Who do you envy the most?

[myownpetvirus]

I think a lot of us are jealous since our situation is pretty bleak, but who do you envy the most?

 

[Shu]

I'm not jealous over any of those things but some N would be nice.

 

[Hotsackage]

not jelous. just wish people would stop expecting me to try and have a normal life. i mean i practically got canned from a volunteer job lol. but ive just cut out those people neway so screwem

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'd prefer to have died by natural causes (painlessly preferably.) I think that would be easier on my family and friends. Still- I'm not exactly jealous of other people who have died- they probably didn't want to!

I suppose I am jealous of people who don't have the same hang ups that I do- massive self doubt and social anxiety. I expect I would be doing better in life without them. Still- I also wonder if other people DO in fact have their own insecurities but have just worked harder to overcome them. In which case- I know I shouldn't really be jealous- I should be ashamed that I haven't tried harder.

I don't really believe in the happily ever after thing though. Not for me anyhow. Life just seems too much of a compromise to me. The way I see it- nature is unfair and most societies are corrupt. If you happen to have the fortune of good genes, health and wealth- what are the chances you got that money without exploiting other people? Perhaps there are still some good people out there- who earn their extreme wealth through a decent living. I'm not so sure overall though.

If you don't have wealth- what are the chances you'll get a job and life you enjoy- EVEN if you have the genes and health to educate yourself. EVEN if you put in the work? Perhaps I'm a pessimist (I mean- I am.) Still- I just think this world is tough. Too tough to be worth fighting for some sliver of happiness in.

 

[Unending]

I'm not particularly jealous of any of the options listed above but if I had to give some kind of answer, I think those who were never born are the most lucky. If not an average person never being born, then a person who may have ended up with chronic and debilitating mental illness never being born is definitely a good thing as far as I'm concerned. So much suffering and torment to be avoided.

 

[myownpetvirus]

I'd prefer to have died by natural causes (painlessly preferably.) I think that would be easier on my family and friends. Still- I'm not exactly jealous of other people who have died- they probably didn't want to!

I suppose I am jealous of people who don't have the same hang ups that I do- massive self doubt and social anxiety. I expect I would be doing better in life without them. Still- I also wonder if other people DO in fact have their own insecurities but have just worked harder to overcome them. In which case- I know I shouldn't really be jealous- I should be ashamed that I haven't tried harder.

I don't really believe in the happily ever after thing though. Not for me anyhow. Life just seems too much of a compromise to me. The way I see it- nature is unfair and most societies are corrupt. If you happen to have the fortune of good genes, health and wealth- what are the chances you got that money without exploiting other people? Perhaps there are still some good people out there- who earn their extreme wealth through a decent living. I'm not so sure overall though.

If you don't have wealth- what are the chances you'll get a job and life you enjoy- EVEN if you have the genes and health to educate yourself. EVEN if you put in the work? Perhaps I'm a pessimist (I mean- I am.) Still- I just think this world is tough. Too tough to be worth fighting for some sliver of happiness in.

Lol I love your responses you seem very well calculated and have thought through this a lot. I used to have really bad social anxiety to the point of running out of rooms in a sweat. I used opiates to deal with it.
There are tons of people that deal with those issues all around you

 

[GasMonkey]

People with superior genetics and optimal health.

 

[Jarni]

Healthy people with happy families (marriages).

 

[myownpetvirus]

Is

Healthy people with happy families (marriages).

Is that what you would want is a marriage?

 

[Jarni]

Is

Is that what you would want is a marriage?

I'm severly chronically ill... So a good health would be enough (my life was good and very very interesting before...).
But to be really happy in addition to the health I need to be with a man I love (it is impossible...). Otherwise anyway it is an eternal suffering that I didn't meet him lots of years earlier.....

 

[myownpetvirus]

I'm severly chronically ill... So a good health would be enough (my life was good and very very interesting before...).
But to be really happy in addition to the health I need to be with a man I love (it is impossible...). Otherwise anyway it is an eternal suffering that I didn't meet him lots of years earlier.....

