Discussion When did you first start considering suicide?

[I am ___________]

When I was 6 years old. I'm now 20 and the feeling has only grown stronger. I ran into the street in hopes of getting hit, it was just sure luck that the bus running straight for me stopped in time. Instead now I will be using sodium azide as my exit ticket from this shit hole, should arrive by next week.

 

[I am ___________]

It's so fucking saddening that so many of us started imagining suicide at such young age when we were supposed to play and enjoy life.

Life is shit, no matter what point of life you are in. Better to learn early then too late.

 

[CC123]

When I was 17, the older sister of a GF of mine came home from college and hung herself.
I was so impressed by her self-empowerment.
I also thought it was a kindness of her to hang herself at home and save the parents the expense of transporting her body from college to their hometown.
I knew immediately that this was a reasonable choice to make when a compelling life-situation should arise I knew (and know) that I can do this, too.
Comforting to know such an option is available.

 

[Lady black]

Respect to this young woman that hanged herself just when she thought it was time to hang. that´s the way the most auccesful suicides happen.

 

[futur]

as many others here it is also 17 y.o. Coinsindence? I think not.

I am 28 y.o. now. Holy f. 11 miserable years...

 

[LittleDuckling]

Tried parital hanging at 11, I am ashamed that 11 year old me had more balls then i do 9 years later

 

[Lady black]

I started to think about when I was 12

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I was a really skinny, short-for-my-age kid up until my junior year in high school when I grew a foot over the summer before senior year. Very painful--like having your bones broken every day... Before, I was constantly bullied. I saw our local ER so frequently they thought my mom was abusing me. The first time I said out loud, "I want to die," I was attacked by a gang of boys while walking home. I was nine. I was so sick of being assaulted just because it entertained others. And of no adult ever doing anything about it. If it was "wrong," then why were the grown ups in charge of everything allowing it to keep happening? I just wanted off this f*cking planet. And I have never stopped wanting death since then.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Life is shit, no matter what point of life you are in. Better to learn early then too late.

Bear hug to you!

 

[15dec]

I was about 12, I didn't start to think about actual methods until I was 13 though

 

[futur]

i member my first thoughts about suicide. Such naive plans with a belt fixed on a tree near the river bank. No will, no orders about my dead body, no police involved. I even didn't got an idea, how exactly should i fix the belt and how will such an action influence the life of my parents...

 

[seekingoblivion]

First thought of suicide was at age 7 after a decent ass whooping by my mama and I thought fuck this. Got a belt but didn't know where to tie it and how. The next time was at age 14 and it's been pretty consistent from that point on. I'm 24.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

It's so heartbreaking to see the number of ppl who started considering suicide when kids...

 

[CC123]

This is a wonderful thread.
An opportunity to share truths about ourselves and discover that we are not alone in our developments and feelings.
I learn from this sharing that there is NOTHING to be embarrassed by or ashamed about ourselves.
We can be and are true to ourselves.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

"To discover that we are not alone", maybe the very interest of SS!

 

[YukiFox]

I had some suicidal thoughts on my past, but not consider to proceed to attempt. I had two serious thoughts on 16 years old and on 25 years old. I'm 30 years now.
Seriously consider suicide since last December.

 

[LivingToLong]

You're all so damned young! You ought be out "banging beaver" (to quote JN in 'One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest')

It's a good question and one I don't really have an answer too. I guess I first had abstract thoughts about it decades ago, maybe as a reaction to life's woes or whatever. It's a subject I've thought about for a good many years but only really in the last 2 or 3 has it seemed like my inevitable fate as I feel my life has run it's course.

 

[CC123]

As I have a "beaver", I guess I have been a "bangee"

 

[dandan]

mental issues 16
suicidal thoughts 17-18
suicidal actions ~24, some damage cant remember well
now 36

I want to live but not like this. Not with my attitude, regret and my poor social skills

 

[aneurysm]

I have always been severely depressed but also very hopeful. I lost all my hopes 2 years ago (well not that I lost them, I just realized how stupids and unworthy of my time those dreams where) and became suicidal. I'm 22.

 

[kyleq16]

I started to consider it seriously at 13

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

Started thinking about it when i was 9. Never made a attempt until i was 17. I'm about to turn 25 next month.

 

[color_me_gone]

My suicidal thoughts have been constant & extremely severe since he passed away. I'm so ready to die & be with my baby.

OMG! I am so sorry. My ❤❤❤ goes out to you! Hugs

 

[Mr. Hang Man]

14, first attempt at 17.

 

[GeorgeJL]

As for me, it was when I was 13. I'm 16 now.

What about you?

About 6 years ago.

 

[deathplease]

OMG! I am so sorry. My ❤❤❤ goes out to you! Hugs

Thank you

 

[Nihil]

14, first attempt at 21.

 

[Frostypigeon]

Since elementary school I've been drinking chemicals trying to off myself. Due to my family circumstances I never felt like I fit in.

 

[suicideofpeace]

14, first attempt at 16

 

[Hotsackage]

When my brain stopped working. I dont want to do it. But it's like i got alzeimhers