ThrownAwayTom

ThrownAwayTom

Experienced
Oct 3, 2020
276
Work from home 9-5pm which is stressful as fuck at the moment. Then drink or more likely smoke weed and try to play or watch something that holds my interest for more than 10 minutes. This but all day on weekends.
 
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Symbiote

Global Mod
Oct 12, 2020
3,101
Work an 8-5 job, not too soul crushing cause I have awesome coworkers. Go home, get berated by the wife for not making enough to sustain her Instagram lifestyle, being a poor excuse of a husband, cook dinner for both of us, and then trudge off to bed. Can't wait to be free from that. Work is like a vacation to me at the moment.
 
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Deleted member 13412

Member
Dec 27, 2019
84
listening to music its the only thing tht comforts me ;;
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,870
Playing video games, listening to music and doing nothing. Yep, pretty useless life I have.
 
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NodusTollens

NodusTollens

Nov 17, 2020
989
This pretty much describes me and using the word tomb sets a perfectly accurate tone for my existence as well. Sometimes i get up to 'start the day' (which in my case rarely lasts more than 6 hours) and have coffee with my pills while listening to a radio station or podcast and maybe stuffing my face with sugar and lard to suffocate my thoughts. If i slept okay i might read for a few hours instead of just playing video games or watching tv or netflix and if i haven't done it in a while i'll consider showering and maybe making some sort of evening meal. after that i shovel more pills down my throat and return from the couch to the bed.

:hug:

I do believe we lead a similar existence. Just change coffee to tea &add some bacon.

I don't know about you, but I do it all to escape the pain or fill the silence. Once silence sets in, that's when I disappear (dissociate). Everything I do these days, seems to be an effort to keep myself present. Autopilot, though effective while I'm alone... but far from productive in the public eye as I appear unorganized, inattentive & I lose things.
(^_^;)

Mario kart

(/◕ヮ◕)/
Who's your character?

Mine's King Boo or Luigi
 
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Deleted member 23374

deministrator
Nov 1, 2020
648
Doing what's expected of me or trying to keep up anyway.
 
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Good4Nothing

Good4Nothing

Unlovable
May 8, 2020
1,865
Work, video games, sleep.
Rinse and repeat.
 
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Conker

Conker

Specialist
Oct 22, 2019
351


 
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LenkaX

LenkaX

Maybe there is a hope!
Aug 14, 2020
366
eat - neet - sleep,
eat - neet - sleep,
eat - neet - sleep,
eat - neet - sleep,
.. do I have to continue?
 
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JustKillBen22

JustKillBen22

Member
Jul 6, 2020
56
Nothing, I just cry and sleep, while accidentally damaging the lives of people who interact with me for whatever reason.
 
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hoping to lose hope

hoping to lose hope

<3 Message me to trade music <3
Nov 14, 2020
849
When I am not posting on here or some image boards I am searching for new music to listen to.
I do sometimes interact with others (online) which can be entertaining.
If my brain fog is not too harsh I try to read or write about various topics.
 
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stygal

stygal

low-wage worker
Oct 29, 2020
1,732
work, listening and dancing to music, being in nature a couple hours a week, browsing the same sites over and over, sometimes reading or drawing, rarely watching a series or a movie and my fav part of the day: sleeping.
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,584
Sleep, wash, eat and then sleep again.
 
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liluglibih

Member
Jul 14, 2020
55
Work from home 9-5pm which is stressful as fuck at the moment. Then drink or more likely smoke weed and try to play or watch something that holds my interest for more than 10 minutes. This but all day on weekends.
same.. but without the job
Yeah I'll let you and the rest of this forum know how it goes. I've read some really promising studies done on psilocybin taken in small doses that could perhaps help both myself and a lot of other people on this forum.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psilocybin
I hope it works out for you. This will be my 3rd attempt at a grow :ahhha:
When I am not posting on here or some image boards I am searching for new music to listen to.
I do sometimes interact with others (online) which can be entertaining.
If my brain fog is not too harsh I try to read or write about various topics.
I'm always looking for new music too. What you listening to atm? I like all kinds of stuff so yh..
 
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Wraith

Lost in The Void
Nov 4, 2020
181
I'm housebound, so all my activities are solitary. I usually play video games, read, browse various forums about my interests, keep up with the few bands I like on social media, and I just recently picked up German on Duolingo. Wild life I'm living.
 
