Venting Why cant i do it

[FlankerSandwhich]

Why can't I kill myself? Why am I such a coward? I'm so terrible. I'm so stupid. Just do it already you coward. You're a failure. You shouldn't be here. Kill yourself please. The world will be better for it. Your family will be better for it. Stop being such a bum and do it already.

Think of how much better the world will be. Your family won't have to pay for university. You'll stop letting them down. You won't have to see the disappointment in their eyes when you tell them you've failed another test or you haven't got a job

You're so lazy. You lie in bed all day and watch stupid videos, that kind of person doesn't get to exist. Countless people are struggling and you squander every opportunity you're given. You cry about "mental health", but you're a mentally well individual who doesn't even try to improve. Kill yourself.

Do it, coward. Do it. Do it please. Stop letting everyone down and kill yourself. Stop typing, go out to buy a rope and hang yourself. It would be so easy so why won't you just do it? Idiot. Kill yourself. Stupid dumb stupid stupid.

Why are you posting on this forum? So many people are actually struggling, you're insulting their real struggle by being here. A privileged, pampered brat like yourself doesn't deserve help. Don't beg for pity. Don't ask for forgiveness. Just log off, go to your kitchen and plunge a knife in your chest. Go to the store, buy some bleach and drink the whole bottle. You fucking loser.

And stop saying sorry all the time like you're some sorry piece of shit. Stop trying to get people to console you, you don't deserve it. Its manipulative, you fucking loser. Take accountability and kill yourself. If you were sorry, you wouldn't have done it.

Kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself fucking die

 

[Rainork]

I'm sorry that your inner critic is so loud and harsh on you.
Your struggles are valid- I spent years telling myself I didn't have a reason to be depressed, that I just needed to get over it and stop pandering to myself as if something was wrong and I know it was a horrible voice to have inside my head.
You are allowed to feel what you're feeling, to have bad/lazy days (or weeks, or years) and if you want to get help you are worthy of it, your issues are valid and your troubles are allowed to be acknowledged.
I hope you can find a way to show yourself some kindness because, even if you don't believe me, you do deserve it.
My pms are open if you need someone to talk to