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hikikomori

hikikomori

Attention whore and regular whore
Oct 23, 2018
209
i do and i care for them alot i know i am obsesed with them and i miss them alot iv never followed them arownd or on social media. but im a good detective without effort. anyways i got cut off and it hurts alot
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,663
I've given up my obsessions and crushes quite a while back. I just know that I don't have a snowball's chance in hell to be with someone, let alone someone I want to be with. It has helped me in a sense to become less disappointed, but never really at peace. I still feel the emptiness and lonely feeling followed by being isolated and alone.
 
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MAIO

Elementalist
Apr 8, 2018
841
I've given up my obsessions and crushes quite a while back. I just know that I don't have a snowball's chance in hell to be with someone, let alone someone I want to be with. It has helped me in a sense to become less disappointed, but never really at peace. I still feel the emptiness and lonely feeling followed by being isolated and alone.

If you keep meeting potential partners for good or bad you will meet someone eventually.
 
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TheLastTrip

TheLastTrip

Experienced
Nov 2, 2018
285
I only have a celebrity crush, Sigrid :happy:
 
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TiredHorse

Enlightened
Nov 1, 2018
1,819
Celebrity crushes are fun. Then you learn they already have a partner, who is a thousand times more attractive/interesting than you, and you realize just how alone you'll always be.

At least that seems to be my pattern.
 
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TheLastTrip

TheLastTrip

Experienced
Nov 2, 2018
285
Celebrity crushes are fun. Then you learn they already have a partner, who is a thousand times more attractive/interesting than you, and you realize just how alone you'll always be.

At least that seems to be my pattern.

Ah it's escapism for me bud, I know I'll never meet her let alone ever being able to make her happy, she deserves someone a thousand times better than me so I'm just happy to see her happy. Plus, they say you should never meet your heroes, so in person she might be quite different to what I expect (she might be mean, or arrogant etc, doesn't seem that way but you never know behind closed doors).
 
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Letting Go

Member
Oct 30, 2018
99
I gave up on crushes after getting crushed so many times.
 
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rabid_squirrel

rabid_squirrel

Member
Nov 10, 2018
52
No crush,I've lost all interest in relationships.I don't have the mental capacity to love anyone properly or being in a steady relationship.All I can bring is destruction,just like Rustin in True Detective said,I'm just not good for people, that it's not good for them to be around me. I wear them down. They get unhappy.
I still feel guilt over my last gf.she's such a sweet person,she waited till the exact time of 0:00 to say happy birthday to me,she drove 3 hours to another city just to buy food I enjoy. Luckily I broke up with her before I could do more damage.The guilt is tremendous,it's the last straw,I'm better to be alone so I won't hurt anyone
 
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MachineGunDani

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
336
Hiki❤️ She doesn't deserve u! Rename ur pillow something new! Lol
 
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fuckthis

fuckthis

I've made up my mind.
Sep 23, 2018
263
Yea but it was completely pointless and embarrassing. Crushes are stupid. Now I just never let it happen.
 
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ChickenAndPotatoes

ChickenAndPotatoes

Veteran Veteran
Nov 8, 2018
137
I'm still in lu(st)v with a man from my workplace back in 2015. He was married at the time though and even if he wasn't married and he was equally interested in me, fraternizing in our small unit in the Marine Corps could have gotten us njp'd or worse. Man, I wish I could go back in time. I was 119lbs of pure muscle (weighed that up until August of last year). I stopped working out +being hospitalized in the psych ward on a court hold for two months straight made me fat. Plus, I had lived in a group home for eight months after the hospital and all they cooked was fattening foods. Random rant, I know. I just hate being fat with stretch marks. And obsessing over this dude. I wish we'd never crossed paths...I'm lying, I'm glad I got to lay eyes on his beautiful self. And hear his laughter. He's black and Puerto Rican (I think) and man oh man do mixed black men get my vote.
 
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hikikomori

hikikomori

Attention whore and regular whore
Oct 23, 2018
209
I'm still in lu(st)v with a man
I just hate being fat with stretch marks. And obsessing over this dude. I wish we'd never crossed paths...I'm lying, I'm glad I got to lay eyes on his beautiful self. And hear his laughter.

i feel exactly the same way i should hate them but i dont i wasnt as healthy as u but i was fitt now i could prob be a human sized bowling ball
 
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hikikomori

hikikomori

Attention whore and regular whore
Oct 23, 2018
209
She doesn't deserve u
your right she dosnt deserve me falling in love with her thier are vair few things worse than me falling in love with someone. she has beenpuunished enough and dosent need me to make her feel bad for rejecting me. sorry 4 taking your words outta context but its true unfortunately hugs <3 hiki is depressing in the forum
 
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hikikomori

hikikomori

Attention whore and regular whore
Oct 23, 2018
209
Ah it's escapism for me bud, I know I'll never meet her let alone ever being able to make her happy, she deserves someone a thousand times better than me so I'm just happy to see her happy. Plus, they say you should never meet your heroes, so in person she might be quite different to what I expect (she might be mean, or arrogant etc, doesn't seem that way but you never know behind closed doors).
Celebrity crushes are fun. Then you learn they already have a partner, who is a thousand times more attractive/interesting than you, and you realize just how alone you'll always be.

