Of course we would all like a peaceful exit. But isn't the point that living is way more painful? I'm bought N to CTB not because I'm afraid of the pain, but because I'm afraid SI will prevent me from jumping, stabbing myself then bleeding to death or jumping in front of a train.
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locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 8,882
What do you want to do, leave violently? With a lot of pain? Doesn't sound good to me.
If there is a choice, of course to leave peacefully.
But between leaving violently and living, I still opt for the first option.
Lullaby
🌙
- Mar 9, 2022
- 682
Living is definitely painful, but if I have the choice to leave on my own terms, I'd want my last few moments to be peaceful because I feel I deserve it after everything I've been through.
Would you object to a violent death now?
What if someone offers to shoot you, would you accept it or prefer to continue to live?
Lullaby
🌙
- Mar 9, 2022
- 682
I still wouldn't do it. Like I said, I just feel I deserve better. Most of my life has been filled with pain, fear and anxiety. I don't want to leave like that at all.
I also think about my dad, who would be devastated enough. I wouldn't want to make it any harder for him by going out in a brutal way.
Jred
Sadness covers me like a blanket.
- Apr 26, 2022
- 33
I just don't want to wake up in a hospital bed, unable to move or speak. I want peaceful, i want easily executible, and i want as assured as possible. Because I know none of my loved ones would give me the mercy of ending me even then. Honestly SN doesn't really strike me as super peaceful, hypoxia = bodily anxiety to the max. But the worst thing would be to live and then be a vegetable, that's the actual hell.
Niko66
Specialist
- Dec 6, 2021
- 353
Violent methods scare me, I can barely stand looking at real life gore. I might opt for it out of desperation one day but I am deliberative and think by the time I am certainI will CTB (I haven't decided on a date or given up all chance for living just yet) I will have get my hands on SN or hopefully N before I need it as I will plan months ahead.
BigG91
I'd rather be homeless with good health.
- Aug 21, 2021
- 191
Because people want a peaceful death. A person who doesn't have access to a peaceful exit will have to choose alternatives which might not be peaceful
HappinessEmbodied
Depressed Bitch
- Apr 21, 2022
- 32
I chose SN as a method because the risk of long term damage is minimal and so is the risk of pain during it. Why should I choose something that would put me at high risk of permanent damage if I fail, or be extremely painful while it's happening?
☆AwaitingEntropy☆
Snuffing the Light Out
- Nov 6, 2021
- 208
Depends on the method for me - burning, for one, is a hard no. Hanging, probably not, too risky. But, I've considered other options - jumping, poisons, cutting an artery, drowning as a last resort.
Of course, like everyone I'd prefer peaceful. I don't want to be afraid, or to fail, or to be in agony. But I won't deny that there is a part of me that wants to truly feel my death. It will be my final act, after all, and I'm always sleepwalking through life. A small part of my brain is curious to see if I will finally 'wake up' upon facing my death. I know it's a foolish thing to even consider testing -since that's not how this works - so I haven't, but I can't deny my curiosity.
...This is all assuming I can get past my in indecisiveness and SI.
Of course, like everyone I'd prefer peaceful. I don't want to be afraid, or to fail, or to be in agony. But I won't deny that there is a part of me that wants to truly feel my death. It will be my final act, after all, and I'm always sleepwalking through life. A small part of my brain is curious to see if I will finally 'wake up' upon facing my death. I know it's a foolish thing to even consider testing -since that's not how this works - so I haven't, but I can't deny my curiosity.
...This is all assuming I can get past my in indecisiveness and SI.
Taking N is one of the most peaceful options. Just because someone wants to die doesn't mean they enjoy violence or pain
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 8,882
I'm afraid on this one, for me, I'm going to have to "have it all". I'm going to have to insist it for myself, and I'll find a way to get it, too.
Al Cappella
Are we there yet?
- Feb 2, 2022
- 888
That might just predict a likelihood you'll succeed. I suspect, can't know of course, but that for many people life is actually not more painful than a violent end. That's maybe why they wait, or won't do it altogether.
Thank you, you got what I was trying to bring across. If you have given up on living, why does it matter how you go? Ideally, it would be peaceful, but hasn't life already proved to you that it isn't? I'm not criticizing, but sometimes I read people failing methods like hanging and I wonder why. I mean people in the past have CTB via hanging and CO without even a fraction of as much "guidance".
Al Cappella
Are we there yet?
- Feb 2, 2022
- 888
I've had exactly the same thoughts. Not judging either, and it would be perfectly ok if people didn't go through with it, obviously. But ya, I wonder too…
Shu
As above, So Below.
- Jan 21, 2022
- 2,487
Watch your family member spend months at a time in a hospital and the bills that come after and then you'll understand
Why wouldn't I make the last part of my life as nice as possible?
Why would I rather brutally hang myself alone in a forest when I could go to sleep in my own comfy bed.
Or my plan B would be to rent an apartment were my last holiday was. This was before I have gotten sick, the last time I was happy. Go to sleep with ocean view. How nice would that be.
Why would I rather brutally hang myself alone in a forest when I could go to sleep in my own comfy bed.
Or my plan B would be to rent an apartment were my last holiday was. This was before I have gotten sick, the last time I was happy. Go to sleep with ocean view. How nice would that be.
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lofticries
obedear
- Feb 27, 2021
- 1,470
The potential to botch this shit up if i'm scared shitless maybe.
WorthlessTrash
Worthless
- Apr 19, 2022
- 2,431
Survival instinct causing hesitation, risk of botching. Any number of reasons.
High on Disco
Going nowhere fast
- Apr 27, 2022
- 13
There is a significant difference between mental pain and physical pain. When you feel physical pain, your most immediate reaction is to find a way to stop it, no matter how depressed you are.
That's why most people avoid hanging or drowning themselves.
That's why most people avoid hanging or drowning themselves.
StarryStarry
Cat Lady
- Oct 25, 2021
- 749
Personally I want to go peacefully. I don't want any pain or anxiety about ctb in a way that creates pain before I go.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,319
For me personally, having a peaceful way to exit this world would make it much easier for me to ctb, I would feel more calm about everything. Methods like hanging and drowning are difficult to do because of the SI and with hanging the fear of failure is what holds me back. I just think that we all deserve the option of a peaceful exit, no one should have to die a painful or traumatic suicide. It is cruel how the society denies us the option of a peaceful exit and expects us to suffer for decades.
This has got to be one of the most idiotic questions I have ever encountered here.
People don't like to be in pain and to suffer. Wanting to die is bad enough without the added stress of a violent / painful death.
You do not realize the point of my question. It is OK, we are all going through difficult times, I will not enter into a war of words with you.
