When I'm dead

[Warriorsfan]

To the people who caused me so much stress for nothing.
I hope you're happy when I'm dead.
All I tried to do was stay away from you. But you wouldn't leave me alone.
This caused me to do and say things I never would have done. Leading to my manic episode followed by depression that wants me to be only dead nothing more nothing less.

 

[matt.7890]

I feel you... Stay strong and hope you find peace that you deserve

 

[Warriorsfan]

Me also.
I know one person, wasn't on here, that hung himself. It was in his garage that had good anchor points. I don't have good anchor point in my home. I know of other who hung himself also.
I'm willing to go through whatever pain there is. I just am not able to set it up.
Fentanyl is good option but haven't been able to get it.

 

[matt.7890]

I also have those moments when I want to do it here and now but then I try to keep in mind all those people I have seen in psych ward after their failed attempts... It has to be well planned and prepared to the extent possible I think.. take your time

 

[Warriorsfan]

I had same experience in hospital.
Some people are able to just do it.
You see it our read about in the news.
People die by accident on oxy.
And I didn't.
Fucking sucks!
I would like fentanyl to ctb.
Sad but true.

 

[Miss Anthropy]

I think fent would be a peaceful way to go from what ive seen and heard. It seems available mostly everywhere also but i wouldnt know how to get any unfortunatly.

 

[Poiter1987]

To the people who caused me so much stress for nothing.
I hope you're happy when I'm dead.
All I tried to do was stay away from you. But you wouldn't leave me alone.
This caused me to do and say things I never would have done. Leading to my manic episode followed by depression that wants me to be only dead nothing more nothing less.

Hey stranger. I can so relate to this post. The vitriol of others also lead to my downfall. They won't care when in dead.

 

[Warriorsfan]

I've made my mistakes.
But would have never tried to destroy someone with mental illness.
This neighbor did this and he wouldn't let up at all. Caused me to react. It sucks so bad. Shaking my head in disgust..
Just wish I could ctb easily.
I always avoided these type of people.
But when they are literally about 5 ft. away it proved impossible.
I know he's fucked up but what the hell.