When you have decided to die , it becomes worst

[iamsadandinnocent]

I have decided on the method of dying for like 4-5 days, but these days are so awful and painful, I can't tell, my anxiety has increased several fold, It's hard to sleep, I just think of dying 24/7 and what will happen after I die, how it will affect others, Though I am waiting for my SN, some nights I just want to hang myself or cut myself, I want this time to pass as fast as it can

 

[BeepyNerd]

Godspeed to you for holding on these couple of days, I've been there but trying to rationalize that doing something impulsive just exponentially raises the risk of it going wrong and the situation becoming worse than before

 

[iamsadandinnocent]

Godspeed to you for holding on these couple of days, I've been there but trying to rationalize that doing something impulsive just exponentially raises the risk of it going wrong and the situation becoming worse than before

That's true, plus the method of SN require great preparations and items which are hard to get without prescription, I am somehow spending these days playing games and smoking cigarettes, but the second I stop doing either of these, my head clouds and my chest starts paining

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand finding it painful to exist, to me existing is always so painful, I hope you find the relief you search for.