I feel that too I have a brain injury that negates my ability to ever have a good life. Sometimes I wonder if we're worse off having been happy before.

 

[Jarni]

I feel that too I have a brain injury that negates my ability to ever have a good life. Sometimes I wonder if we're worse off having been happy before.

Thank you... Yes, the grief of the good life is extremely, extremely difficult. I can't even say to myself "in any case life is shit"... I had a poetic life knowing outstanding people and events in my life. My life was not simple at all. I knew extreme poverty in my childhood, difficult illnesses etc. I'm not a fan of old age either. But the idea of the finitude of life, which I was aware of from an early age, has always made me move forward in a good mood and with humour. I never took life seriously. It's too short for that... I've always found ways to have fun. I'm also very interested in arts, knowledge, philosophy, nature, sports... It is infinite...

 

[FuneralCry]

I only envy those who are no longer existing, especially those who passed away peacefully. To me, non existence will always be preferable to any kind of life as there is so much beauty in the thought of being permanently at rest. I only consider those who have a peaceful and reliable suicide method to be the only existing people who are really fortunate as they can just free themselves from what the true problem is which is life itself. Life certainly is the problem as existing could never be beneficial, instead it's only a disadvantage that causes harm to existing beings all for no reason.

 

[myownpetvirus]

I only envy those who are no longer existing, especially those who passed away peacefully. To me, non existence will always be preferable to any kind of life as there is so much beauty in the thought of being permanently at rest. I only consider those who have a peaceful and reliable suicide method to be the only existing people who are really fortunate as they can just free themselves from what the true problem is which is life itself. Life certainly is the problem as existing could never be beneficial, instead it's only a disadvantage that causes harm to existing beings all for no reason.

I was waiting for you to chime in with your spicy take

I only envy those who are no longer existing, especially those who passed away peacefully. To me, non existence will always be preferable to any kind of life as there is so much beauty in the thought of being permanently at rest. I only consider those who have a peaceful and reliable suicide method to be the only existing people who are really fortunate as they can just free themselves from what the true problem is which is life itself. Life certainly is the problem as existing could never be beneficial, instead it's only a disadvantage that causes harm to existing beings all for no reason.

Have you ever felt joy ever?

 

[Anon1337]

Lottery winners.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I voted for recovered and happy. I want my old healthy life back. If I had that, I don't think I'd be here. I wasn't 100% happy before the illnesses, but I also didn't want to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

Have you ever felt joy ever?

No, as I've never really wanted to be here at all. I've never even been content with existing and I've always disliked the fact that I was so unfairly brought into this world. Existence is something that is completely unappealing to me.

 

[myownpetvirus]

I voted for recovered and happy. I want my old healthy life back. If I had that, I don't think I'd be here. I wasn't 100% happy before the illnesses, but I also didn't want to die.

Same. What's your illness if you don't mind?

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Same. What's your illness if you don't mind?

Lupus, interstitial cystitis, neuropathy, protracted benzodiazepine withdrawal.

 

[weightedrocks]

Tbh just any cis woman, or trans woman who passes.

 

[jay308]

I envy no one. No one did wrong to me. It was always me.. my mistakes and my wrong doings. I beg for apology from everyone. I want to see everyone happy.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I think a lot of us are jealous since our situation is pretty bleak, but who do you envy the most?

I envy those that never existed in the first place the most. I don't envy any living creature

 

[Dot]

Recvrd & hppy bcse slf ws buldng & amzng lfe & slf wnt it bck

 

[epic]

6. People who eat whatever they like and don't get fat .
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People who recovered and are happy, we have got this one opportunity to be alive why throw it away without good reason.

 

[arcadia]

Not jealous, but obviously people who have recovered and are genuinely happy. That's a beautiful thing, to recover from this kind of despair.

 

[myownpetvirus]

Lupus, interstitial cystitis, neuropathy, protracted benzodiazepine withdrawal.

I have protracted benzo withdrawal too

 

[Inferno]

Females

 

[LittleBlackCat]

Females

Why?