Discussion Why did so many women told my that I should unalive myself?

[6o66yx]

If, like, at least 10 women which got to know me somewhat as a person and told me at some point that I should kill myself, then I would conclude that there is some truth to that statement.

I just can't imagine that this is a normal thing for an person to say to someone else, that they should kill themselves, and in my case it was 10 different persons (women).

Since my brain is succumbing to the repeated statement by different people to kill myself, I'm even taking the risk ending up in hell since I don't even have a clue of how I could avoid hell anyways.

Ending up in hell after I die is an possibility for me because of paranormal events that I experienced in my life which I cannot explain in any other way than to conclude that there is a hell realm waiting for me.

One example of an paranormal event a few years ago was that a young woman randomly announced to me at around 3 am that 'shadow people' will enter her bedroom in which we spent the night together. Then, what I can only describe as 'black ghosts', entered the room which filled me with fear, for it was my first real encounter with something supernatural. I couldn't simply write it off as an lucid dream or an hallucination, because
1.: I was awake, and
2.: How could it be an hallucination which only I perceived when an real person beside me announced what was about to unfold?

My best guess was and still is that these were some ghosts, stemming from an hellish realm (besides some other paranormal events that night), thus the conclusion that I would end up there if I die 'unprepeared'.

The other paranormal events earlier the same night were when a man and his girlfriend were as guests in the bedroom of the young women, and the girlfriend of that men randomly announced to me that she's a witch with a stone cold stare directly into my soul. I also got an WhatsApp call from some dude which was very successful with women and he looked like a demon, with red skin, big muscles and horns. He didn't say anything, he was just heavily breathing and looking at me. I just could tell that this wasn't just an silly filter, it looked so real.

So, either someone poisoned me with datura which maybe could explain what I was experiencing, or there really exist an spiritual world including an afterlife. I just don't know.

My final conclusion is, that I just can't figure out what is going on overall and being non-existent apart from this life right now for eternity after I die (like before I was born) is still the sweetest dream that I'm chasing so hard. I mean, I can't remember existing before my birth, that's my only hope in this utter mess.

 

[dolemitedrums]

They probably didn't really mean it, and even if they did you don't have to and shouldn't listen to them.

 

[BecomingTired]

people generally say it as a throwaway term, not fully meaning for wishing your death

 

[BardBarrie]

This isn't intended as an insult, but could the "paranormal" stuff have been during some sort of mental health episode of yours?

 

[Infinite Solipsist]

I couldn't simply write it off as an lucid dream or an hallucination, because
1.: I was awake, and
2.: How could it be an hallucination which only I perceived when an real person beside me announced what was about to unfold?

I don't want to contradict you but are you 100% sure the person in the bed with you was real? It really seems unlikely that more than 2 or 3 people would ever seriously tell you to kill yourself in your entire life (average 65-75 years lifespan.) It seems even more unlikely for all of them to have been the same gender. I see shadows and strange distortions all the time but I've learned to just ignore it. I might just have a physical eye problem/hppd but I'm not sure. Also, assuming hell and the paranormal are both real, a paranormal experience doesn't mean you're automatically going to hell.

What you are describing sounds like symptoms of psychosis/schizophrenia. If someone gave you datura, you'd know it. The stuff tastes horrible.

 

[deadalready1]

People are so weird. I just hate people.

 

[6o66yx]

I don't want to contradict you but are you 100% sure the person in the bed with you was real? It really seems unlikely that more than 2 or 3 people would ever seriously tell you to kill yourself in your entire life (average 65-75 years lifespan.) It seems even more unlikely for all of them to have been the same gender. I see shadows and strange distortions all the time but I've learned to just ignore it. I might just have a physical eye problem/hppd but I'm not sure. Also, assuming hell and the paranormal are both real, a paranormal experience doesn't mean you're automatically going to hell.

What you are describing sounds like symptoms of psychosis/schizophrenia. If someone gave you datura, you'd know it. The stuff tastes horrible.

