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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Anybody who tries to talk anyone down from the ledges. Most of us are in a very rigid mind state when about to carry out ctb. So the people who know what to say to get through to some of us are important here. Not everyone that is going to ctb is doing it irrationally and I realize that, but probably many people are doing it irrationally bc in the moment u can not be flexible in your thinking.
 
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Mizzmini45

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2019
447
fightingsioux
 
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CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
@Jean4 for always being so amazing to everyone here, and opening your arms to anyone who needs it. And @BooGirl because you seem like such a sweet, lovely person. Thank you both for checking in on me while things have been darker. Sending hugs to you both :hug::heart:
 
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BooGirl

BooGirl

Warlock
Jan 10, 2020
750
@Jean4 for always being so amazing to everyone here, and opening your arms to anyone who needs it. And @BooGirl because you seem like such a sweet, lovely person. Thank you both for checking in on me while things have been darker. Sending hugs to you both :hug::heart:
no u
 
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Hopeindeath!

Elementalist
Dec 7, 2019
800
@thelastchicken for being a pal and picking me out of the anonymous crowd, I'm glad my words have meant a little something to you and I wish you all the very best.

@Eating_Raw_Cocoa for convincing me that I'm not a completely used up sexual write-off, and for giving my depressed vagina renewed hope that I can still feel something besides pain, maybe even a little pleasure here and there. I'll never forget the honest appraisal of my situation he gave me that provided me with renewed strength to give the old can one last kick.
@Hopeindeath! for being a sincere and thoughtful friend in good faith, for seeking a greater spiritual purpose in your pain and for helping me to draw closer to God, God bless.
Aw thank you @Shelterfromthestorm! I am deeply touched by your kind words.
 
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MsMaudlin

MsMaudlin

This is the fierce last stand of all I am
Dec 8, 2019
875
I want to compliment 2 members,

@LegaliseIt! for looking out for me and understanding my health problems ❤

@Readytogo#Broken for keeping me strong mentally and always being there for me ❤
 
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Thereisnothing

Thereisnothing

Enlightened
Jan 4, 2020
1,604
I'd like to compliment @Underscore always been very kind and caring towards me and a very good listener.. A 'jolly good egg' I'd say.:halo:
 
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Jessamine

Specialist
Oct 28, 2019
352
@BPD_LE it meant a lot when we used to talk, we got each other and were the same. I can't believe you're not here anymore and I'm sorry I left the way I did. I hope you are at peace. You were so intelligent, vivacious and understanding. Miss you xx
 
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Thereisnothing

Thereisnothing

Enlightened
Jan 4, 2020
1,604
@BPD_LE it meant a lot when we used to talk, we got each other and were the same. I can't believe you're not here anymore and I'm sorry I left the way I did. I hope you are at peace. You were so intelligent, vivacious and understanding. Miss you xx
I joined not too long before she passed, but her posts and replies/help for others is sadly missed.
 
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Jessamine

Specialist
Oct 28, 2019
352
I joined not too long before she passed, but her posts and replies/help for others is sadly missed.
I was here before under another name (hope I don't get banned for that.. there were reasons for the change) but I literally feel like shit now that I wasn't here when she went. We were so similar and just got each other. Both bisexual, both bpd, both always having stupid dramatic crushes on people, both drank too much. I felt like we had a bond and I seriously won't forgive myself for not being here when she went. She was really special.
 
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Deleted member 1465

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Jul 31, 2018
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Oh dear, your description of yourself does sound just like her. I know, its really tough to forgive yourself, I've had a similar experience before. But you have to think of yourself. That you feel guilt over not being here is natural and just means that you cared about her. She was in very good company before she left, you just have to read her goodbye thread. She must have felt very loved. I hope so, because she was (by me).
 
