feverinjection
sacrifice
- May 8, 2024
- 18
I fear that I am selfish, because I am never satisfied with the love that I am given.
when will I be satisfied? when can I just accept that it will never be enough for my starving heart? why can't "I love you" be enough? Why do I HAVE to be shown that im loved? Can't the words be ENOUGH? can't I just accept it? Can't I get it through my thick skull that nobody will ever show love as deep and as much as I do?
I was born autistic. Is this why?
I just want a reason. I want to know why I don't feel happy with the love I am given, and why I always feel like I deserve more. I really don't deserve more, I'm just greedy. I'm greedy and hungry for attention.
Begging and praying for life to show me the answers to all my problems feels like the most pathetic, depressing thing ever. I'm tired.
when will I be satisfied? when can I just accept that it will never be enough for my starving heart? why can't "I love you" be enough? Why do I HAVE to be shown that im loved? Can't the words be ENOUGH? can't I just accept it? Can't I get it through my thick skull that nobody will ever show love as deep and as much as I do?
I was born autistic. Is this why?
I just want a reason. I want to know why I don't feel happy with the love I am given, and why I always feel like I deserve more. I really don't deserve more, I'm just greedy. I'm greedy and hungry for attention.
Begging and praying for life to show me the answers to all my problems feels like the most pathetic, depressing thing ever. I'm tired.
