Discussion Why do i feel relieved when searching for dying?

[dying_kwik2000]

I went to the shops today and when I saw bags of charcoal (my method), I suddenly fell into relief. Like this was the right decision I was making.

I ended up crying on the way home thinking how my death would drastically alter the lives of my twin sister, my older sister and my family members, so the is a lot of ambiguity in the feelings. But overall, I felt a sense of relief.

Have you had an experience like this? How was it for you?

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I relate. I like checking the nutrition facts of sausages and see SN included (though I have not decided my method). It's relieving for some reason.