When therapy and meds don’t work…..you want to go!!!

[ChinUp]

Is it ok to be suicidal and not want to live when meds and therapy don't work?

 

[ImnotCTB]

I don't know, what I know is that if all else fails I, personally, would try to cling to life as desperately as I could—doesn't matter if I get mangled in the end, find every last straw to cling to before sinking down. At least that way I can tell my ancestors I tried. That was just me though.

 

[ChinUp]

I don't know, what I know is that if all else fails I, personally, would try to cling to life as desperately as I could—doesn't matter if I get mangled in the end, find every last straw to cling to before sinking down. At least that way I can tell my ancestors I tried. That was just me though.

I honestly tried to hold on and fight and because I'm in this place I feel ashamed and I've disappointed God and so many that's why I just want to leave. I can hardly get out of bed and I'm not going back to the hospital., Now what?

 

[kitkat9234]

Therapy and meds have not worked for me. I've pretty much tried everything. I'm treatment resistant. Want to die everyday. I'm just too chicken shit to try again. So here I am trapped.

 

[ImnotCTB]

We are just humans in the end, we can't be perfect and we are bound to have flaws. But the thing I want to convey is that God, if he does exist, created us with free will. If we will it so, then we will do so. If we fail, then at least we know we tried. That is what I value about being imperfect, the satisfaction that I know I tried the best even if I fail. I don't like regrets, my parents don't like it too, I absolutely won't willingly have regrets. Again that is just me talking. Just me though. IDK what you've gone through... Just me

 

[Esc9434]

OP, I'm not an expert on this topic, so take what I say with a grain of salt. I don't take meds. I never been to therapy as an adult.

I think things work based on the effort you put into them,

Your healthcare, whether physical or mental, should be a two-way conversation between your doctor and you. You should educate yourself as much as possible. Don't put your fate completely in someone else's hands. If you doctor cannot handle questions, then you probably need to find a new one.

What I learned from my SS friends is that you have to try numerous medications/combinations until you find one that works for you. You can even ask AI/LLM to give you a list of common medications for your problem, along with any additional relevant information in the same query. Keeping a diary or log that identifies your stressors, mood/well-being, hours slept, weight, and etc. would be great while taking different medications.

As for therapy, try to break it down into logical steps. First, identify the problem. Second, understand why the problem happened and maybe make peace with it if possible. Last, identify how this problem can come up again and come up with healthy self-defense and coping mechanisms. That diary or log from the previous step would be great diagnostic information for a therapist.

I know, easier said than done. Sorry if it sounds like I am underestimating anyone's personal problems on this forum. Not my intention.