Discussion Why are you done with your life

[Seldom]

I am over being a failure, in every aspect of life. Relationships, the GF I have now, I have no clue where we stand together, she gives me zero reciprocation, we have sex maybe once a week, I feel like I am just a nag, she doesn't ever "talk to me" I wear my heart on my sleeve and I feel like she is simply going to break up with me. I was in a long distance relationship with a classmate of mine from high school in North Carolina. She is amazing, beautiful but, in NC. I am in Colorado. I should've never split up with her, should've just "made it work" I miss her terribly, I have fucked up and all I can think of ending it all, CTB. Carbon Monoxide, and sleeping pills, I can do it in my car. It's a brilliant idea. I'll simply fall asleep, then the CO will take over, I should be dead in a just a matter of a few hours I think. I am just waiting for the "straw that broke the camels back" Maybe it'll happen this week, on my day off. This way, work won't be interrupted. It's really a perfect design.

 

[lotus11]

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[sideswipe84]

I yearn to be done with life, because no matter how hard I try I fuck things up. I feel that theirs nothing I can do to make up for any of the damage I've caused the people I care about. I'm sick of feeling embarrassed, stressed out and angry.

 

[Ren Elsie Jewelria]

My life is such a mess and causes havoc. If I can't leave this world in a spaceship then its' suicide.

 

[Velia]

I dont belong in this world, my life is meaningless and nothing brings any joy. Can't wait for an end to all this suffering because no matter what I try to get out of it I always end up back to the bottomless pit of depression and anxiety.

 

[Squiddy]

Mental health issues, short term memory issues, inability to articulate myself verbally sometimes and can't always process what people are saying to me sometimes (I think I might have a learning disability because of all this, but if I do, it's basically over for me)

 

[Uselessatbest]

Cause I'm a foolish person who can't do shit right. Just a dissapintment

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

Mental health issues, short term memory issues, inability to articulate myself verbally sometimes and can't always process what people are saying to me sometimes (I think I might have a learning disability because of all this, but if I do, it's basically over for me)

I can relate to this, it feels like I wrote this. I literally forget what people tell me the second they tell it because I have trouble processing new information.

 

[HowSoonIsNow]

BPD ruined everything

 

[Squiddy]

I can relate to this, it feels like I wrote this. I literally forget what people tell me the second they tell it because I have trouble processing new information.

It's really frustrating and when I tell my mom it's a reason I want to die, she tells me that's not a valid reason to want to die and my nurse tells me the same thing :(

 

[Rue89]

Anxiety has ruined my life; actually I don't really have a life because of it. I'm done living like this.

 

[SipSop]

More you read more you realise other people have it better.
I go outside I see people who ave it better.
I look inside and I feel fear that was implanted in me when I was younger by my fatjer trying to grab me. I am done fighting it. Other people do not have this burden, why I should shoulder it?
I feel odd.
I wish I had a different environment in wich I could grow.
I wish I didn't had to suffer in roder to ubderstand the depth of this world. I widh somebody encouraged me and guided me.
I know I do not ask for too much.
But here we are.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

It's really frustrating and when I tell my mom it's a reason I want to die, she tells me that's not a valid reason to want to die and my nurse tells me the same thing :(

I understand your reasons quite well. When did this all start? Or was it like that your whole life?

 

[dysfunctional]

Chronic major depression. I need expensive Kmine treatments every 4 months but I'm full of tremendous paranoid thoughts everyday. I don't know anymore why I'm staying

Does the ketamine help?

 

[2nd Zed]

* Bad genes
* Don't want to experience the horrors of aging
* Don't want to experience the upcoming societal collapse

More you read more you realise other people have it better.
I go outside I see people who ave it better.
I look inside and I feel fear that was implanted in me when I was younger by my fatjer trying to grab me. I am done fighting it. Other people do not have this burden, why I should shoulder it?
I feel odd.
I wish I had a different environment in wich I could grow.
I wish I didn't had to suffer in roder to ubderstand the depth of this world. I widh somebody encouraged me and guided me.
I know I do not ask for too much.
But here we are.

I have always felt this kind of envy. Why them, but not us? But then I realized that no matter how much you have, you'll always want more. There'll always be someone who has better than you

 

[dysfunctional]

Bipolar 1 disorder. I fucked up my life severely during my a manic episode during last fall/winter. Now I'm in a serious depressed episode where I can barely clean my room or take a shower. Its a terrible contrast because I used to be highly motivated, climbing mountains etc.

If I'm going to be either depressed or on a manic rampage, I don't want to participate anymore.

 

[Squiddy]

I understand your reasons quite well. When did this all start? Or was it like that your whole life?

I believe it started in 2019 when I got put on Abilify Maintenna (not on it now). But who knows. I could've had this all my life and not recognized it til now. I remember I had to call the pharmacy one day and tell them what I needed (to transfer a new prescription) and I couldn't get the words out of my head. I had to write it down word for word.

 

[Fedrea]

why are you done with your life

Repeated trauma

Guilt

repeated disappointment

Physical health problems

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

I believe it started in 2019 when I got put on Abilify Maintenna (not on it now). But who knows. I could've had this all my life and not recognized it til now. I remember I had to call the pharmacy one day and tell them what I needed (to transfer a new prescription) and I couldn't get the words out of my head. I had to write it down word for word.

I've had situations like that, when I couldn't remember simple things. It still happens quite a lot. I think I've always had trouble with focus, but I became hyper aware of that in the past year or so.

SSRI's, benzos and alcohol did not help the situation at all.

 

[Squiddy]

I've had situations like that, when I couldn't remember simple things. It still happens quite a lot. I think I've always had trouble with focus, but I became hyper aware of that in the past year or so.

SSRI's, benzos and alcohol did not help the situation at all.

Maybe I've become hyper aware on my problems. It sucks not being able to remember things. I forget whole conversations sometimes and it's frustrating.

 

[Sinai Silence]

Because life is just the big suck

 

[ocd is bad]

I don't have any friends and I past my limit a while ago

 

[Fedrea]

I don't have any friends and I past my limit a while ago

I hate to be that person, but the friends thing is always reversible. Doesn't matter how old you are, you can always make new friends.

 

[ocd is bad]

I hate to be that person, but the friends thing is always reversible. Doesn't matter how old you are, you can always make new friends.

It's ok. It's not reversible for me though. I've always had a hard time in social situations and even if I had friends I couldn't hang out with them during the quarantine. Plus mental illness and everything.

I hope your heath/trauma difficulties become easier to deal with.

 

[Final Escape]

I resent some prior experiences that will probably haunt me for the rest of my life.
I don't like the way reality is the way it is, and cannot be changed.
I can't accept suffering.

Same problem I got.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

The simultaneous diagnosed of a progressive neurological disorder

This. I was diagnosed with RRMS four years ago. A doc said to me, "you'll be in a wheelchair in 20 years." Life stinks now. I'm supposed to accept that it gets even worse?!?
Life has given up on me. The Covid Fairy came and took away my dream job, my social network, my friends, my hobbies, my dreams and goals. It's all gone. And so is my mind, consequently.

 

[ladolcemorte]

Because my life is clearly done with me!

 

[Wayfaerer]

I actually almost made something of myself. Wow, that would've been crazy!

 

[ladolcemorte]

I actually almost made something of myself. Wow, that would've been crazy!

Me too. Then it all came crashing down.

 

[AlreadyGone]

I am unhappy and I realize that I will never have an opportunity to be. So I hate life and no longer enjoy living it.