peanuts

peanuts

Member
May 27, 2022
99
My colleagues would be gobsmacked.. "but she's so happy and bubbly"

My mum would be heartbroken, my Dad too but to a far lesser extent

My friends will be sad it happened but they'd move on.

My mum is the only one this would truly affect, everyone else would be just fine.
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
Probably- Thank goodness he is finally gone. Now we don't have to deal with him anymore. Does anyone know his Netflix password?
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
7,262
Nothing. I go out as I am.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,716
Hopefully really awful but true things.
 
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m00nlyte

Member
May 24, 2022
21
Lmao, probably make up a easy excuse to make me easy to forget and say I'm selfish for sure and didn't care, which is complete bullshit and be forgotten quickly
 
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Hirokami

Hirokami

Out of order
Feb 21, 2021
607
If I ctb before 30, it would be something along the lines of, "But he was so young and had so much potential!" And also invalidation of my experiences.
 
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-FrozenRobot-

-FrozenRobot-

Let me go...please
Jul 27, 2021
218
I think they will move on immediately
 
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Bigpink

Warlock
Oct 12, 2020
705
I don't give a shit I'll be gone
 
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Slimetae

Slimeent🎲
Apr 23, 2022
203
Probably nothing my mom would be upset but everyone else probably wouldn't give a shit bc I haven't been a the best person in my time here.
 
Chronic

Chronic

Member
Jun 14, 2021
74
I doubt many people will miss me...maybe a handful of individuals in the world would
 
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outatime_85

Warlock
May 17, 2022
774
What would be said?
Why did they not ask for help?
They could have reached out.
I wish I would have known.

I think of all the people around me. Two people may grieve my death.
 
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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
They'll probably talk shit, but the person they'll be talking about never existed. Nobody really knows me. They assume things about me and accept it as fact.
 
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EvilStepSister

EvilStepSister

Member
Feb 15, 2022
62
"Huh...she actually did it..."
 
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MyChoiceToLeave

MyChoiceToLeave

Psychiatry Destroyed My Life
Jul 4, 2020
69
they'll just say i was "mentally ill" (i wasn't) and actually ignore that it was the prescription drugs that destroyed me
This is exactly what will happen with me despite decades of me fighting the mental health system.
 
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BornToFail

BornToFail

Experienced
Sep 9, 2022
285
Not much really I think.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
8,881
Think there would be a range of reactions. Think a few people would be sad but also angry in a disappointed way- like- why didn't she try harder to make life better? Think there would be some shock also- don't believe I come across as exactly happy to anyone but doubt they realise it's this bad. Plus, a couple of my family members will believe I will go to hell (one because they are religious, the other one because they are a narcissist- in my view and always made out that I was persecuting them- although it was actually the other way round. Guess I'll eventually see them there if it goes that way...)
 
Domimi

Domimi

End of all hope
Apr 20, 2020
67
Something along the lines of "bastard evil lunatic got what he deserved, I hope he's burning in hell", etc. Basically shit that normies say to anyone who doesn't agree with their morality. My "friends" would get very surprised, but no one would miss me at all really. Not that I care about that neither.
 
Gray Wounds

Gray Wounds

A Phantasmagoria
Jun 27, 2018
575
I know exactly what they'll say. And I honestly am will be thankful to be dead at that moment because if I am alive instead, I'll punch a hole through their faces.

They'll thank the gods I'm dead.
 
ipomoeaalba

ipomoeaalba

✨🔪IM STRUGGLING TO KEEP MY EDGE🔪✨
Nov 12, 2022
12
one of the only things stopping me from going through with anything is knowing how upset my dad + my bf would be. one of the main things motivating me is i know my stepmom would be stoked and talk massive amounts of shit abt how out of control i was and how she only put up w me bc she had to
 
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👁️👃👁️

Enlightened
Aug 14, 2022
1,292
"not surprising"
I honestly don't care anyway it doesn't matter.
 
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Wannagonow

Specialist
Nov 16, 2022
379
I think my family (and 2 friends) will say "she was always so sad, but I never thought she'd do this". I've been clear about wanting to ctb for decades (plus multiple hospitalizations and ECT treatments). Duh.
 
Someday_Somehow32

Someday_Somehow32

Member
Jul 20, 2022
90
My family will talk about me the way they think I was, angry all of the time, saying I enjoyed activites that in reality I hated more than anything. I doubt any friends I still have would speak, they probably would be nicer but I don't know. They just won't talk about me being the real me.
 
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Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
403
He was mentally ill.
He was mentally ill.
 
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BipolarExpress

BipolarExpress

he/him · tired/exhausted
Nov 11, 2022
259
My friends would be sad. That's part of what makes it hard for me to go through with it, even though I want my pain to end so much.
 
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freedomcalls

Student
Nov 9, 2022
136
This is the only reason that I haven't….

My eldest daughter would blame herself & probably suffer throughout her life the same way that I have, with feeling that she needs to take care of everyone around her at her own expense. She'd probably end up doing the same because she won't open up to support for fear of seeming vulnerable.

My sons would blame themselves because they are abusive to me on a daily basis

My husband would probably put on a show for everyone to get pity, saying he did all he could for me… that's BS. It's because he doesn't allow me to go out, see friends etc that I can't pursue the things that would give my life meaning

My parents would be angry that they'd have to take care of their grandchildren

I don't expect my brother or sister would care much 🤷‍♀️
One reason to do it now rather than wait is that my youngest daughter wouldn't have any memories of me.
I think that would be a blessing
 
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imcurious

imcurious

Member
May 6, 2022
96
I think my family would care, my brother especially. Perhaps everyone else—work people, friends, and extended family—would be surprised but eventually they would forget that I'm gone. Life will move on and I'll sort of be a fragment of everyone's memory, just like how I am now, alive.
 
Un-

Un-

I'm a failure. An absolute waste. A LOSEr.
Apr 6, 2021
652
I honestly don't know. I don't even know who would be there, much less be speaking. I don't have friends. And I don't even know myself. The testimonials would be completely different for each person.

I don't think I'd be remembered. I'd be remembered as my mother's son, and my sisters brother - but not for who @Un- is.

.. Wow. I'm.. Truly nothing.. Damn..
 
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Little T

No Option
Aug 24, 2022
81
Won't know, so don't care. They will remember the $$$ I left them, or didn't.

Those who knew me best will remember how much I lived for my father, who is now gone.
 
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