Which person do you consider to be the most responsible for your ctb? (multiple choices available)

  • Yourself

    Votes: 78 64.5%
  • Family

    Votes: 44 36.4%
  • Friends

    Votes: 11 9.1%
  • Partner / Ex-Partner

    Votes: 8 6.6%
  • Society in general

    Votes: 48 39.7%
  • Other

    Votes: 15 12.4%
  • No one in particular (other reasons)

    Votes: 12 9.9%

  • Total voters
    121
Cyndaquil

Cyndaquil

Need Peace
Dec 2, 2023
61
I have a mix of them, but I mostly blame myself for having got into my situation.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,155
Episode 4 Movie GIF by Star Wars
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,450
Myself mostly but the government for doing nothing useful for recovery and suicide prevention for the past decade.
 
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DesperateOne

DesperateOne

Specialist
May 25, 2023
318
30% me and 70% my family.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
3,649
Myself. If I wasn't such a defective degenerate whose main talent was fucking both themself and everyone else around them then I wouldn't be in this mess.
 
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hikikomorizombie

hikikomorizombie

Ouch
Jan 15, 2024
771
def a mix of me & my mom, + life itself. i believe u can't truly blame any1 but urself for the way that u/ur life turn out (barring extreme cases, & even then there'll be a few that still beat the odds). however, im also not foolish enough to think that how you're raised + ur childhood don't play pivotal roles in who u become.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,202
I don't blame anybody. In my case, it's existence which is the problem and I can't really blame anybody for that. I can only blame life for being the way that it is. Sure, I may only see life this way because of autism but it's not like I caused this neurotype to occur and my parents didn't know either until after I was born
 
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uzuf86

Too many mistakes and regrets
Jan 1, 2024
232
In my case, it is me. And then god, because I've asked him for help so many times and life only became worse.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,792
My fu*king bad luck!
 
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mortuarymary

mortuarymary

Enlightened
Jan 17, 2024
1,363
Me. i got bipolar and long covid, can't really blame anyone else.
maybe the Dr that put me on Tegretol for years and fucked my white blood cell count, so I get every cold, flu etc out there.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,535
Myself.

I made the wrong decisions at certain points in life which lead to a big failure I'm suffering from since years (mainly of financial nature).
 
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Endofit

Get me out of here
Jan 19, 2024
69
Myself.

I made the wrong decisions at certain points in life which lead to a big failure I'm suffering from since years (mainly of financial nature).
All the same
 
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matt1968

Student
Nov 6, 2023
128
Between me and my family as I didn't really develop emotionally well and I just focussed on too few things - academic and sports - to the detriment of getting social skills and how life works.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,920
Those who so selfishly decide to procreate are those ultimately responsible for creating all the suffering and harm in the first place, it's very tragic to procreate into this disgusting and hellish world where there is potential for the most extreme suffering and torture. I see wanting death as the only logical response to escape from the futility and cruelty of existing, existence itself is the true problem and could never be a desirable state under any circumstances, it's such a terrible, horrific tragedy how life even existed at all. It's horrifying how we cannot just have the option to easily die in peace as in my case the ideal state of eternal non-existence will always be preferable to decaying and deteriorating from age in this meaningless existence.
 
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Slow_Farewell

Slow_Farewell

Warlock
Dec 19, 2023
709
85% me
5% family
10% Society In General for not preparing me for this crap.
 
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BlackMoon

BlackMoon

Peace-seeker
Oct 30, 2023
190
Most human beings stigmatize people like me, it'll never change, and I don't think I should feel guilty as people would like to see me. Living for lying is unbearable, but it's what society force me to do.
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,322
The universe for existing.
 
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polka slide

polka slide

tired
Aug 23, 2023
14
the bitch named angelica and my friends for bootlicking her when shes making false accusations about me
 
Mitsumi

Mitsumi

Student
Dec 23, 2023
108
Me, bullies, family. Life itself.
 
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goblin99

goblin99

😢
Jan 12, 2024
35
I mostly blame myself, but when I write my note I'm going to make sure my dad knows the part he played in leading me to being depressed for over a decade.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,274
Myself and the man that assaulted Me and caused my stroke
 
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DecisionToLeave

DecisionToLeave

Member
Jan 28, 2024
22
I hate myself, and I can't stand myself anymore.
 
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Manfrotto99

Specialist
Oct 10, 2023
307
Most definitely family. I had a controlling narcissistic father and narcissistic golden child older sister who installed in me a looser/ victim mentally from the momment I was born. From the time I went out into the world I was vulnerable and attracted narcisists and abusers like a moth to a flame and it was all down hill from there. Never stood a chance. It didn't help that I am short with a hereditary tremor that made me look the part too. Important decisions I made under stress where never done from a secure place like they should have, if i'd had a good upbringing and supportive family environment. I only knew and learnt to have unhealthy relationships. I didnt have cousins either - I was always alone. Of cause someone with a different personality and or looks, who fitted in better with society's expectations may of been able to change things around, so in that regards I do take some responsibility.
 
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BlockHammer

BlockHammer

Confused loser
Oct 25, 2023
244
It's actually a mix up between myself that's worthless, uncapable to be happy or at least be financially independent. And also the circumstances that i faced right now
 
Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
The bitch who gave birth to me - I don't consider her family.
 
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anxious_depressive

I'm in despair
Dec 21, 2021
226
Just me.

Because I'm a stupid, ugly loser.

I've made too many irreparable mistakes in my life.
 
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transgenderfailure

Subhuman Creature
Apr 30, 2018
118
I have no idea who to blame.
 

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