Story Who have you let down the most in your life? Who would miss you the most?

[lolsente]

When I picture the heartbreak my dad will experience when he has to bury me, my heart breaks. This leaves me almost heartbroken enough to give up on trying to ctb. ALMOST.

He had no idea his little princess would turn out the way I have. I am quite literally a monster, it's almost humorous. I'm a shell of a person, barely a person at this point. I have nothing inside of me and I have nothing ahead of me. Something tells me he knows, but I'm not sure. He may still have hope in me and that's crushing because he's wasting his time.

I know my death will precede my parents'. I've actually known this since I was a kid. My end is near & I am so apologetic for the pain I will soon cause my dad. He's my person I've disappointed the most and he will also miss me the most.

Who's your person? Pls share.

 

[MyChoiceToLeave]

Great story lolsente. For me, I have no family or friends left, so nobody will miss me.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I think I've let myself down in life the most. I didn't plan it to be like this. It just kinda happened. The people I'll miss are already the ones I miss, because all of my family has died. I have no family left, no friends, so nobody will miss me, either. So, I don't have that guilt, at least.

 

[bed]

I let down myself the most.

I think my sister and mom will miss me the most. My mom has told me she couldn't go on if she lost one of us. She deals with her own mental health issues. I can't live for others forever though.

 

[FuneralCry]

Other peoples reactions to my death could never matter to me as I will simply not be there to see it. My life and death are both unimportant and insignificant. Maybe I let myself down by not finding a way to exit this life earlier, as if I did that it would have prevented a lot of suffering. However, it is the fault of the society for making suicide so difficult. If suicide was easier, I would be long gone.

 

[QuietEnd]

Who's your person? Pls share.

My partner, he's the only person who's loved me, supported me, cheered me on, cheered me up, provided safety in an otherwise cruel world.

Unfortunately I can't live isolated from the world. I wish I could be financially secure to enable that to happen. Then I might be able to live despite my physical and mental illnesses.

 

[ghqkiiia2]

When I picture the heartbreak my dad will experience when he has to bury me, my heart breaks. This leaves me almost heartbroken enough to give up on trying to ctb. ALMOST.

He had no idea his little princess would turn out the way I have. I am quite literally a monster, it's almost humorous. I'm a shell of a person, barely a person at this point. I have nothing inside of me and I have nothing ahead of me. Something tells me he knows, but I'm not sure. He may still have hope in me and that's crushing because he's wasting his time.

I know my death will precede my parents'. I've actually known this since I was a kid. My end is near & I am so apologetic for the pain I will soon cause my dad. He's my person I've disappointed the most and he will also miss me the most.

Who's your person? Pls share.

Same here, I can't imagine the pain my parents have to bear if I to CTB, this is mainly what keeps me alive.
Other than that, a few couple of really closed friends and my tutor, but my parents are definitely the prime factor, although I am not sure how long I can keep struggling.
Wish you well, good luck.

 

[PleaseTakeMeAway]

My ex boyfriend. I ruined everything between us. I miss him a lot and I'll miss that I won't be able to talk to him and see if he's okay.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I've let down all my friends and coworkers by being half assed ….

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

My ex sent me to mental hell by her selfish actions.
My GF will miss me the most probably.
Shit.

 

[self.destractive]

my mother will be devastated. my little sister will be traumatized. my brothers will be absolutely broken. if i make this decision and carry it through i will be effectively kicking a family while theyre down. we are all still mourning the loss of my dad, a year hasn't passed yet since he went, the wounds are still pretty fresh and i doubt any of us will truly get over it.

other than my family, i feel as though i've let my professors down. they said i had a lot of potential and i dropped out. they genuinely cared about me and worried a lot about my wellbeing.

 

[abyss]

I've let down myself the most. I've spent my life wasting my abilities and attributes because of self-destructive thinking and no self-worth. I had so many opportunities.
It didn't have to be this way.
My parents would miss me the most. I don't want to cause them that pain.

 

[neverbeenbetter]

never had any friends, never had any family who loved me for who i am and not the version of myself that they want me to be in their mind, never had any romantic partners, never had any money, never had any opportunity to improve my life.

the thing that let me down most in life is life itself.




read that title wrong but i guess i wont take this down, whatever.

 

[Job Joad]

My mother stopped caring about me and my father straight up betrayed me when I was loyal to him. Both have died. Good riddance! My sister and my other relatives I never see. Their idiocy cost me money and are the reason I'm on this fucking forum. They can all rot in hell!