Where is your ideal place to ctb?

[TDF]

Is it in your home?
Somewhere you have always felt safe?
Somewhere in nature that's quiet and beautiful?
In a hotel room so no one in your family will be the first to come upon the scene?
Others?

 

[AllFoxedOut]

ideally, in my bed. but I don't want mum discovering my body.

when my mental health improves marginally I plan to either save for a hotel room, or just go to a secluded wooded area in the night.

 

[subhuman metalhead]

Very far away from every other human, this is to ensure that no one will ever find my body and to give my best friend hope that I'm still out there.

 

[tazzmaniandevil]

Ive never thought about it, actually? I figure whatever method I choose'll determine where I do it. That nitrite stuff in a hotel room sounds nice and comfortable, with a bath and clean sheets and everything. My plan's always been jumping into traffic since we live right off the interstate, or driving into it now that I've been an adult long enough to have a drivers licence. That seems more likely to kill me, but also more likely to kill someone else which is not ideal.

 

[leavingsoon99]

My bedroom. On my comfy mattress. Lights out. Around 1 or 2am.

 

[Strawberry_Clouds]

I'd like to die at a train station. There's something so beautiful about dying under the stars, there's more but idk what it is, I just feel so relaxed thinking about it.

 

[Maplethemorbid]

Ideally by the ocean with a nice view of the starry night far away enough from humanity that my body is unable to be found

 

[suicidalloser]

does matter suicide anywhere i can succeed

 

[ApparentlyNot]

I was just thinking about this. I would love to have my last moments in the fresh air, among trees and plants and water. There's a beautiful pond along the Appalachian trail in New Jersey (USA), and it is about an 10 mile hike to get there. The view is beautiful and peaceful and private. Shimmering water and great places to sit. If I wasn't worried about someone finding me (and either being traumatized or saving me), that would be ideal. Also, my method is leaning toward inert gas asphyxiation and that's not really viable to do outside unless I want to transport a tank of nitrogen on a 10 mile hike lol!

So, even though it's not the my ideal place to CTB, I will probably opt for a hotel room or something, so I don't ruin the spaces inhabited by my loved ones and risk them finding me. I don't want to do it in the car or home my husband shares with me, and I could never do it in a space sacred to my mother.

Now that I think about it, maybe that's also really inconsiderate of the hotel owners and staff. Of course I would do it in a location where the staff wouldn't see me when initially walking in (like the bathroom) and I would have obvious, multiple warning signs instructing the staff to call 911. Feels like no location is quite right for one reason or another.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me somewhere quiet far away from other people, but for me the important thing would be succeeding in suicide plans, I don't think the location would matter too much as long as I'm free from existence as if I manage to leave then soon enough I will be completely unaware of everything.

 

[Fe(IV)]

Home. In my place, with my cats, and It would take a while to be discovered.

 

[flightlessbutterfly]

Cliffside, surrounded by untouched nature. I'd like my last view of earth to be a hopeful one. I would like to tell myself and believe one final beautiful white lie before I come to pass. I'd like to be able to believe that the world is beautiful and it'd be longing and going further onto better days. It's obviously a lie, but it's something I'd like to believe in before I go.

 

[day]

I'd like to CTB in my house as I'm an anxious person and to be honest outside scares me. However if I end up CTB with a firearm I'll probably do it in a set of woods or something at night. May have my friends contact police with a scheduled text on my whereabouts so no one gets traumatized by seeing me.

 

[suicidalloser]

The Wellspring

 

[Praestat_Mori]

The ideal place for me would be at home in my bed.

 

[Lost Magic]

Well, I have always had a romantic notion of dying at the beach, or beside some beautiful trees near a waterfall. However, it will most likely be in my bed at home. I did, however, think of doing it at a nice cottage. I'm not so sure anymore. I just want to do it right, when the time is right (if there is such a thing).

 

[TDF]

It would be nice to do it somewhere with a beautiful view of the ocean but indoors so you are not exposed. But no such luxury so I guess in my home/prison

 

[MusicGuy]

I would honestly like to die next to the people that I love. Sadly it's impossible since they would stop me from doing it

 

[Shaylla1998]

I'd do it in my chair, in front of my PC, the only place that matters to me.

 

[AriasRed]

The ideal place for me would be somewhere nobody would ever find me. Just ceasing to exist... Just like that. Going back to not existing.

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

In my living room with something comforting playing on my TV. I still haven't decided what that would be yet. Maybe a ghibli film, something innocent that takes me back to my childhood.

I feel comfortable just thinking about it to be honest.
Laying back, reclined on the couch, with a hood over my face, I click play and get used to the sensation of just breathing through it for a bit, before turning on the inert gas towards the end of the film or whatever I deem a suitable time.

Then just... silence.
More than anything, this is what I look forward to in life at the moment.

 

[hag]

Grand Canyon

 

[drownll]

Deep underwater in the middle of the sea. No human in sight, no sound, just the vision of the water surface slowly fading away and me sinking into darkness. That would make a good transition to the afterlife.
I despise everything that is human. And after i die, i hope that fishes eat my entire body before a human can find it.
Before that, for a few days, i'd fast and isolate myself from human contact.

 

[BlindsClosed]

A small boat on a lake with a clear late night summer sky, laying down looking at the stars with music playing in my pj's.

 

[sometimes.sometimes]

There are a couple of ones. I would either want to do it in a river, at the shore, in a field of flowers, or at an abandoned building.

 

[Nefer]

Somewhere by the ocean secluded on a cliff so no one find me and i can just be washed away with the waves maybe somewhere tht snows most of the year.

 

[NonfuiNoncuro]

High, high up in the mountains, where my body may be returned to nature and not be disturbed by humans. I've eaten and/or contributed to the death of so many animals in my life it feels more than fair to give back a bit lol

Also helps that my family wouldn't know what happened, that it was a hiking accident or something rather than intentional.

 

[WaffleWoman]

Is it in your home?
Somewhere you have always felt safe?
Somewhere in nature that's quiet and beautiful?
In a hotel room so no one in your family will be the first to come upon the scene?
Others?

In nature somewhere, Im not a big fan of hiking though so ill see how I feel when the time comes

 

[_Alfarooq_]

Inside of an airport.

 

[lifeispain0216]

Is it in your home?
Somewhere you have always felt safe?
Somewhere in nature that's quiet and beautiful?
In a hotel room so no one in your family will be the first to come upon the scene?
Others?

probably in my exs bed. they recently broke up w me and i still live with them so it was my bed for a long time. but i dont have access to anything that would be possible there so it will probably be in the bathroom or closet.