When do you know it is time?

[fitoo5999]

When you can't take it anymore, of course but I feel like the mind know when. It is like a turn off and you know. You might stop being scared and stop regretting what you should have been.

What do you think?

 

[hdead]

I'm trying to make amends with all the wrong turns I took. I always told myself I had no regrets, but now I'm at the endstation and I feel like I have way too many to cope with. I've been sending cryptic messages to people who I have hurt and I am thinking all day long about how this is just what it is and trying to be okay with it.

I'll get there when I get there. In the meantime I'm killing time with collecting substances, playing guitar and gardening.

 

[Forveleth]

I absolutely knew it was time on both if my attempts. I woke up that morning and knew that was the day.

 

[fitoo5999]

What was the method?

I'm trying to make amends with all the wrong turns I took. I always told myself I had no regrets, but now I'm at the endstation and I feel like I have way too many to cope with. I've been sending cryptic messages to people who I have hurt and I am thinking all day long about how this is just what it is and trying to be okay with it.

I'll get there when I get there. In the meantime I'm killing time with collecting substances, playing guitar and gardening.

I can't accept yet that I have to go but suffering is too hard mentally et physically plus I'll go homeless soon enough.
I've fucked up.

 

[Valky]

naive me is hoping that I'll never be ready. Maybe it's an excuse to not pull through or an excuse to pull through but it can be so hard to tell when it all feels the same. It can also be so hard to tell when there are so many opposites. Sure, driven by emotions but which ones should I listen to?? The negative or the positive ones ahhhhh.

End of the story, it's different for everyone. No one can tell you when your time has come. Only you can :)

 

[limenlux]

I absolutely knew it was time on both if my attempts. I woke up that morning and knew that was the day.

This was my experience exactly. In retrospect, it was a shockingly mundane experience until the weight of failure set in.

 

[lpdsvm]

When I have a few bucks before going completely broke and homeless right after that.
When I might have legal issues (not crime) that will lead to what I mentioned above.
When I get a surprise bill and I cant pay for it.
When I get sick and it's chronic and painful.
All in all, I don't want to suffer, I find CTB much easier faster and less uncomfortable compared to the reality of this world. Even short pain is better than prolonged mental suffering due to my miserable life. Many got it worse and it doesn't make me feel better - I can be next.

 

[fitoo5999]

When I have a few bucks before going completely broke and homeless right after that.
When I might have legal issues (not crime) that will lead to what I mentioned above.
When I get a surprise bill and I cant pay for it.
When I get sick and it's chronic and painful.
All in all, I don't want to suffer, I find CTB much easier faster and less uncomfortable compared to the reality of this world. Even short pain is better than prolonged mental suffering due to my miserable life. Many got it worse and it doesn't make me feel better - I can be next.

That got me deep.