
AN IDIOT'S END
Death to the World
- Feb 24, 2021
- 39
I'm not going to ctb any time soon because I told myself I'd wait till I'm 25 to see if things get better. about 2 years ago I broke up with my... almost-fiancee? he said he wasn't attracted to me anymore. I thought I was going to marry him and ever since I haven't loved anyone else and don't think I ever will so I haven't dated at all. I've been getting sexually harassed on the regular and I think (almost) everyone in my life is a bad person. I can't trust anyone. I don't have friends or family. There's just no one.
But I do have one of my ex-professors. He's an old man and he's the first one in awhile that I've befriended that didn't end up trying to touch me inappropriately. He says I remind him of his daughter and he likes to talk to me and is the only person I can go to for help no matter what the problem is.
He's the first person I go to when someone tries to hurt me or I can't handle my job or whatever. He knows about all the sexual harassment and whatnot. I want to tell him that I might kill myself soon. I feel like I have to tell someone. I want to tell him about the self harm too but that might be a bit much.
Should I keep it all in or what? How often do normies flip shit when you tell them you want to die? idk what to do.
But I do have one of my ex-professors. He's an old man and he's the first one in awhile that I've befriended that didn't end up trying to touch me inappropriately. He says I remind him of his daughter and he likes to talk to me and is the only person I can go to for help no matter what the problem is.
He's the first person I go to when someone tries to hurt me or I can't handle my job or whatever. He knows about all the sexual harassment and whatnot. I want to tell him that I might kill myself soon. I feel like I have to tell someone. I want to tell him about the self harm too but that might be a bit much.
Should I keep it all in or what? How often do normies flip shit when you tell them you want to die? idk what to do.