Well, I dated and slept with her, so that would be a weird hallucination if she wasn't real I mean

 

[escape_from_hell]

Well, I dated and slept with her, so that would be a weird hallucination if she wasn't real I mean

How did she explain her announcing a paranormal event was about to occur?

 

[6o66yx]

How did she explain her announcing a paranormal event was about to occur?

Very calm and normal. I quote:
"There are now shadow people which will enter the room"
That's it

 

[escape_from_hell]

Very calm and normal. I quote:
"There are now shadow people which will enter the room"
That's it

Sorry, I meant did she explain how she knew this? Like she had some background experience with that sort of thing?

 

[Artemisia]

If, like, at least 10 women which got to know me somewhat as a person and told me at some point that I should kill myself, then I would conclude that there is some truth to that statement.

I just can't imagine that this is a normal thing for an person to say to someone else, that they should kill themselves, and in my case it was 10 different persons (women).

Since my brain is succumbing to the repeated statement by different people to kill myself, I'm even taking the risk ending up in hell since I don't even have a clue of how I could avoid hell anyways.

Ending up in hell after I die is an possibility for me because of paranormal events that I experienced in my life which I cannot explain in any other way than to conclude that there is a hell realm waiting for me.

One example of an paranormal event a few years ago was that a young woman randomly announced to me at around 3 am that 'shadow people' will enter her bedroom in which we spent the night together. Then, what I can only describe as 'black ghosts', entered the room which filled me with fear, for it was my first real encounter with something supernatural. I couldn't simply write it off as an lucid dream or an hallucination, because
1.: I was awake, and
2.: How could it be an hallucination which only I perceived when an real person beside me announced what was about to unfold?

My best guess was and still is that these were some ghosts, stemming from an hellish realm (besides some other paranormal events that night), thus the conclusion that I would end up there if I die 'unprepeared'.

The other paranormal events earlier the same night were when a man and his girlfriend were as guests in the bedroom of the young women, and the girlfriend of that men randomly announced to me that she's a witch with a stone cold stare directly into my soul. I also got an WhatsApp call from some dude which was very successful with women and he looked like a demon, with red skin, big muscles and horns. He didn't say anything, he was just heavily breathing and looking at me. I just could tell that this wasn't just an silly filter, it looked so real.

So, either someone poisoned me with datura which maybe could explain what I was experiencing, or there really exist an spiritual world including an afterlife. I just don't know.

My final conclusion is, that I just can't figure out what is going on overall and being non-existent apart from this life right now for eternity after I die (like before I was born) is still the sweetest dream that I'm chasing so hard. I mean, I can't remember existing before my birth, that's my only hope in this utter mess.

People use "Kill yourself" all the time as a way to emphasize how angry they are at you, doesn't mean they actually want you dead. Actually, it has become so common now it's just a dismissive way of ending a conversation.

Our brains are amazing and capable of fooling themselves if they want to. Like the light in near death experiences, which is an hallucination caused by lack of oxygen, no matter how some people want it to prove any sort of life after death. You seem very prone to magical thinking and manipulation, having a high predisposition to believe these things. A bit of alcohol, a bit of some drug, simple suggestion, and you buy into all of the magical, mystical stuff anyone throws at you. Let's not discard some mental issue like schizophrenia, the demon guy and all that seems to point that way. Of course, many schizophrenic people refuse to even seek treatment because they refuse to believe they're sick, but you should seriously look into that possibility. Either that, or you're not really aware of how powerful and realistic some AI filters have become nowadays.

 

[Yaka]

Most do not mean it or do not think you will take action on it or even think much of it after the fact when that is indeed false in 99% of cases

 

[6o66yx]

Sorry, I meant did she explain how she knew this? Like she had some background experience with that sort of thing?

No, she didn't tell me anything. When I brought up the next day of what happend and why she said those things, she just told me that I should shut my mouth up.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Because women can be very cruel. Much more so than men. Just a fact.

