Grew up an only child in a single parent home and with severe depression w psychotic features(diagnosed) and Asperger's too...gets a bit funky when you are from a minority within a minority and have a odd look to you too smh. Never been religious though I see the lil pieces of the jigsaw puzzle they all have from their perspectives and what not, despite causing me to become and even blacker sheep within my extended family. I just feel so incompatible in this climate, loneliness has been a factor in my social pain in this world. I've been alone in my ctb journey for 9 years since my mid teens. Simply being alive is hell.