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blindstatue

blindstatue

Member
Nov 16, 2018
94
My crush blocked me yesterday and left me. This shit fckng hurts
That sounds like he/she is a cruel and uncaring person (forgive me for saying that). You can't see it right now but maybe you just dodged a bullet. Don't put the blame on yourself.

I hope you find peace.
 
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Help_Me

Help_Me

Gene pool mistake
Oct 21, 2018
516
I still have... What a weak person I'm for my age... I could be colder to everyone so I'd avoid some problems, but I just can't.
 
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Toxic Person

Toxic Person

Member
Nov 11, 2018
50
That sounds like he/she is a cruel and uncaring person (forgive me for saying that). You can't see it right now but maybe you just dodged a bullet. Don't put the blame on yourself.

I hope you find peace.

Thanks for this words <3 I try iy but its really difficult bc she block me for no reason and idk.
I hope i forget her ughh
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
i had a crush on a guy at my collage, we started messaging but after a while he stopped replying
i guess this is how it will always be, theres no one out there for me because i don't belong here[/QUOTE
You are loved and respected. And cared about.
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
i feel exactly the same way i should hate them but i dont i wasnt as healthy as u but i was fitt now i could prob be a human sized bowling ball
He's not beautiful, Chicken and Potatoes. YOU are the beautiful one in the equation.
 
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DariaBuPL

DariaBuPL

Can't take all of this anymore
Nov 30, 2018
27
I'm texting a dude that I meet in the internet. We are friends for like 3 years now (in may 2019 it's gonna be 4) and never really met in real life. I always liked him and at first he said he liked me back, but now I see that he's trying to make up his life with another girl. I mean it's not bad, I would kill myself anyway, so that's good to see him happy at least. It just really hurt that I can't be that girl instead.

I never really told him that I still love him after all these years, because I'm scared of this reaction. But I think that I will tell him on the day before I will commit suicide or something like that.
 
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peacefully31425

peacefully31425

Dirtbag
Aug 28, 2018
162
There is a girl I still think about, and I want to reach out to her, but I'm in such a bad place rn that it would not be a good idea to involve others.
 
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Dor

Dor

SS village idiot
Nov 22, 2018
309
None for a long time, thank god, such an utter pain in the ass.
 
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Herbalpompano75

Herbalpompano75

I loved her
Dec 1, 2018
33
I loved her so much she was the air I breathed I did everything I could to make it work she was the first girl I ever had the feeling she loved me but she cheated on me for months to the one man she told me not to worry about and I believed her and I'm stupid all I can think about is him fucking her and them getting engaged she even sent me a picture a while ago that I saw a ring on her finger and I asked and she lied just said her mom gave it too her and I either want to die or be with her my life was already horrible she was all I had and we have gone back and forth the past week she won't talk to me and I get mad then apologize cause I want her I love her but I can't stop thinking about all the stuff they have done together and she just starts freaking out and saying she's having a panic attack when I ask a simple questions I have so many and she refuses to answer even one and her friends all knew and she even said her mom loved me and was mad that she was doing this to me but honestly I think she told her mom that I cheated she was always getting mad at me saying I was cheating and the whole time she was but yet I'm the failure I'm the piece of shit I have no will to do anything I can barely breathe I haven't eaten for days I can't stop shaking and idk if I should try and make it work and risk getting cheated on again or just to give up and kill myself and I definitely can't just move on I have no motivation to do anything and I know it'll last for months and I can't do this for months I'm driving myself insane the thought of them together is killing me she said she left him and sent me the screenshots and showed that she blocked him but honestly I think she unblocked him and there talking I saw on his page he took down the engaged but but not the pictures of them together and she won't talk to me we were doing fine yesterday then I got home and I couldn't stop thinking about this shit and wanted questions and got mad and demanded answers she blocked me from calling her and I don't know if she's getting my texts my thoughts are eating me up I'm sorry I just don't have anyone else and I'm sorry that i wasted your time reading this
 
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Fucking loving it

Fucking loving it

Specialist
Sep 3, 2018
378
I gotta crush ♡
 
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Threads

Threads

Warlock
Jul 13, 2018
721
I got a couple crushes.
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,540
I got a crush on op.
 
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Dwellinglifeless

Member
Nov 28, 2018
51
It's been almost a year now since my last relationship ended in one of the worst ways possible. I have spent the last year haunted by it, and eternally missing what will never come back. I recently gave away the last of her things just for some temporary relief...I'll always love her and the things she did for me. I do not deserve her though. I have too many problems. I don't believe I would make a good partner for anyone anymore.
 
Sinbad

Sinbad

Self-Annihilation is loading...95%
Nov 27, 2018
542
I still love my sweetheart my soul mate. We separated on good terms, which is reassuring (she lives on the other side of earth).
I have a great urge to call her up but I MUST NOT. My misery is mine alone.
 
