More than anything I wish I could have the option to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this torturous, dreadful existence ever again and I always suffer so much from how that is denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what.
I just want to peacefully cease existing, it truly is the most horrific, dreadful world where suicide is seen as a crime where I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from the burden of existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll always find it so torturous to exist.