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Thereisnothing

Thereisnothing

Enlightened
Jan 4, 2020
1,604
I was here before under another name (hope I don't get banned for that.. there were reasons for the change) but I literally feel like shit now that I wasn't here when she went. We were so similar and just got each other. Both bisexual, both bpd, both always having stupid dramatic crushes on people, both drank too much. I felt like we had a bond and I seriously won't forgive myself for not being here when she went. She was really special.
Dont beat yourself up about this, I know you do and will but she wouldn't wish for that, would she. From what I knew of her she was so kind and compassionate and would know how much you cared about her. They say with friendships and those you are closest to, that its the the silences together that often mean the most. She will know how you feel, I am sure of that. Love and care remains solid, however far the distance and lets face it now she is in spirit, she's right with you all the time. :heart:
 
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SuicideBoys93

SuicideBoys93

I am the lord of loneliness.
Feb 10, 2020
324
I'm new here, and want to thank this site. I stumbled on this site researching methods to choose from in the event I ever decide it's time. The stigma that surrounds CTB can make it uncomfortable to talk amongst people in life. This place leaves the stigma at the door. Just reading, and chiming in on post let's me know I'm not alone. I recently described my current mind state to my therapist as that I was stranded in the middle of the ocean waving a flare for help. I wonder the odds of me actually stumbling across this site, and it honestly came at the most perfect time. You guys are my rescue boat that found me in the middle of the ocean.
 
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enjoy

enjoy

Creature
Dec 20, 2019
337
just wanted to shout out @Iloveyouall for being a really cool person. the thread they made yesterday was very sweet.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I respect everyone here because you all make this place the way it is, a supportive place for people with little to no support irl. I usually pm people and tell them directly but I want to name a couple here. @SinisterKid and @Jean4.

Sinister helped me out a couple of times and is one of the hardest working mods here.

Jean is respected throughout the forum but for me I respect her for what she did in 9/11 as well as being supportive. I've seen how others changed for the worst after that but she still tries to support others here.

Thanks to both of you for what you do.
Thank you!! I apologize for missing this. :heart:
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
@EvilAngelGoddess For the continuous support she gives to so many members here including me. It's always a sight for sore eyes to see her giving a like or a hug. You're such a kind person. I wish i could return the favor but i understand you're not a talkative person. Therefore i give my gratitude through this post. My heart goes out to you. Wish you all the best.
 
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Deleted member 1465

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Jul 31, 2018
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I'd like to mention @Weeping Garbage Can - I see you out there in profile land looking out for people.
 
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devil

devil

Jun 22, 2019
438
@ everyone because you're all lovely
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
@Jean4 for always being so amazing to everyone here, and opening your arms to anyone who needs it. And @BooGirl because you seem like such a sweet, lovely person. Thank you both for checking in on me while things have been darker. Sending hugs to you both :hug::heart:
Awwwww. Thank You! Another one I missed! You know I :heart: you!
 
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Weeping Garbage Can

Weeping Garbage Can

ਕਿਰਪਾ ਕਰਕੇ ਮੈਨੂੰ ਭੁੱਲ ਜਾਓ ❤️
Oct 31, 2018
320
@Underscore Aw thank you very much! :happy: I've viewed some of your posts too and a lot of them are sweet, insightful, and helpful <3 I can imagine you're very valuable and appreciated~and you seem like a lovely person to know <3 ♡
 
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Deleted member 1465

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Jul 31, 2018
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@Underscore Aw thank you very much! :happy: I've viewed some of your posts too and a lot of them are sweet, insightful, and helpful <3 I can imagine you're very valuable and appreciated~and you seem like a lovely person to know <3 ♡
Thank you so much that is very kind. I remember when I first came here and your profile posts were one of the first interactions I had. I've never forgotten that. Your efforts do not go unnoticed.
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
I'd like to mention @Weeping Garbage Can - I see you out there in profile land looking out for people.

I second this. Another user who may not be in the spotlight but deserves alot of praise!
 
