NSFW Who else watches gore to cope?

[time.is.near]

It's becoming a rly bad issue for me meaning it's starting to affect my real life. I'm always thinking about it, and it helps with the urges to harm myself and I'm wondering if im not alone in coping this way. It's a terrible terrible coping mechanism and I don't think anyone should do it

 

[TheUncommon]

Ever since I was a tween. Whether it was other suicides or accidents, I often imagined myself in those scenarios to gauge which methods to absolutely never try based on the aftereffects. And, given the nature that a lot of them happened as a result of freak accidents at home, I also used them to see what accidents I could purposefully generate at home in order to end my life.

Wasn't very effective, evidently.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I've loved horror for this very reason, especially dystopian films and triller to catch me up on my toes, not because I am a dark person, but because I wished I could feel what the people are feeling, even as I hate the human race. I always wanted to be in a life or death situation. And right now, Squid Game is in my mind as I love knowing I could be in that as I set with homelessness and money and would've joined without hesitation if I learned it involved death

 

[astr4]

i don't watch gore specifically, i think knowing it's real makes me uncomfortable. i do, however, love horror movies and horror video games. if i'm scared, i can't be sad. i wonder if that would be an alternative that works for you.

 

[danny10]

I agree with you OP. It's a terrible coping mechanism. I learned it the hard way as I also watched a lot of gore. I think it eventually broke my mind. So since I distance myself from gore.

 

[Gangrel]

I do it too sometimes, then i feel really bad after, i don't even know why.

 

[Haematemesis]

I watch it sometimes. However I listen to goregrind every single day if this is related
I love the pathological themes with horror and blood. I love the harsh, fast melodies and vocal that sound like a pig is getting dismembered alive.

 

[deadstillwalking]

yeah a little while ago I realized that I don't actually like the horror genre because of spooky scary scenes, it's because of the terror and despair, sadness and grief the characters often experience, which basically made me subconsciously relate to them. Same goes with gore. I hate guts and blood so I never had a proper explaination as to why I watched it so often, so I blamed it on morbid curiosity. It was often family relative killings or suicides where people broke down while giving us their reasoning. The more I watched it, the sadder it got. At one point it was so bad that I purposefully searched up kids dying near their parents as it conveyed tremendous amount of emotion. That's when I seriously began questioning my morality. I don't remember the last time I've been to gore sites, my head's got better so I obviously don't want to touch that horrible shit in the near future.

 

[yxmux]

All the time, especially suicides with visible or audible reactions by others. It's a bit frustrating though because you begin to only come across videos you've already watched, and any new ones are too similar. I wouldn't say it's become a "problem," though.

 

[StrawberryRed]

It's becoming a rly bad issue for me meaning it's starting to affect my real life. I'm always thinking about it, and it helps with the urges to harm myself and I'm wondering if im not alone in coping this way. It's a terrible terrible coping mechanism and I don't think anyone should do it

Sometimes I watch suicides, specifically gun suicides, to desensitize myself for when I do it. I've only been doing it for like a month and half now but its definitely already affecting me. It doesn't make me happy or satisfied at all. Do u think u can quit? How long have u had the addiction???

 

[zerocontrol]

I sometimes look at things like that, although mostly suicide videos. Seeing people successfully overcome their SI is somewhat inspiring.

 

[yowai]

When I'm in a really really bad place I read about gruesome accidents and look up photos or videos related to them and jump into these rabbit holes so yeah

 

[time.is.near]

i don't watch gore specifically, i think knowing it's real makes me uncomfortable. i do, however, love horror movies and horror video games. if i'm scared, i can't be sad. i wonder if that would be an alternative that works for you.

Quite the opposite for me, I like the horror genre in all mediums but the fact gore is real is what does it for me, I just know that horror gore is fake and it's just not the same :/

Sometimes I watch suicides, specifically gun suicides, to desensitize myself for when I do it. I've only been doing it for like a month and half now but its definitely already affecting me. It doesn't make me happy or satisfied at all. Do u think u can quit? How long have u had the addiction???

I've watched it when I was a younger teen. Now in my early 20s it seems to have made it's way back into my life in the form of making me feel numb to death and gore instead of morbid curiosity. Hby?