keeptheghostout
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- May 3, 2025
- 19
A few weeks ago I took ~20mg clonazepam and bought a hunting knife and slit/stabbed my thighs. I was gonna ctb but for some reason I called the ambulance and I got 13 stiches. I think it was because of the pain and it was taking too long (so survival instict too ig). I was too scared to go deep enough, and the doctor said that I reached the subcutis/hypodermis, so I was pretty close tbh.
I now have 4mg alprazolam and 20mg oxycontin. What do you think, would those help me not to call help and manage to do it myself, as the benzos calm my mind and makes it easier to do it, and oxys are painkillers.
And would it be better to cut my thighs (there's too many scars there so would be kinda hard) or on my wrists?
I know, this isn't the ideal way to go, but I don't really have anything else. I could try partial hanging but it's not that easy to do in my room.
Also forgot to add, sorry if something doesn't make much sense, I'm coming down from xanax rn so it can be pretty hard for me to explain some parts !
I now have 4mg alprazolam and 20mg oxycontin. What do you think, would those help me not to call help and manage to do it myself, as the benzos calm my mind and makes it easier to do it, and oxys are painkillers.
And would it be better to cut my thighs (there's too many scars there so would be kinda hard) or on my wrists?
I know, this isn't the ideal way to go, but I don't really have anything else. I could try partial hanging but it's not that easy to do in my room.
Also forgot to add, sorry if something doesn't make much sense, I'm coming down from xanax rn so it can be pretty hard for me to explain some parts !