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Deformationalplagio

Born deformed
Dec 28, 2019
376
Playing warzone 24/7 when i stop i start to shake uncontrollable and have panic attacks because i was born with a severe head face deformity. Then i go to sleep and repeat. Meanwhile im pushed to go to work deformed people arent treated like someone who id handicapped so even if you have 8 eyes open wounds and stuff or a big cancerous bult society expects you just go to work. My death will 100% be the fault of society and there bullshit
 
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AutoTap

Elementalist
Nov 11, 2020
886
Sleep, having anxiety attacks, trying to sleep, watching tv, therapy and researching how I can die
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
Laying in bed. Crying my eyes out.
nothing else.
Thinking, what a gutless piece of shit I am, cuz I'm still alive...
 
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liluglibih

Member
Jul 14, 2020
55
I'm housebound, so all my activities are solitary. I usually play video games, read, browse various forums about my interests, keep up with the few bands I like on social media, and I just recently picked up German on Duolingo. Wild life I'm living.
wish I had the attention span to be able to learn a language


so what's this about?
Playing warzone 24/7 when i stop i start to shake uncontrollable and have panic attacks because i was born with a severe head face deformity. Then i go to sleep and repeat. Meanwhile im pushed to go to work deformed people arent treated like someone who id handicapped so even if you have 8 eyes open wounds and stuff or a big cancerous bult society expects you just go to work. My death will 100% be the fault of society and there bullshit
wow. that sucks man.. shit.
 
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AtLeastThere'sSalad

AtLeastThere'sSalad

Member
Dec 10, 2020
19
Lots of naps mostly. Being awake is so hard. I can't drive, so I can't go anywhere even if we weren't in a pandemic, including my job. I'm not in school right now, just aiming for a GED. I stay home all day every day and sometimes text a friend just so they don't feel like I've abandoned them. Most days I listen to music, watch anime, and do some cross stitch. The most exciting part of my day is dinner, when I have a chance to talk to my family for a few minutes. It's super boring, but doing anything else is so exhausting and scary because my stress tolerance sucks.
 
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hellodarkness

Member
Dec 8, 2020
92
I work six days a week, have three kids to take care of and a house to keep up. I train for what will likely be my last ever race season. I'm working on a lot of post-grad certification courses. And you know, mandated sessions with my psychiatrist twice a week.
 
AtLeastThere'sSalad

AtLeastThere'sSalad

Member
Dec 10, 2020
19
I work six days a week, have three kids to take care of and a house to keep up. I train for what will likely be my last ever race season. I'm working on a lot of post-grad certification courses. And you know, mandated sessions with my psychiatrist twice a week.
damn, that's a lot more than I'd be able to handle. how do you stay motivated to keep up with all of that?
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
906
What I always do: nothing.
 
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hellodarkness

Member
Dec 8, 2020
92
damn, that's a lot more than I'd be able to handle. how do you stay motivated to keep up with all of that?
I have the advantage of not suffering clinical depression. I'm schizophrenic but on my meds I can usually bang out the same level of work I always have. High achiever since always. If I wasn't sick and getting worse, which puts my kids' emotional wellbeing at risk, I wouldn't be here.

I love going out to the backcountry with a girlfriend and climbing half a dozen mountains in a weekend, running with my kids, counselling as a nutritionist. I like my life, I just can't live with my brain hurting my family.
 
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_battered_butterfly_

PaperDoll_EasilyTorn
Mar 5, 2021
45
I guess I'm what ppl would call a NEET(haven't had a job going on 4mths now). I live in a house with 3 strangers(I am the easiest housemate, you'll never see me), when they all go off to work I'll sneak out of my room to grab some food from the kitchen then scurry back to my tomb. I probably spend about 90% of the day staring at screens, doing nothing, thinking about how awful everything is..

What's an average day like for you?
Similar AF.
 
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Beachedwhale

Mage
Mar 3, 2021
526
Gym, college and fitness. Really working on selfcare. I'm also about to start growing mushrooms to try microdosing as well. Video games here and there, currently enjoying black desert online
Glad to hear this. Shrooms and gym are what I really wish I had done back in uni.
 
LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,988
Watch DVD's, listen to 80's Rock Music, Take my doggy for a walk up the park. Pause/Repeat!
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,234
Working or brooding elsewhere. Planning my disaaperance.
 

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