Why do I randomly get suicidal thoughts?

[zoftchan]

Lately I randomly find myself crying for no reason at all, I get the urge to pick my skin,hurt myself. My arms are covered in bruises. I would bite my skin,peel it etc. not just that. I get the urge to kill myself but end up just hurting myself instead as I'm scared of dying. I get mad one second thinking my life is over and the next I feel empty and somehow not that suicidal help

 

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i really relate to this.
i know that suppressing dark thoughts and feelings can eventually lead to random, unprovoked outbursts like this. different mood/personality disorders can also be a cause, but i'm not here to diagnose anyone with anything.
there are a lot of different causes. finding out what it is could possibly help you in the long run—if that's something you desire, of course. finding that answer might be difficult, though.

i know how hard it is and i'm sorry you have to deal with this. i'm wishing you the best, i hope you find some relief.

 

[zoftchan]

i really relate to this.
i know that suppressing dark thoughts and feelings can eventually lead to random, unprovoked outbursts like this. different mood/personality disorders can also be a cause, but i'm not here to diagnose anyone with anything.
there are a lot of different causes. finding out what it is could possibly help you in the long run—if that's something you desire, of course. finding that answer might be difficult, though.

i know how hard it is and i'm sorry you have to deal with this. i'm wishing you the best, i hope you find some relief.

Thank you, I've only been diagnosed with severe depression,anxiety and OCD. I think I might have bpd, but I'm not sure. Yeah I tend to have dark thoughts and I hate it. They won't go away and sometimes get louder

 

[COP2CON]

When I was 10 years old on a normal day in June, I felt the sudden overpowering urge to commit suicide. There are things in my life one may say led me there and that it wasn't random but it was out of the blue for me. I feel it constantly but have what I describe as suicide attacks frequently. Kinda like a panic attack but suicidal stuff instead :-) . I learned a lot of things that helped like the breathing I wrote in your other thread as well as my own form of "tapping" where I tap each finger to my thumb in order and then in reverse over and over again while breathing. I keeps my head from exploding and gets me to the other side what's usually a flashback. I've learned my issues will probably never stop or even get better but there are things that can be done that sometimes help, even a little. You have a community here that has the knowledge and support for you. Its a resource and not just for suicide how to but rather to help you understand what's going on and support you if you need it. I regularly find threads about others feeling my feelings, having my problems, listening to the same terrible music as me. You may find the same or similar and not feel so scared or alone. I'm here for you if you need it as are many others. Be strong, be calm, and breathe.

 

[zoftchan]

When I was 10 years old on a normal day in June, I felt the sudden overpowering urge to commit suicide. There are things in my life one may say led me there and that it wasn't random but it was out of the blue for me. I feel it constantly but have what I describe as suicide attacks frequently. Kinda like a panic attack but suicidal stuff instead :-) . I learned a lot of things that helped like the breathing I wrote in your other thread as well as my own form of "tapping" where I tap each finger to my thumb in order and then in reverse over and over again while breathing. I keeps my head from exploding and gets me to the other side what's usually a flashback. I've learned my issues will probably never stop or even get better but there are things that can be done that sometimes help, even a little. You have a community here that has the knowledge and support for you. Its a resource and not just for suicide how to but rather to help you understand what's going on and support you if you need it. I regularly find threads about others feeling my feelings, having my problems, listening to the same terrible music as me. You may find the same or similar and not feel so scared or alone. I'm here for you if you need it as are many others. Be strong, be calm, and breathe.

Thank you so much, sending hugs and kisses to you as well. :)

 

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Because this word is a living hell.

 

[zoftchan]

Because this word is a living hell.

True, it's a cruel world