Why do I want to do this

[zeldalover]

Is it because I believe deep down I can be better? Or is it because I know others can do it and I can't. I cried in the bathroom because i know I suck and others are better - or is it because I know I'm not better at all, and deserve this. I know most deserve it. I just wish I wasn't a nuisance. I wish I didn't ruin it all. I wish it was worth it. I sang holy ground and cried because I wanted to be worth it all.