i never said it should be opened to minors, i meant 18-30 year olds who are told they are too young to kill themselves. and people can have a lot worse trauma than simply being unpopular at school when they're young. i was abused by my mother my entire childhood and still am to this day and have a lot of other traumas but still get told to give it time
No intention to play smart here or try to convince you of anything. Just my own experience is you can hardly get better if you are not able to leave the abusive environment. I would first try that. The memories will stay with you of course, but sometimes you can use them to protect yourself from further abuse. Work can be very therapeutic sometimes, it's not olny about getting paid. I think we should all be able to decide when to go, especially because we should be able choose a much easier way than suffering all the way through whatever terminal illness or extreme mental pain. But if you can stay a bit longer and can still find a bit of joy in a few things, why not? Nobody can be happy all the time, even the most well adjusted people. For me, it's more about still being able to catch some positive moments. If I can't do that, then I know it's time.
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Speaking from my own experience with trauma at a young age and also wanting to die for a long time...
I wished someone would have let me let me do it (via assisted ctb) when I wanted to do it first (with 9-10) ....yes, some things got better, I have more experiences now...but for what exactly?
Only to get back to this point and dying eventually anyways.
If I had died earlier I would have had kept my childish naivety (and some good memories as well) until the end and lacked the bitterness I got from more trauma over the years.
You know, I am in a pretty similar situation, but I don't feel bitter. It's not like I found the answer to the meaning of life, but for instance you being here for others is a good thing. I am happy that I was able to help some people, some animals... even when I myself felt really down. You know, my brother used to say we are alive in spite of our parents. There are a few good things in life that I can still see and even could enjoy sometime ago. I'm still trying to figure out if I can ever get back those moments while making peace with the fact that I may not and will have to ctb. But this perspective came out after a lot of thinking, analyzing, knowing and accepting myself. I just find it hard to believe ppl under 25 or so have the means to do it, not because there is something wrong with them, but it's just too early. Maybe some of them, but most of them not really. Please don't feel like I'm judging - I'm just stating what I noticed in me and others.