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lost illusions

lost illusions

bye
Sep 12, 2018
548
I've given up my obsessions and crushes quite a while back. I just know that I don't have a snowball's chance in hell to be with someone, let alone someone I want to be with. It has helped me in a sense to become less disappointed, but never really at peace. I still feel the emptiness and lonely feeling followed by being isolated and alone.
Same here, I wish I could move on like you
 
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Justwantout

Member
Dec 3, 2018
8
I got someone want to go for coffee. All I could think of was that it better not be a date because romance just gets in the way of my death.
Oh I've had this happen to me. I was planning on doing it after I moved back in with my parents to get away from my stalker ex fiancé. Ended up meeting another guy totally unintentionally. We were together for almost 3 years. Broke up a few months ago. Turns out he gave me an STD. Now I wish I hadn't let him
distract me from what I intended on doing because I'm even worse off than I was before.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I develop mini crushes on guys at the gym lol!
 
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Zaynaldeen

Zaynaldeen

blackpilled subhuman manlet
Oct 18, 2018
108
I'm 18 and haven't had a crush in about 3-4 years, it's a waste of time.
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
I'm texting a dude that I meet in the internet. We are friends for like 3 years now (in may 2019 it's gonna be 4) and never really met in real life. I always liked him and at first he said he liked me back, but now I see that he's trying to make up his life with another girl. I mean it's not bad, I would kill myself anyway, so that's good to see him happy at least. It just really hurt that I can't be that girl instead.

I never really told him that I still love him after all these years, because I'm scared of this reaction. But I think that I will tell him on the day before I will commit suicide or something like that.
I don't understand how you can actually wish this d-bag happiness with another girl. You are fucking great. Fuck that guy for leading you on. I know so much how you feel. I'm sitting here in a cold house (in which I live with my parents) wishing and hoping this particular dirtbag would care about me. I know we (you and I) deserve so much better than this, but it's so hard to really internalize that and believe it when you want that one "special" person to care. Breaking out of that cycle seems impossible, but this site -- and your vulnerable post, in particular -- helps me so much to see past this dumb guy and the dumb me for being so desperate for love and attention that I was happy to take whatever scraps he gave me.
Please know that you are so much more beautiful than this guy -- or this other beeyotch -- ever will be.
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
Same here, I wish I could move on like you
I know this is kind of going on a tangent, but I subscribed to another break-up recovery site when I was going through a terrible break up. I would always complain on that site that I had lost a good man because of my mental illness, and someone on there told me that when true love came, that person would never leave me. And, maybe this sounds cheesy, but that poster -- whom I've never met, and is a woman -- told me she would never leave me. And, for some reason that helped so much. So, at the risk of freaking you out, I will never leave you, lost illusions. I don't have the answers. I've screwed half a dozen other guys since I last saw that site, so I ain't pretending to be some guru. I am so lonely, and life feels so shitty so much of the time, that I crave something warm and sweet and affectionate. I have messed up my life trying so hard to get people to love me, and I too, find moving on close to impossible. I know so many people who are able to be so spiritual and strong: journaling and reading self-help books and "looking inward." I wish I could do this, but I just can't. I crave contact with other people. I just say all this to let you know that I will never leave you, if that means anything. And, you're not alone. Sorry if I am off-base with this. You are great, Lost Illusions. And, I will never leave you.
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
There is a girl I still think about, and I want to reach out to her, but I'm in such a bad place rn that it would not be a good idea to involve others.
That's really cool that you have such self control. I should take a page from your book.
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
Same. Everyone blocks me or don't answer me anymore after 3 days lol
Thanks for saying that. It's so easy to feel like a grade A freak. People block me because I come on way too strong. Maybe not immediately, but way too damned soon. And, then the blocking starts. Thanks for sharing your experiences. Really helps me out. Thank you.
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
I still love my sweetheart my soul mate. We separated on good terms, which is reassuring (she lives on the other side of earth).
I have a great urge to call her up but I MUST NOT. My misery is mine alone.
That's some stone-cold strength. Respect.
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
It's been almost a year now since my last relationship ended in one of the worst ways possible. I have spent the last year haunted by it, and eternally missing what will never come back. I recently gave away the last of her things just for some temporary relief...I'll always love her and the things she did for me. I do not deserve her though. I have too many problems. I don't believe I would make a good partner for anyone anymore.
Oh, please don't say that. No one as sweet as you is undeserving of love. I can't claim credit for these affirmations (i.e., I didn't invent them), but Dwellinglifeless, you utterly and completely deserve love and kindness. You are a VERY lovable person. You are kind, compassionate, intelligent, and wise. I've never met you, but I can say with confidence that these three things are true. Our exes would never have the nuts to go on a forum like this, and reach out to other people in pain. Don't put that ex on a pedestal. You are too good for HER.
 
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