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landmine

landmine

Member
Mar 12, 2023
88
i consider myself a landmine
 
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-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
610
"Nobody knows" that I am feeling this way
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
969
I didn't know what to name myself so I just got the word "Nameless" but replaced the last letter with an "a" to make it sound more feminine and to make it some what unique compared to others with names similar to mine.
 
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nomoredolor

nomoredolor

Specialist
Sep 7, 2024
349
Mine is pretty self explanatory

Fun fact @magicgranola now deceased, is because his favorite food was Peanut Butter Nature Valley granola bars and it was the last thing he ate before he died. I miss him so much I can't wait to join him in death šŸ„°

Anna
 
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foreverstardust

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Feb 5, 2025
50
the elements that make our bodies once came from the stars
 
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quietism

quietism

We make our own wind
Feb 3, 2025
64
quietism is the belief that the primary value of philosophy is therapeutic. I extend the definition a bit further to encompass psychology, social science, feminism too. No one with power for positive change is ever going to take me seriously no matter what I think, unless I compromise my principles and maliciously hurt others; that is the nature of human politics. But it can be a bit fun to daydream about an impossible life. So I consider the word a defining trait about myself that I accept its fate honestly.
 
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Life'sA6itch

Experienced
Oct 29, 2023
230
Lived experience thus, Life'sa6itch
 
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Prism

Prism

šŸŒˆšŸ’Ž
Jul 15, 2024
124
I just picked a word I liked that had nothing to do with any of my typical usernames.
 
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killingmyselfcore

killingmyselfcore

TCCer
Oct 18, 2024
16
how i came up with my user is kinda stupid,, but yea
so in october when i was going to attempt to ctb again i made an account but forgot about this website, i kind of only thought users talk about suicide here (obviously) but like to the extent of nothing else so thats where the "killingmyself" part is from (šŸ˜­)
the core is like a joke when you "make" something an aesthetic,, idk its hard to explain so basically killingmyselfcore yayaya
holy yapfest sorry,,
 
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Life

Life

Now I need a place to hide away
Oct 30, 2023
21
I think human life is very percious in all kinds of aspects. I'm very assumed by our biology, and more importantly our fragility. There is no second chance when you die. Every human has a unqiue and interesting life with their own ups and downs,
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,184
I am Sven.
 
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Apathy79

Apathy79

Mage
Oct 13, 2019
534
Dominant emotion when I signed up + birth year
 
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mikgazer6

mikgazer6

No existence, no problem
Jul 1, 2024
85
it's the name of an album that has done more for me than anything else
 
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carousille

carousille

lol
Jul 6, 2024
3
i love carousels and modified it slightly to something that wouldn't be taken/i like that it includes 'ill' in there
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
212
I just don't value myself. Wanted to name myself NotImportant, but that was taken. This is just an alternative version of that.
 
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NitrogenAfternoon

NitrogenAfternoon

Finding My Peace
Jan 20, 2025
108
A song by the Silver Jews titled "The Wild Kindness" where the singer, Dave Berman says "I wrote a letter to a wild flower, on a classic nitrogen afternoon" it always reminded me of my intentions of writing a suicide letter I was planning to send to an old love of mine before I tried with the N2 method. I love that line so much.

Dave actually ctb'd and his album he released with Purple Mountains before doing so is the real suicide letter, but I will always appreciate "The Wild Kindness"

The lyrics that follow on the opening line even remind me of my new intentions of SN and going to a hotel room to do it and the line of "I'm only perfect in an empty room" and more lyrics like "the year ends in the next room".. he even mentions the word "motel" in it and

A lot of suicidal undertones in that song that I relate to and I love it. It's based on my initial method and that song.
 
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cme-dme

cme-dme

Ready to go to bed
Feb 1, 2025
312
It's my actual online handle but with most of the letters removed. Very privacy friendly I know :) It rolls off the tongue pretty nicely though!
 
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party?

party?

Member
Feb 10, 2025
26
Never watched drag race but did enjoy videos of a few drag queens here and there and adore delano's "PARTY!!!" really stuck with me. Don't quite know what it is but there's something so comforting about the confidence these queens carry.
 
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lonely day

Member
Feb 17, 2025
5
Mine is from one of my favorite songs.
 
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Hojag

Hojag

But only for you.
Jan 11, 2025
78
Okay, so...

I needed a nick that no one who knows me IRL (loved ones, actually) would associate with me. My nick is a "toddler/drunk" spelling of the name Rorschach, the psychiatrist who introduced the famous ink blot test.

It's also because I like Watchmen and the mask is cool as hell.

jackie earle haley film GIF



I mean, if by chance my brother browses this site (I don't think he would), tgen he would know that it's me!

*I hate Tor. Slow shit, keep blending my replies. It's the third time I'm writing it.
 
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Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Recovery are not the winner.
Feb 24, 2023
284
Unhumanly taken from the words inhumanely, to me it speak for the experience of not being perceived or treated as a human
uncategorized anomaly, unfitting for living, something that couldn't contribute to the world and soon the world also not so long will cast it out
 
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domedune

domedune

the stars will aid my escape
Dec 18, 2019
268
Time flashes quickly through your sight,
Yet every second feels so tight.
You drift away, so vast, so high,
But time won't stop to say goodbye.
Love this poem!

(My username. Well, I was thinking that I liked how dunes looked at the time. It felt "me" but not "me" enough for me to be recognized. My old avatar was a dome dune.)
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
647
I was building a life of serenity, until 2024 came and shattered everything with bipolar disorder and a divorce.
 
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domedune

domedune

the stars will aid my escape
Dec 18, 2019
268
A song by the Silver Jews titled "The Wild Kindness" where the singer, Dave Berman says "I wrote a letter to a wild flower, on a classic nitrogen afternoon" it always reminded me of my intentions of writing a suicide letter I was planning to send to an old love of mine before I tried with the N2 method. I love that line so much.

Dave actually ctb'd and his album he released with Purple Mountains before doing so is the real suicide letter, but I will always appreciate "The Wild Kindness"

The lyrics that follow on the opening line even remind me of my new intentions of SN and going to a hotel room to do it and the line of "I'm only perfect in an empty room" and more lyrics like "the year ends in the next room".. he even mentions the word "motel" in it and

A lot of suicidal undertones in that song that I relate to and I love it. It's based on my initial method and that song.

I love this explanation. I like music that feels relatable in a suicidal way.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,545
I used a random word generator to throw out 3 words.
 
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