Venting When I go outside and See people with friends/significant others, it hurts so much.

[UnusedGate]

Today I went outside for the first time in like a month and man, it hurt so much seeing people my age with their friends or significant others. If I saw a girl my age it genuinely hurt me, knowing that I'll never be attractive to them or get into a relationship with them. It hurt so much. Haven't felt pain like this since the end of sixth form.

The reason why I'm posting this is because in a previous thread, about ctb and loneliness, I responded that I didn't care about being in a relationship but I guess that's because I just forgot about what I'm missing out on.

I should become numb to the pain the more I go out, this has happened before, but the pains never been this bad.

 

[unluckysadness]

I feel the same when I see people outside with friends or partners. I'm disabled, cannot do anything. So I'm forced to be a hermit. It's very very very hard. I cannot handle it anymore

 

[UnusedGate]

I feel the same when I see people outside with friends or partners. I'm disabled, cannot do anything. So I'm forced to be a hermit. It's very very very hard. I cannot handle it anymore

Kinda the same for me. I was stuck inside because of my knees (couldn't even walk for 5 minutes in the begining without pain) but even if they weren't that bad, my horrible social anxiety makes it so hard to get out.

 

[unluckysadness]

Kinda the same for me. I was stuck inside because of my knees (couldn't even walk for 5 minutes in the begining without pain) but even if they weren't that bad, my horrible social anxiety makes it so hard to get out.

I have severe anxiety / phobia too (and all sort of shitty health issues, OCD, PTSD, ...). All my life was a huge struggle with huge pain and despair.
I wish I could have an acceptable life, but I cannot call it a life. I don't need money, I don't need hobbies, just being in peace of mind and not having these horrible muscles spasms anymore. Sometimes I just want to drink this SN shit like a lemonade to end all this suffering that never ends. What a nightmare

 

[BradGuy123]

I can totally relate. I was single until later in life. Seeing other couples made me so sad, so lonely, so jealous. It made me feel so inadequate and defective. Why couldn't I find anyone? Why couldn't I experience the joy of a relationship? What was wrong with me? I think there are a lot of single people who feel the same way.

 

[Spite]

Same for me. Particularly when I see groups of young people out and about and having a good time together. Seeing that feels like a knife through my heart. It serves as a painful reminder of all the things I have missed out on in life.