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Xaphous

Xaphous

hikikomori
Nov 11, 2018
550
Yeah if or when I kill myself thats one of the main reasons.
 
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silent staring void

Student
Jan 22, 2020
145
Getting old and dying alone after all the people that still knew me are already gone is the most terrifying thing in the world to me. So I'm glad if I don't have to experience that.
 
UberYeets

UberYeets

Humans are mercenaries by nature, loyal by will.
Apr 7, 2020
44
Grew up an only child in a single parent home and with severe depression w psychotic features(diagnosed) and Asperger's too...gets a bit funky when you are from a minority within a minority and have a odd look to you too smh. Never been religious though I see the lil pieces of the jigsaw puzzle they all have from their perspectives and what not, despite causing me to become and even blacker sheep within my extended family. I just feel so incompatible in this climate, loneliness has been a factor in my social pain in this world. I've been alone in my ctb journey for 9 years since my mid teens. Simply being alive is hell.
 
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terry_a_davis

terry_a_davis

Warlock
Dec 28, 2019
707
I suspect death would be better for me than complete isolation and loneliness yes.
 

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