Same here, I wish I could move on like you
I know this is kind of going on a tangent, but I subscribed to another break-up recovery site when I was going through a terrible break up. I would always complain on that site that I had lost a good man because of my mental illness, and someone on there told me that when true love came, that person would never leave me. And, maybe this sounds cheesy, but that poster -- whom I've never met, and is a woman -- told me she would never leave me. And, for some reason that helped so much. So, at the risk of freaking you out, I will never leave you, lost illusions. I don't have the answers. I've screwed half a dozen other guys since I last saw that site, so I ain't pretending to be some guru. I am so lonely, and life feels so shitty so much of the time, that I crave something warm and sweet and affectionate. I have messed up my life trying so hard to get people to love me, and I too, find moving on close to impossible. I know so many people who are able to be so spiritual and strong: journaling and reading self-help books and "looking inward." I wish I could do this, but I just can't. I crave contact with other people. I just say all this to let you know that I will never leave you, if that means anything. And, you're not alone. Sorry if I am off-base with this. You are great, Lost Illusions. And, I will never leave you.