Discussion Who do you live for?

[middlelord]

I'm still here for my mom. I can't imagine what's going to happen with my mom if I CTB.

 

[societyhater]

Hope

 

[brokeandbroken]

To be honest i have absolutely nobody to live for. No family, no friends, nobody. I'm about as alone as a human can be. Just someone robbed of everything including any opportunities and just outcasted....

 

[blackpillhopeless]

The hope that I may potentially find a romantic partner one day.

 

[APeacefulPlace]

The only person I'm living for right now is my best friend, haven't told her about my plans, and feels nearly impossible to share. Not even sure what to say exactly but I know I need to say something. Hope she's doing well, we haven't talked for months.

( PS. If you're reading this Z, I love you and I'm sorry. )

 

[-nobodyknows-]

No one, unfortunately. I do wish I had someone though

 

[yehxlder.666]

Nobody. There are people i'd die for though.

 

[Anonymousa]

I guess I am just living for my dog now as I know if I died he would miss me cus I am his favorite person. I also think about maybe living to maybe provide others some enjoyment with things I am making. I used to want to live for my best friend but as we are interacting less, cus of his mum not liking me, my want to stay for him is waning. I don't life for family as I think they deserve to suffer and grief from my suicide as they created and have prevent my ctb attempts. Tho I am less living for people but cus I literally can't kill myself due to my lack of access to effective methods.

 

[tiredoflife2]

My teenage son and my cats.

 

[ringo99]

I'm still here for my mom. I can't imagine what's going to happen with my mom if I CTB.

Same here. But I will ctb for sure. My only concern is that the money I leave behind should be enough to wipe out the family debts and help her live a normal life for a few more years. I'm more useful dead than alive

 

[kcon1243]

Nobody, everyone in my life would be totally fine at the end of the day without me and likely better off so only thing keeping me alive is how much of a pain averse wimp I am.

 

[CanIStopTryingNow]

My mom and dad

 

[idkwhatlol]

my love thats in prison right now and will probably have life in prison

 

[Languish]

A dream that doesn't exist.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I live for my loved ones, but I'm planning to CTB eminently so thay won't hold me back.

 

[onthefence]

My people

 

[maniac116]

I live for myself, but I also try to be of service to others. For me that's the right thing. I try to live with the thought that maybe this god is real

 

[milkteacrown]

The number one thing I live for is a hypothetical. I want to make a real human connection and feel attached to it. If I die, I'll never be able to see it.

 

[Grav]

Daughter.

 

[DivineSpark]

My mother. She is closest member to me in my family.

 

[Forever Sleep]

My Dad.

 

[HighFlight]

I remain on this planet to support my family - a wife with cancer, adult children both with mental health and an one with gender dysphoria, aging parents, a sister who was just scammed out of $25k, and of course, all of you who rely on this safe space. On my own, I am nothing. But there are people I need to stick around for in the short term.

 

[HighFlight]

The number one thing I live for is a hypothetical. I want to make a real human connection and feel attached to it. If I die, I'll never be able to see it.

What's stopping you from making that happen?

 

[milkteacrown]

What's stopping you from making that happen?

I don't feel attached to others. Or in other words, I have a complete disinterest in them as a person. If I talked to a friend every day for years and then they moved away and didn't speak to me again, I wouldn't feel anything. It's an issue with my chemistry.
I do desire that connection, though.

 

[whitetaildeer]

i have one friend i've made on here. absolute darling of a person and i won't @ him; he needs the space right now. and honestly i don't know how he'd react. i get jittery thinking about much much i care about him, and it'd be weird of me to try and put that into words here, as opposed to giving him what i can manage in private.

and as weird as it is, considering how much my father has hurt me (and continues to do so), i live for him as well. i love him despite of it all, and i know he'd take advantage of that if he knew. i'm the only family he has left, and the only person he loves left. it makes me sick to think about what my suicide will do to him.

 

[Despair 7]

No one at all, I am just waiting for a chance to suicide as soon as possible

 

[HighFlight]

I don't feel attached to others. Or in other words, I have a complete disinterest in them as a person. If I talked to a friend every day for years and then they moved away and didn't speak to me again, I wouldn't feel anything. It's an issue with my chemistry.
I do desire that connection, though.

I have similar feelings. I can have a connection if the other person is in the here and now. But as soon as they leave, the connection is gone.

To help overcome this, I've tried to make a conscious effort to stay connected to some people. It does help some, but requires a lot of effort.

 

[sadalways]

For my Mom here as well. Also a small hope that i'll find a partner who'd love me for who i am cause that's all i really wanted... but that's pretty much impossible so that hope is slowly fading.

 

[deleteduser853695]

Nobody. I used to live for some friends of mine in high school, but we lost contact when I moved away. Now they don't respond to my messages.

 

[NonEssential]

My family and pets. No other reason to be alive really.