Discussion When you are non-suicidal side of your swings - do you have a hard time recognizing your suicidal side

[wait-bus-stop]

I sometimes wonder who that really is

 

[Regen]

Yes. I have had periods in my life when suicide was completely far from my mind. During those times, I could also see past attempts much more clearly. I could see that I had a really very skewed perception frighteningly often. And above all, I could not understand (emotionally) at all why I wanted to kill myself.

I realize that now in suicidal times purely cognitively, but it still doesn't feel that way. I definitely feel like I'm mentally in this tunnel described in the literature during suicidal times. I can kind of see that sometimes, too. But then in the bad times, suicide is still an option that makes sense to me at that moment and feels right.

If there's any way to understand that...