 

[6o66yx]

Because women can be very cruel. Much more so than men. Just a fact.

Why though?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Why though?

????? Angry with themselves? Estrogen hormone? PMS? I have no idea.

 

[lita-lassi]

????? Angry with themselves? Estrogen hormone? PMS? I have no idea.

"im mad and don't want to do basic reading so im just going to be real sexist"

 

[locked*n*loaded]

"im mad and don't want to do basic reading so im just going to be real sexist"

Then, please, you tell us why women, in general, are so much crueller than men.

 

[lita-lassi]

Then, please, you tell us why women, in general, are so much crueller than men.

theyre not

 

[hematomatema]

Then, please, you tell us why women, in general, are so much crueller than men.

I think you're under the assumption that most people believe that women are more cruel than men, let alone that one sex is necessarily, innately more cruel than the other. I think you will find this isn't exactly a widely held belief.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

theyre not

Please. I've seen how some women treat guys. Hell, I've seen how some women treat other women. They plan their revenge. They say things that cut people at their knees. They can be extremely harsh with their criticisms. It's like it's not enough for them to stab you with a knife, they need to twist it, too. I've lived it myself and have witnessed past friends suffer their wrath. Guys can be mean, but women are the ones who can be cruel. There's a difference.

 

[hematomatema]

some women

yeah there's your problem

Guys can be mean, but women are the ones who can be cruel.

source: i've seen women be real bad meanie heads before and not seen guys be as big meanieheads :( my experience is absolute and represents all 4 billion women and 4 billion men



Just tell people you're sexist and misogynistic. It's faster.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I think you're under the assumption that most people believe that women are more cruel than men, let alone that one sex is necessarily, innately more cruel than the other. I think you will find this isn't exactly a widely held belief.

I don't know what most ppl believe, but from my own experiences, and from witnessing what was done to others, I believe with every fiber of my being, that women, when they turn mean, for whatever reason, often take it a step further and inject cruelty, also. It's like their mantra. Or, maybe it's in their genes. IDK. But, that's my experience in life.

 

[Esokabat]

There are two to tango. You chose these women to get to know. Maybe you have a pattern in choosing to get to know certain type of people. Sometime childhood trauma will determine the type of personalities we invite into our lives. When the same thing happens to you over and over, it is something about you. Not about others. It is easy to think we are just victims and life happens to us. But in reality, we act, create, do, cause. Life doesn't just happen to us. We are not passive victims. Recurring events show us a mirror, show us something about ourselves. And you will keep attracting the same type of people and being drawn towards the same type of people until healing occurs. You are an active participant of what happens to you. We are not victims.

I don't know what most ppl believe, but from my own experiences, and from witnessing what was done to others, I believe with every fiber of my being, that women, when they turn mean, for whatever reason, often take it a step further and inject cruelty, also. It's like their mantra. Or, maybe it's in their genes. IDK. But, that's my experience in life.

Sounds like your trauma is talking. You might not have the capacity to be objective on this topic due to some conscious or unconscious trauma. Most people that are not traumatized don't share your belief

 

[locked*n*loaded]

yeah there's your problem


source: i've seen women be real bad meanie heads before and not seen guys be as big meanieheads :( my experience is absolute and represents all 4 billion women and 4 billion men



Just tell people you're sexist and misogynistic. It's faster.

Can't tell you that bc I'm not. I've known and have seen many women utilize cruelty. It's that simple. I never said all women were cruel. But, for whatever reason, I've met more than my fair share who have been. And, again for whatever reason, I've witnessed women being cruel to people I cared about. I just don't see guys being that same way, not that some aren't, but nowhere to the same degree. And, btw, I consider vindictiveness as a manifestation of cruelty, so I count those occurrences as being cruel, also.

 

[lita-lassi]

equality feels like oppression to those that were formerly oppressors hth