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alivefornow

alivefornow

thinking about it
Feb 6, 2023
142
I'd be missed by my family, my friends and my students (I work as a teacher).

But they'd have their whole lives to get over it. Why can't others understand I don't want to feel pain anymore and it's unbearably hard just to be alive?

Why can't I go to a doctor and explain nothing really numbs the pain and suffering, and be given a lethal injection to die peacefully?

Why does everyone force me to choose a life of pain instead of a quick release from existence?
 
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numar

numar

Always tired
Sep 11, 2023
54
i genuinely do not have anyone in my life that would miss me.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Tortured by evil humans
Sep 24, 2020
35,206
I have some family members but if I had a reliable plan to cease existing peacefully then I wouldn't even be thinking of other people, I would just feel relieved that I can finally sleep eternally.

I'm not obligated to continue existing here and I'm just destined to die anyway, we all are, death is the most normal and inevitable thing, I bet that eventually most of us won't even exist in the memories of those who continue to exist here.
 
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ClockWorks

ClockWorks

Wish I Could Just Enjoy the Silence
Apr 15, 2023
23
I don't think I care much for who will miss when I CTB. But I do worry for my cousin, she's always been my rock when times were especially tough. I just hope when all this goes down, she will be able to live her life.
 
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Theforeverblind

Theforeverblind

(She/He/They) The void will claim us all
May 4, 2023
244
My best friend my partner and some of my extended family there basicly the only thing keeping me around
 
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drennedrat

drennedrat

Member
Jun 12, 2023
45
My friends and family. I've been running through my head how some of them would react to make me feel like they'd be able to get over it. I just get really sad thinking about how my parents would feel. I'm scared of it derailing their lives even temporarily and I don't want that to happen, but I fear me living longer would make things worse anyways.
 
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Minsu

Minsu

Suicidal korean girl 🇰🇷🏳️‍🌈
Jan 17, 2023
418
Not a lot of people tbh. I'll be forgotten pretty fast
 
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subhuman metalhead

subhuman metalhead

Crowdkiller
Jul 7, 2023
54
My family and my few friends but as heartless as it is to say I don't give a shit about my biological family. My friends are my family and I care about them unlike my biological family and they keep me from ending it.
 
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strawb12

strawb12

-
Mar 26, 2023
184
Plenty of people including friends family & some classmates would care ONCE I ctb. They'll only miss me when I'm dead tho so I don't really care abt how they'll feel. I'm alive right now & most of them don't care so hurting them will never be a reason for me not to ctb.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

?/?/2024
Apr 25, 2023
872
nobody.
 
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not_telling

not_telling

Scared
Sep 9, 2023
90
My family would miss me, actually more than I'd like to let on. I hate feeling that I'm considering something that would make them feel so bad, so I just won't face that fact. And my friends, who will miss me a lot for a few months I belive, but utterly I don't think they'd blame me, they're the most understanding people in the world.
 
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kilowatt

kilowatt

Hi why me
Sep 9, 2023
332
I don't care that much, I don't really think about other people when it comes to my own coping mechanisms and in this case, eternal peace. If it was to guess I'd say my girlfriend and a few friends would miss me, and I hope my mother will too, just because I want her to suffer. No one missing me could stop me to rethink my CTB plan tho.
 
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BlazingBob

BlazingBob

I'm still here b/c of my dogs
Oct 28, 2021
577
No one I can think of. I'm not really a part of anyone else's life, largely because of chronic illness. Very lonely.
 
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passivethought121

passivethought121

Student
Jun 11, 2023
308
A few friends and a sibling. I feel like some of them, esp my sister, would only care once I'm dead. Not that I want to make them feel guilty or anything. I've been thinking about how they'd have a long time to cope with my death. Even thought about putting it in my note. Something about how my death is not as significant as they may feel it is, and I am simply one of many people they will lose in this life. They'll live, grow, and reduce me to a memory that appears once every blue moon. Especially since we're all so young.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
8,600
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rainseahorse

Member
Sep 9, 2023
56
no one, which is convenient.
 
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SpencerSees

SpencerSees

I used to be blind, but now i see
Feb 22, 2023
84
No doubt my boyfriend. Probably a few friends and family members too. They don't understand i'm doing them a favor
 
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AshClouds

AshClouds

In time I started growing inward.
Apr 10, 2023
305
maybe a family member, but nobody else would care. If I "disappear" then nobody because my family would think I went off somewhere still alive and nobody else would miss me.
 
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aiki__0

aiki__0

Member
Sep 18, 2023
60
My family and my best friend
Thats what makes this so difficult. My grandma is my entire life. If she knew I took my OWN life, she would do it too
 
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Talles

Talles

Member
Mar 3, 2023
26
My mom would be pretty wrecked. Although I have a slight suspicion her life would improve without me in it and she'd recognize it herself eventually.
 
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Boudika

Boudika

Trauma? Oh you mean reason why I'm hilarious
Aug 22, 2023
145
Prop no one. I'm always second choice for everyone so nobody will miss me
 
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deepblack

deepblack

follow the white rabbit
Apr 9, 2023
64
my white rabbit
 
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depresso.espresso

New Member
Jul 29, 2023
4
I'd be missed by my family, my friends and my students (I work as a teacher).

But they'd have their whole lives to get over it. Why can't others understand I don't want to feel pain anymore and it's unbearably hard just to be alive?

Why can't I go to a doctor and explain nothing really numbs the pain and suffering, and be given a lethal injection to die peacefully?

Why does everyone force me to choose a life of pain instead of a quick release from existence?
Family, friends, fiancé, but the one that makes me most sad is my cat not understanding :/
 
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savoytruffle

savoytruffle

Student
Mar 31, 2022
197
I have no friends left so just my mum and a smattering of relatives. i just want to be forgotten by everybody, in 50 years it will be as if i never existed
 
TimetoGo!

TimetoGo!

Mage
Aug 30, 2022
586
I'd be missed by my family, my friends and my students (I work as a teacher).

But they'd have their whole lives to get over it. Why can't others understand I don't want to feel pain anymore and it's unbearably hard just to be alive?

Why can't I go to a doctor and explain nothing really numbs the pain and suffering, and be given a lethal injection to die peacefully?

Why does everyone force me to choose a life of pain instead of a quick release from existence?
The option of a lethal injection would be amazing, but I honestly think millions of people would go for it. And there are many examples of people who were suicidal but turned a corner and are now happier.

if only it was that simple..........the fear of failure is literally the only thing keeping me alive right now
 
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Ruma

Ruma

Experienced
Dec 26, 2021
250
My mum and dad,but hopefully they won't be far behind,as they're 80 and 85 yrs old. I' ll see them soon x
 

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