when do you know you should kill yourself?

[hopscotch]

I want to die and I know there are a lot of methods for it but I am scared that when I lie there dying I will feel a lot of regret. is there some sort of boundary i have yet to cross that deems me as 'hopeless' and ensures that i will not feel such regret, or is everyone just like this? i feel like dying is a big commitment, and very different from, you know, most people.
i have also never really strayed from the convential path of life so this will probably be the most unique thing I will ever do. i guess it's partially that i just feel like I act very normal in day to day life and research how to kill myself in my spare time, and it feels wrong to have one bleed out into the other. I also just don't feel like i have a good reason to CTB: killing myself just because I hate life when nothing bad has happened to me seems a little pretentious. I'm sure some people would love to be where I am, and here I am wasting it because I'm sad for no good reason. Regardless, I have a lot of unwanted inhibitions about CTB and i was wondering if I should hold off on it until I lose them completely.

 

[PurpleParadigm]

Today.

 

[kunikuzushi]

I relate a lot. personally I would wait until you experience that extreme hopelessness because I felt that at one point in my life and I didn't have that fear of lying there dying and feeling regret. but right now I have that fear, and it's making me not want to kill myself

but it's your life and I think there doesn't have to be a reason to end your life or to be sad. because the concept of living and then dying is just awful in my opinion. so it makes sense to be sad even if you think nothing bad has happened to you

but anyway I hope you find comfort or small things that make life bearable if you choose to hold off

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that hating existing is a completely valid way to feel, life is completely futile and meaningless anyway, I doubt that there is such a thing as "wasting" it when everything will be forgotten about eventually. But anyway suicide is a human right and continuing to exist isn't an obligation, it's up to the individual to decide when to leave. Suicide could never need a reason, I mean death will happen eventually whether there is a reason behind it or not, all that suicide is, is choosing not to delay the inevitable.

 

[Jezzibell]

I want to die and I know there are a lot of methods for it but I am scared that when I lie there dying I will feel a lot of regret. is there some sort of boundary i have yet to cross that deems me as 'hopeless' and ensures that i will not feel such regret, or is everyone just like this? i feel like dying is a big commitment, and very different from, you know, most people.
i have also never really strayed from the convential path of life so this will probably be the most unique thing I will ever do. i guess it's partially that i just feel like I act very normal in day to day life and research how to kill myself in my spare time, and it feels wrong to have one bleed out into the other. I also just don't feel like i have a good reason to CTB: killing myself just because I hate life when nothing bad has happened to me seems a little pretentious. I'm sure some people would love to be where I am, and here I am wasting it because I'm sad for no good reason. Regardless, I have a lot of unwanted inhibitions about CTB and i was wondering if I should hold off on it until I lose them completely.

I can tell that you don't have a reason so forget about it and get on with living your life.

 

[miu]

being suicidal is valid regardless if you have a reason or not and should be taken seriously no matter what. i don't know about your situation or the circumstances that lead you to this point, but it sounds like this has been weighing on your mind for a while - and that is completely understandable. taking your own life is some of the hardest things someone can do, and without understanding where your thoughts come from, it can be even more difficult to know what to do.

i strongly recommend you to talk to a professional about this - you can do this anonymously as well, so you won't have to worry about the psych ward or anything like that (take what i say with a grain of salt; only you know what's best for you). i hope you find the peace you seek. x

 

[FuneralGrey]

You don't need to have a "good reason" to want to CTB. However you are feeling is valid, and no one can tell you otherwise.

No one can tell you when you "should" kill yourself, but certainly you shouldn't do it until you feel ready. I can hear that you're in a lot of pain, but you're also scared and worried about regretting it. That sounds to me like you're not ready. When your time has come, you shouldn't feel afraid and you should feel confident that you won't regret it. Of course, SI can come play with those feelings a little bit as death approaches.

I wonder if you've ever been able to talk with someone about how you're feeling. While I believe ctb should be an option for everyone, I don't believe it should ever be the first option. I hope you're able to find relief soon.