Wake
Member
- Nov 11, 2023
- 31
I've always been a happy person for most of I child hood always laughing like to point that people ask me why do am I always smiling. And don't you think because my life was easy it was shitty I was fat then I got bullied a lot for that and being nerd made it worse but I always brushed it off like nothing. I had no friends and I would just come back home just do the H.W and watch Ben 10 or sth
Nowadays It's different and it's not aswell. I am way more cold and idaf about anything I've matured and became an enduring person but I am also that weak kid that had nobody. At least then I had a life dream. Now my dreams have been crushed so bad that I only wished that I could one day find a person to talk to maybe make a family with and even that dream was crushed I will never be loved nor experience it.
And with that sadness I became very lonely and just doing and act around people that I'm all OK and that sadness had sideffects like if a girl talks to me or just show basic acts of kindness Imagine some fantasy that would never happen.
Soon I became lifeless like they say a passenger in my own body desperately waiting to finish college so when I start a carrer I may go somewhere on a beach and wait till my end comes and even that I would probably not succeed in achieving.
Nowadays It's different and it's not aswell. I am way more cold and idaf about anything I've matured and became an enduring person but I am also that weak kid that had nobody. At least then I had a life dream. Now my dreams have been crushed so bad that I only wished that I could one day find a person to talk to maybe make a family with and even that dream was crushed I will never be loved nor experience it.
And with that sadness I became very lonely and just doing and act around people that I'm all OK and that sadness had sideffects like if a girl talks to me or just show basic acts of kindness Imagine some fantasy that would never happen.
Soon I became lifeless like they say a passenger in my own body desperately waiting to finish college so when I start a carrer I may go somewhere on a beach and wait till my end comes and even that I would probably not succeed in achieving.
