Discussion Why are you still alive, right now?

[jaemus12]

been working on the letters...you bet it's harder than we think...entire day i spent on it...still more to do...should be done by tomorrow

I'm not even close to done...

Good luck on finishing yours.

 

[deathoverlife]

Good luck bro!
Edit: your profile says female.... I'm still calling you my bro ;)

 

[deathoverlife]

I'm not even close to done...

Good luck on finishing yours.

have you decided on a method yet

been working on it since 3 months
things started to fall in to place since a week...

so don't dispare...

 

[Lady black]

Cause I have to plan everything so that it would work at the first try

 

[Battered_Seoul]

What Chinaski said.

 

[jaemus12]

have you decided on a method yet

been working on it since 3 months
things started to fall in to place since a week...

so don't dispare...

Shallow water blackout

 

[worldexploder]

Lack of a peaceful method and 2 failed attempts. Hopefully this will change very soon.

 

[deathoverlife]

Shallow water blackout

nope.... using argon cylinder

 

[littlelungs]

My death date isn't until January 2019.

I want to see my family and best friend one last time, and I live far away from them so I won't get to see them until the holidays... even though I fucking hate the holiday season.

My suicide notes aren't finished yet.

And, because I was involuntarily hospitalized last month and everyone's been up my ass about it and not leaving me alone for very long, and I need to be alone for at least a few hours in order to be pretty damn sure that my plan is successful.

 

[undertherainbow]

A stupid and pointless thing called hope. Because I'm not manic PTSD me 24/7. The next time it happens though....I probably won't be here. I have everything set up for when things go to shit.

 

[Ixtab]

My death date isn't until January 2019.

I want to see my family and best friend one last time, and I live far away from them so I won't get to see them until the holidays... even though I fucking hate the holiday season.

My suicide notes aren't finished yet.

And, because I was involuntarily hospitalized last month and everyone's been up my ass about it and not leaving me alone for very long, and I need to be alone for at least a few hours in order to be pretty damn sure that my plan is successful.

What is your plan?

 

[whatsinmypocket]

Lacking material or money, atleast i got some plan on how i can ctb sooner or later.

 

[oldgray]

fear / lack of money

 

[whatsinmypocket]

fear / lack of money

Fear about what? Because at some point you will have a spark of clarity you could use.

 

[Mr2005]

Because really we want to live? "Boo, hiss. Pro lifer, get him!"

 

[oldgray]

Fear about what? Because at some point you will have a spark of clarity you could use.

i'm scared to use methods that aren't n and i'm scared of the one last moment before you lose consciousness

 

[littlelungs]

What is your plan?

Drinking just enough alcohol to loosen myself up, then taking a metric ass-ton of Ativan, tying a white or clear plastic bag around my head, and then hanging. I'd have everything all set up and rehearsed prior to actually going through with it to make sure I can pull off the timing between putting the plastic bag on my head, sticking my head in the noose, and kicking the chair. I want to give myself a good few hours after doing it just to make sure that by the time I'm found, I'm really dead.

 

[whatsinmypocket]

So when i tried to OD on prescription meds atleast it wasnt like i could stop it once they were in.
Like, what are a few seconds of potential suffering when you finally are at peace.
As for the last moments, for me it was just like sleeping, dont remeber anything past being really tired

 

[musicismylife]

Failed on my attempt... Will perform another one pretty soon...

 

[Ixtab]

Drinking just enough alcohol to loosen myself up, then taking a metric ass-ton of Ativan, tying a white or clear plastic bag around my head, and then hanging. I'd have everything all set up and rehearsed prior to actually going through with it to make sure I can pull off the timing between putting the plastic bag on my head, sticking my head in the noose, and kicking the chair. I want to give myself a good few hours after doing it just to make sure that by the time I'm found, I'm really dead.

Very elaborate, you must have spent quite some time and intelligence for your plan. Chapeau!
It appeals to me, although I would be scared to mess it up by getting drowsy of alcohol and benzo, and fall asleep on the chair... but that's just me...

 

[crova]

I need to clean my room first...

[well, take it as - parable]

 

[voool]

Everyone wants to die, so why are we still here? Was it poor execution? Lack of money? Or are you just waiting for the perfect time? You tell me.

My programming

 

[Anon1337]

Survival instinct.

 

[Duqu]

I'm waiting for my cat to die. Seriously. He's 11, has feline leukemia (though he's only been sick ONCE in his life, when he was a kitten and originally diagnosed), and loves me more than the sun (and he sure as hell likes that!). And I love him more than I've ever loved any person. When he dies, I won't be able to survive. But I'm afraid that if I died before him A he'd just go off his food (he did that when I was in the hopsital earlier this year....) or B he'd just go to a shelter and be euthanized because of his FelV status. I can't bear to put him through that (I've seriously had him since he was 5 weeks old).

 

[Life sucks]

I don't know

 

[Final Escape]

Everyone wants to die, so why are we still here? Was it poor execution? Lack of money? Or are you just waiting for the perfect time? You tell me.

i stopped taking adderall, and It took the edge off the suicidal ideation. But I'm still thinking about taking myself out daily.

 

[bunny]

entitlement. i think that i have a chance with being treated like a human

 

[Gevatsu]

The possibility of an afterlife and survival instinct.

 

[JustcallmeChris]

I have a couple reasons honestly, I'm mostly still here for my friends because I don't want to upset them with my death. But other than that and fear like everyone has already said, i'm waiting for Kingdom Hearts 3 in January and i'm also trying to make some music before I go just to see if maybe it makes me feel anything more than what I am right now.

 

[Undesirable]

My mother