
Seldom
Member
- Aug 11, 2020
- 8
I am over being a failure, in every aspect of life. Relationships, the GF I have now, I have no clue where we stand together, she gives me zero reciprocation, we have sex maybe once a week, I feel like I am just a nag, she doesn't ever "talk to me" I wear my heart on my sleeve and I feel like she is simply going to break up with me. I was in a long distance relationship with a classmate of mine from high school in North Carolina. She is amazing, beautiful but, in NC. I am in Colorado. I should've never split up with her, should've just "made it work" I miss her terribly, I have fucked up and all I can think of ending it all, CTB. Carbon Monoxide, and sleeping pills, I can do it in my car. It's a brilliant idea. I'll simply fall asleep, then the CO will take over, I should be dead in a just a matter of a few hours I think. I am just waiting for the "straw that broke the camels back" Maybe it'll happen this week, on my day off. This way, work won't be interrupted. It's really a perfect design.