When was the last time you truly enjoyed something?

[SipSop]

I plan to go soon.
But it was few weeks ago when I felt good about myself. I dressed how I wanted and went outside. I bought a green apple juice with ice and it felt amazing. It was a friday and the weather was gorgeous. I ignored everybody who have seemingly perfect lifes, I minded my own business. Went to a monument where I enjoyed the view of the city, and sit there and beginned to read from my Kindle. Some tourists asked me to make them some pictures, everything went fine. I felt good. I enjoyed it.

 

[Iamamistake]

It's almost scary that I can't remember the last time I enjoyed something, last time I felt alive.

 

[Cutepoison]

One week in 2018. That's during entirety of my life. 7 days in 32 years.

 

[Mila]

Tbh, I don't remember. I don't even remember what it feels like...

Same here... I don't remember... I can't ever remember the last time I laughed or smile.

 

[idontevenknowanymore]

Last time I remember honestly enjoying something... I think when I first started teaching myself the piano. I found a new talent where I could let out my feelings but I've lost all motivation to practice so I'm very bad at it now, which makes it just a sad memory

 

[sadstuffie]

my life was so happy in August/September 2018. please take me back. this time i know I'd get everything right.

 

[OfThePraxicOrder]

That would have to be the months of August through November of 2019, ever since then everything has gone from bad to worse. :)

 

[icanhasnick]

Depends what counts as enjoy. I enjoy having coffee every day, or taking a hot shower. But I imagine enjoy here means something like be living a situation that fills you with joy/happiness/fulfillment/hope for the future, etc. In that sense, the most recent may have been march of 2015 (the last time it looked like my life could actually go somewhere) or november 2017, when i went out a few times with someone who looked like we could be a great match. Since then, there hasn't been too much light, but superficially all sort of things are mildly enjoyable. Even posting on SS.

 

[onlyeverexisting]

I genuinely can't remember. Everything always has a negative side, and any "happiness" never lasts long. I mean, the entirety of what I can remember of my short 22 years has been like this. It hit me like a ton of bricks at 12-13 and hasn't ever stopped.

Apparently, I was a happy kid. I wish I could remember what it was like to exist that way.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

2 hours ago. A burger with cheddar and bacon.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I honestly couldn't tell you. Maybe my car back in January but I don't know

 

[Shades of Grey]

A few minutes ago... headbutts and purrs from my old man cat.

 

[Eternal Pessimist]

I can still feel happiness and excitement from time to time when I'm watching a movie, listening to music or daydreaming. However, all of that happiness is overshadowed by constant anxiety and depression. The last time I enjoyed something without it being hampered by those feelings and was truly content with life was sometime in 2011 probably.

 

[Incorrigible77777]

Back in 2010

 

[woxihuanni]

June 12th, 2018, dinner. 24 hours later I met a parasite/vampire/thief/murderer and my life was over.

 

[Foreversad]

Ah...more than 2and a half years . being healthy physically and mentally and sex with my ex .i barely can remember how these 2 feel

 

[insanedoomer]

it dates suicide partner it dates ... , 5 years .

 

[Insomniac]

I still enjoy watching animes...

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not sure I have 'truly enjoyed' anything, or at least I cannot remember. Even know some small things might make me feel better such as eating some nice food or stroking my cat, I see myself as unable to let go of the negative emotions completely. If I do feel a little bit better, it never lasts long. I do wish I was more carefree but the fact is that I simply do not like living. Existence is painful.