Now I will preface this by saying when I do attempt / I NEVER want anyone to intervene. At all. I actually hate peiple at my home too.
This is not an attention thing. It's a fk I want me life over thing.
However. When it's discussed - as it often is with my mh team, it comes across as 'that's how I always am' and it's like not believed.
I mean yes they send police for welfare check but I'm all good at being no I'm ok etc or yes I have capacity. Bye. Or trying to kick them out my house - side note. Don't try this. The police do not appreciate you shoving them to get them out of your house lol.
But I feel - pathetic? Like I haven't managed to do it yet. So maybe I am just an attention seeking idiot. Even tho I don't tell anyone when I have done something, I always try to send people away as I dont want it.
I just feel odd.
But I am also curious how they will react when I've managed To do it. I wonder if they will feel bad they treat me shitty
God I am struggling. It's only 7.30 am and I'm what can I do to end my life today. I'm so sad and so tired. My animals. I love them. So so much. They're happy and I love that. But me. I am not. I want to die.
This is not an attention thing. It's a fk I want me life over thing.
However. When it's discussed - as it often is with my mh team, it comes across as 'that's how I always am' and it's like not believed.
I mean yes they send police for welfare check but I'm all good at being no I'm ok etc or yes I have capacity. Bye. Or trying to kick them out my house - side note. Don't try this. The police do not appreciate you shoving them to get them out of your house lol.
But I feel - pathetic? Like I haven't managed to do it yet. So maybe I am just an attention seeking idiot. Even tho I don't tell anyone when I have done something, I always try to send people away as I dont want it.
I just feel odd.
But I am also curious how they will react when I've managed To do it. I wonder if they will feel bad they treat me shitty
God I am struggling. It's only 7.30 am and I'm what can I do to end my life today. I'm so sad and so tired. My animals. I love them. So so much. They're happy and I love that. But me. I am not. I want to die.
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