I ask that because I’m ready chronic illness beat me but I can’t face anguishing my mum with my death especially suicide - if she were dead already I’d have zero hesitation, ideally I want to go missing and not Ben found when I go which will give hope to other family members especially my little sis who will be upset but we all die someday I’m just bringing it forward .. or I drop dead naturally but at 45 it’s not happening yet by the looks of it I wish
RainAndSadness
Administrator
- Jun 12, 2018
- 1,872
Thanatos
Outsider
- Mar 23, 2018
- 347
Suspension hanging has proven more difficult for me than I first thought but I will be trying again tonight.
Malice1
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- Apr 6, 2018
- 286
I came close twice with my N but backed out both times. I didnt want to tell anyone but man is it hard as fuck to do. Its not just fear holding me back. Its an array of emotions getting in the way. First attempt i almost drank it down but stopped near my mouth. Second time i didnt even bother opening the bottle. I've attempted once a week for the past 3 weeks so far. Third times a charm i suppose (I was suppose to attempt again today or tommorow).
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Tiburcio
Voluntary deletion.
- May 9, 2018
- 1,569
N means Nembutal, it's a liquid that causes painless death. Download the Peaceful Pill Handbook, there are some chapters talking about this method.
Kira
Same stuff, different day
- Apr 27, 2018
- 130
It's very unlikely that you will succeed using sleeping pills, and even if you did it would be a very shitty way to die.
mistoras
Specialist
- May 29, 2018
- 333
I am hoping to go in 2 weeks exactly before my life takes a turn for the worse. Right now I am just trying to mentally prepare myself for this to be the end.
wanttodie
Enlightened
- Apr 19, 2018
- 1,556
Bouts of depression
Member
- Apr 28, 2018
- 14
getting closer. Things are getting worse. Chronic pain is worse. coping isn't working. I'm jealous of you people with enough to be able to afford N. That would definitely be my preferred way. As is, im planning on CO with charcoal in a tent all duct taped at the gaps. (gaps like zipper close spots)
I have to make it soon unless some light at the end of the tunnel shows up. My hands are a big part of the problem and I am getting to where I wouldn't be able to set things up.
Might end up doing something violent and messy if I lose all grip. (literal grip. with my hands)
I have to make it soon unless some light at the end of the tunnel shows up. My hands are a big part of the problem and I am getting to where I wouldn't be able to set things up.
Might end up doing something violent and messy if I lose all grip. (literal grip. with my hands)
Tiredman
Rest is best
- Apr 30, 2018
- 229
I'm hoping to go by the end of this month when my N gets here
You will survive for sure, benzos can’t kill and even if you do you will have awful withdrawal effects like rebound anxiety, stabbing pain in the chest, heart palpitations. I’m from Singapore too.