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Broken Chimera

Broken Chimera

The abyss also gazes into you
May 27, 2019
972
I've suffered greatly because of what was done to me. I'm not the same after that.
Wondering if damage is reversible?
It's reversible. But it could take years to recover if at all.
 
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Dark days

Dark days

Seeking peace
Feb 11, 2020
57
Grime prospects :(
 
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yellowjasminegoing

Member
Nov 29, 2021
85
I just can't believe psych doctors, nurses, workers, bosses and psychiatrists really can get away with this. Hazardous medicine practice.

I was destroyed by it. I still can't come up with the language to describe it. I am speechless.
 
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myopybyproxy

flickerbeat \\ gibberish-noise
Dec 18, 2021
864
No. My delusions started in 2010 and i refused any meds. My schizophrenia/delusions got slowly progressively worse till 2017 when i was eventually forced on meds. It took a few months on meds for my delusions to clear completely and i'm symptom free today.
Did you continue to take medication after your symptoms went away?
 
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LookieLou

Member
Dec 21, 2021
41
The newer drugs have been rushed to market and are notoriously bad when it comes to side effects. With new drugs the pharma industry says "most people" got relief when really only 61% got relief. It's a clear majority but not enough for me anymore. If you check drugs.com you can see the real stats on how helpful any drug is vs the side effects. Check every med: some have not been on the market long enough for docs and pharma to know well they work over time.

I've tried a lot of the new drugs, just looking for something to take away my depression, but have found problems with all of them:
- abilify made me super nauseous and gave me the sensation of peeing down my leg every 2 minutes. Really. Every 2 minutes.
- effexor put me in the hospital for 5 days after taking half the starting dose for just 2 weeks, then falling 6 timesin one day.
- welbutrin gave me Parkinson's disease permanently.
- latuda made my chin and eyebrows twitch, a well known side effect of many of these drugs that can be permanent if you don't stop immediately.
- olanzapine gave me tremors and brain fog.
- lithium, an old drug, ruined my balance and ability to hold things. I spilled boiling soup down my front and got 2nd and 3rd degree burns
- electro-shock treatments stopped my heart the first time we did it. They didn't tell me. And it made it impossible for me to think straight after just 2 treatments. I stopped then, but most people do 12 rounds.

Now we're trying to find a drug to stop what feel like electric shocks in my legs because of the Parkinson's. Backlofen and methocarbamol make it much worse.

I don't have hope that some new drug will fix me. It's an everyday fight to keep going with old drugs which lose their abilities to work at low doses like they used to.

I have tremors, twitches, permanently slurred speech, incontinence, I'm in a wheelchair because I can't balance well enough to walk and I'm unable to keep up my house, drive or cook. I'll see pain management next week for the first time because my body has been in pain since mid-December.

I was pretty much okay before I started this journey. Now my quality of life is near zero.
 
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MikeDeross82

MikeDeross82

Currently in hell
Sep 20, 2021
58
PSSD from SSRI
 
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bloodfallsfirst

bloodfallsfirst

Member
Nov 2, 2021
73
I wound up in the hospital because mine arranged my meds cocktail to help me lose weight, then didn't bother giving me two of three meds. Go figure
 
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Feeding Pigeons

Feeding Pigeons

Warlock
Aug 5, 2021
776
I've tried a lot of the new drugs, just looking for something to take away my depression, but have found problems with all of them:
My god, your post made me realize how many potential bullets I've dodged. I've taken some of those meds. I'm so sorry, I get angry knowing the doctors who perscribed those medications to you will not face justice.
 
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Steve

Member
Jun 14, 2018
81
I was perfectly normal before a GP prescribed me benzos in 2017. That led to a withdrawal and prescription cascade that resulted in me acquiring neuropathy and PSSD. I also acquired a brain injury that result in me being hyper-sensitive to stress and to enter a state of zoning out, which I discovered only recently was latent since the 2017 incident.
 
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suicidalloser

Specialist
Jun 30, 2023
365
me—7 years after 3
 
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loyalskateboard

loyalskateboard

Specialist
May 4, 2023
336
Olanzapine made me extremely tired, sleeping from 8-8 plus multiple naps. I also gained weight.

Risperidone fucked with my prolactin levels. Almost needed a scan to make sure it wasn't a tumour

Fluoxetine made me more suicidal

Effexor gave me small withdrawals right at the 24 hour mark. When I went off it completely I had a week of migraines and feeling like shit. Couldn't tolerate any light whatsoever and was dizzy and sick

Aripiprazole gave me hand tremors

Those are the most notable side effects I've experienced, I think. Most of it happened as a teenager which sucked
 
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