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BearNoMore

BearNoMore

Polar Bear, ready for the ice to melt
Feb 9, 2020
39
@Jean4 @Otter @randomz @Iloveyouall @Lostandfound7 @angel-of-the-night and @highlyvolatile have specifically shown some true support to me, opened up, provided perspective, and help me try to maintain calm rational thinking during this tumultuous period as I have waffled between committing to CTB and trying to plan a path to recovery.

Others have helped talk me off the ledge and I thank all of you as well.

- Bear
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
@Jean4 @Otter @randomz @Iloveyouall @Lostandfound7 @angel-of-the-night and @highlyvolatile have specifically shown some true support to me, opened up, provided perspective, and help me try to maintain calm rational thinking during this tumultuous period as I have waffled between committing to CTB and trying to plan a path to recovery.

Others have helped talk me off the ledge and I thank all of you as well.

- Bear
ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ
Lots of love always Bear... and I just love telling you... I TOLD YOU SO! :blarg:
 
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Weeping Garbage Can

Weeping Garbage Can

ਕਿਰਪਾ ਕਰਕੇ ਮੈਨੂੰ ਭੁੱਲ ਜਾਓ ❤️
Oct 31, 2018
320
@Underscore Thank you very much <3 (and of course! <3) I'm very touched you remember my ancient profile posts hehe :,) *flies over to you a cozy hug <3 ♡*
@Midnight Aww thank you; you're too kind! <3 :happy:❤️❤️❤️
 
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Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
914
HannahB I feel,is most deserving of a compliment; her detailed and authoritative analysis of hanging is, in my opinion, "must" reading for those of us who have considered this method.. since reading her articulate account, I am convinced that this is the method to employ and have advised others similarly. Let me close by commending you for your fine work regarding this difficult topic. You have done a great service for the s.s.community.
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
Those who have either left the forum or the realm of the living. Most of whom where the first people that spoke to me here on the forum. These people made me feel less alone.

@+ + + + Your pm really touched me and the following conversation made me feel less worthless. I really hope you are still among the living and doing better. You're a great person and deserving of praise. You are missed but if you got out this dark place i wish you nothing but the best in life and applaud you for breaking free of depressions relentless grip.

@RaptorHavx Thank you for the conversations. You're long gone but i wanted to put out there that you're not forgotten. I hope those final roads you roamed had great vista's and pleasurable to drive. You where kind and good person.

@Joanff Possibly the smartest person i've had the pleasure to speak with. I may have had a hard time keeping up with the wise words you spoke. It's a shame life went the way it did for you. Every day i looked forward to hear from you and chat about life. It's really a shame you are no longer with us. You may be gone but not forgotten. Alas we never got to meet irl but your words made this sad man feel at least a little better every message. That is something i still think about alot. Farewell kind soul.

To all of you .. i wish i would have had the luck, strenght and willpower to turn things arround in my own life. So that the time spent talking to me was not in vain. But i'm afraid that even after all these years of holding on there comes a time that enough is enough. But in any case you people have made life that tiny bit more bearable in the times i needed it the most. I'll try my best to do at least some of the things i talked about before i go.

And also a shoutout to @Circles who's mostly behind the scenes and supporting on the profile pages. Your effort does not go unnoticed and is very much appreciated. Thank you and wish you well
 
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Kikoo Loool

Kikoo Loool

Enlightened
Feb 25, 2019
1,128
@AnnihilatedAnna was a great contributor. She has been banned for age reasons and I hope she 's okay.
 
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Shinbu

Shinbu

Shiki
Nov 23, 2019
477
@charlottewilts for being there for me, and giving advice to me when I was in a pickle. Thank you Charlotte. ^_^
 
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ScorpiusDragon

ScorpiusDragon

Mage
Mar 25, 2019
593
@Kikoo Loool for being a good friend and being there for me since last July. I'll be extremely sad if you ctb, but I will understand and respect your decision, no matter what it may be. I will be here for you, whether it's as a friend to talk to you in your final moments or a listening ear to support you through your difficult situation.
 
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