At least that seems to be my pattern.
Ah it's escapism for me bud, I know I'll never meet her let alone ever being able to make her happy, she deserves someone a thousand times better than me so I'm just happy to see her happy. Plus, they say you should never meet your heroes, so in person she might be quite different to what I expect (she might be mean, or arrogant etc, doesn't seem that way but you never know behind closed doors).
im like that with anime/ game characters they dont have hidden skeletons and its not as frowned apon
 
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longingforrelease

longingforrelease

Specialist
Oct 27, 2018
381
Not really a crush, but I still love my ex-wife.
 
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marcelfoz

marcelfoz

Member
Nov 16, 2018
6
all i have are crushes and an urge to have sex, but everytime i have a crush is something superficial like i want to have sex and after that is just me being over the person. i miss having feelings for ppl, all i wanted is to fall in love for one of my crushes
 
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[NoName]

[NoName]

Student
Nov 15, 2018
146
I have a bf, one of the reasons I'm still here. Leaving would hurt him :notsure:
 
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Kirakishou

Kirakishou

where is the truth?
Nov 1, 2018
46
i had a crush on a guy at my collage, we started messaging but after a while he stopped replying
i guess this is how it will always be, theres no one out there for me because i don't belong here
 
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hikikomori

hikikomori

Attention whore and regular whore
Oct 23, 2018
209
i had a crush on a guy at my collage, we started messaging but after a while he stopped replying
i guess this is how it will always be, theres no one out there for me because i don't belong here
I just messaged mine after a month no response 4 hours later ...,.... Love is bullshit no one really has it FUCK
 
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Kirakishou

Kirakishou

where is the truth?
Nov 1, 2018
46
I just messaged mine after a month no response 4 hours later ...,.... Love is bullshit no one really has it FUCK
its true, everyone's affections are taken by someone who's better....
you seem like a nice person though, i'm sure she didn't deserve you anyway
 
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worldexploder

worldexploder

Visionary
Sep 19, 2018
2,821
I been hurt too many times to have crushes. Every time I even think about a woman (besides my ex wife) in a romantic way it reminds me of the past.
 
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Sharethepain

Sharethepain

We forge the chains we wear in life.
May 2, 2018
138
Not a crush, more like the most desperate need to be by her side. 185 days since break up, I will never be able to let go. She was the literal middle of my universe. Nothing but a colorless and cold reality without her. In 7 days we would have had 4th Anniversary. Words will never be enough to express what she means to me, I just wish she'd know it.
 
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longingforrelease

longingforrelease

Specialist
Oct 27, 2018
381
Not a crush, more like the most desperate need to be by her side. 185 days since break up, I will never be able to let go. She was the literal middle of my universe. Nothing but a colorless and cold reality without her. In 7 days we would have had 4th Anniversary. Words will never be enough to express what she means to me, I just wish she'd know it.
sorry to hear of you pain. I can relate. Hope you find some peace
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,540
nope
 
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Ella Disenchanted

Student
Sep 3, 2018
120
I got someone want to go for coffee. All I could think of was that it better not be a date because romance just gets in the way of my death.
 
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MiserableBastard1995

MiserableBastard1995

Experienced
Mar 17, 2018
291
One relationship, then breakup was enough anxiety, neglect and pain. Never again. No crushes, no checking people out, no socialising with the opposite sex. NEVER, ever again.
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,540
I got someone want to go for coffee. All I could think of was that it better not be a date because romance just gets in the way of my death.
i hate this. Developing relationships is so complicated because you don't want them to have to deal with your death and stuff. So I always gotta avoid girls.
 
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KadathianStr1d3r

KadathianStr1d3r

Shattered Mannequin
Nov 21, 2018
278
Never dated her, camed close to it though, anxiety helped messed it up really badly. She was the pale white fountain glowing amongst the abyss that surrounded me, a year in and we couldve been something special, I messed everything up 4 years ago. She's getting engaged and I have been trying to find another ever since then to no success. She wont leave my mind or more like my mind cant let her go, its like a quick dopamine hit for the mental junkie that is my brain.
 
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Blacktarheroine

Blacktarheroine

Nihilism at its best
Sep 17, 2018
16
I suppose you could call it a crush ... I still have a significant other and some other "options" while however, they have broken my heart and even the scars from previous
People have seriously contributed why I feel
The way I feel- not okay- my hopelessness is on a new level where I suppose it's not
Even relevant anymore if and who I love or like nor are the other petty things in life ... hell, nothing has meaning anymore for
Me and that's fine because I don't plan on trying and failing at living for anything any longer. My ultimate "crush" is my first and true love a toxic relationship but they have died years before and I long to follow...
 
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Toxic Person

Toxic Person

Member
Nov 11, 2018
50
My crush blocked me yesterday and left me. This shit fckng hurts
 
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