'm soft for that. This shit is just too fucking much feel me. I hate that the time I invested in working effectively gets Thanos snapped the first of every month. Fucking parasites man.
I'm at a crossroads but it's becoming increasingly apparent that I'd probably be better off dead. 25 also feels like a nice number to end things on. I just don't know anymore man.
I'm at a crossroads but it's becoming increasingly apparent that I'd probably be better off dead. 25 also feels like a nice number to end things on. I just don't know anymore man.
