When was the last time you truly enjoyed something?

[LenkaX]

For me it was in 1999. I enjoyed practicing classical guitar, I enjoyed computer games and even computer programming at that time. Despite being a social outcast, I enjoyed lots of things...
But now I feel so dead inside like a corpse. I'm truly a zombie. I can't cope anymore, everything is pain.

 

[Eridanos]

Sometimes it seems I get some enjoyment totally randomly.
A few months ago I went with a friend up an hill and saw the city at night from there. I don't really know why but it really touched me and I enjoyed the view. I went there other times but never felt anything like that. Since then I don't think I enjoyed anything at all, I just do things to pass time not because I enjoy it.

Anyway thanks for the question, it's nice from time to time to think even for a short amount of time at good memories.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

The first week of March. Lockdown killed everything.

 

[overcomingfear]

About 6 years ago. Computer games and sports were fun back then. I try the same things now and they are not the same

 

[Checkmate3]

Exactly the same for me, 1999.
97, 98 and 99 were the best years of my life, but then in 2000 we moved to another place and everything went down the toilet.

 

[dysfunctional]

Back in March, walking my friends dog in the woods. Watching Royal Tenenbaums and actually laughing.

 

[Ghost2211]

Im really liking Pokémon sword, but before that it had been several months. I liked animal crossing, but it was too slow paced and I'm not that creative. Aside from that I love in a quarantine bubble of homeschooling, which sucks.

 

[purplesmoothie]

For me to it was like 2008.

 

[262653]

I have a day's worth journal. It's like a gratitude journal but more fair. Three times per day, at the end of each third, I put a plus (better than nothing), minus (worse than nothing) or tilde (not particularly better or worse than not experiencing anything). I think this way, if that one third was a dream, would I prefer to experience it or have a dreamless sleep instead? At the end of the day I combine the votes to make a final verdict.
I did this for 4 months already.
The last plus was 8 July.
For one thirds there were 5 pluses in total, and only one plus for the whole day, which was 2 July.
I was getting pluses when I played new mods for my favorite video games, and when I started a meditation routine. The day's worth returns to normal on the next day or even the same day, even when continuing doing things I so enjoyed starting. I don't have the resources to try something new every single third of the day.
The rest is filled with even amounts of tildes and minuses. Judging from the journal notes, these four months were not worth experiencing at all, and my life needs a major overhaul for it to be better than nothing.

Obviously the journal so far didn't give me the motivation to either carry out my suicide or make any meaningful attempts at improving my life. Once again I'm coming to a conclusion that reason won't get me anywhere if it's not backed up with the driving force (instincts, emotions).

 

[Mitokondrium]

Exactly the same for me, 1999.
97, 98 and 99 were the best years of my life, but then in 2000 we moved to another place and everything went down the toilet.

What, like 20 years ago? You say that the last time you enjoyed anything was in the 90s? Omg that's crazy. I have severe depression for 4 years and even that feels like forever.

 

[Tigeress Lost]

For me was 2018

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I get brief times of enjoyment here and there. I really miss my dog though she brought me so much happiness even when I was suicidal.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Amsterdam last December. Got high as a kite on space cake and went to a champions league football match. Last time I actually felt content and happy.

 

[death137]

May, 2017

 

[ForensicallyAware]

In about 1983

 

[Meditation guide]

I used to walk a mile or two every day in a nature preserve but the last time was over five years ago. Now I can't walk more than a few steps. I miss those walks. That was the last time I enjoyed something.

It's so strange that everything I ever loved doing or that made life worthwhile has been taken away from me. This has happened my entire life.

I got in a year of the nature walks, and a lot of yoga, and a few years of horseback riding so I feel guilty for complaining since I know that others don't even get to experience those things at all. Still, it would be nice to still be able to do at least something enjoyable.

 

[overcomingfear]

I used to walk a mile or two every day in a nature preserve but the last time was over five years ago. Now I can't walk more than a few steps. I miss those walks. That was the last time I enjoyed something.

It's so strange that everything I ever loved doing or that made life worthwhile has been taken away from me. This has happened my entire life.

I got in a year of the nature walks, and a lot of yoga, and a few years of horseback riding so I feel guilty for complaining since I know that others don't even get to experience those things at all. Still, it would be nice to still be able to do at least something enjoyable.

Sorry to hear you have physical trauma on top of mental. Atleast you have good memories. Wish you the best

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Maybe late last year. Apart from that, when I was still in highschool writing graffiti. Depression and anxiety have robbed me of the drive to do most stuff.

 

[Checkmate3]

It's so strange that everything I ever loved doing or that made life worthwhile has been taken away from me. This has happened my entire life.

I got in a year of the nature walks, and a lot of yoga, and a few years of horseback riding so I feel guilty for complaining since I know that others don't even get to experience those things at all. Still, it would be nice to still be able to do at least something enjoyable.

Yep, same here. Almost everything I loved and enjoyed was taken away from me by some crazy circumstances, including my favorite nature walks in parks!
At least I still have my Internet, but probably not for long.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

A few months ago, I had a pretty high turnip price on my Animal Crossing Island (600+). I joined the AC discord just so I could invite people to my island for free so people could take advantage of my good price.

Unbeknownst to them though, my island is actually an intentionally designed torture chamber with narrow, claustrophobic passageways chairs that block exits, and ugly layouts meant to curse your eyes. I also terraformed the layout so that people would need to basically move like this in a huge circle around the island just to get to the shop. I even set no queue limit so that people had to keep enduring the lag of my island's many tarantulas out on display while trying to make their way through with no guidance whatsoever. It was so fun watching them all suffer as some people kept disconnecting which crashed the island and made everyone start over before they could even reach the shop. Eventually a few people still made it through but it was worth it.

I haven't touched Animal Crossing since because this was the peak of my enjoyment for me. I'm sure if my island was actually finished I could make it even worse but now I'm actually too busy.

 

[mr.smileysad]

I honestly cant remember the last time I have truly 100% enjoyed something but I did feel happy when my fam took me to my fav restaurant on the planet for my b-day that was pretty fun

 

[Cherrypea]

For me it was in 1999. I enjoyed practicing classical guitar, I enjoyed computer games and even computer programming at that time. Despite being a social outcast, I enjoyed lots of things...
But now I feel so dead inside like a corpse. I'm truly a zombie. I can't cope anymore, everything is pain.

I clicked on this post to read thinking, hmm probably 1999 how sad it that and see your reply saying the same thing! I have a photo of myself NYE 1999 and I whenever I see it I think yup that's the last time I was happy, after that it all changed.

Exactly the same for me, 1999.
97, 98 and 99 were the best years of my life, but then in 2000 we moved to another place and everything went down the toilet.

Yup same, I kind of enjoyed the 90's. Brit pop, being good at my job, no kids.

 

[miguel6565]

2 years ago

 

[Secrets1]

8/1/19

 

[Superdeterminist]

Used to enjoy video games maybe 3 years ago, and they're still fun, but I can't properly enjoy them anymore, knowing that reality is winding up for its next punch.

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

A few weeks ago. A friend I value more than life itself invited me to a party, I took a lotta drugs, and had great time. It was at a time when I was really, really low, and I needed that escape,.

 

[One day too late]

Tbh, I don't remember. I don't even remember what it feels like...

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Good strain of weed yesterday

 

[Final Escape]

2019

 

[Homecoming]

2003 when I was still in junior high school. After that year, my mental health went downhill fast due to bullying and traumatic experience from my evil classmates and BPD narcissistic mom