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DiscussionWhen did you first start considering suicide?
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When I was 6 years old. I'm now 20 and the feeling has only grown stronger. I ran into the street in hopes of getting hit, it was just sure luck that the bus running straight for me stopped in time. Instead now I will be using sodium azide as my exit ticket from this shit hole, should arrive by next week.
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RaphtaliaTwoAnimals, brighter, NoDream and 2 others
When I was 17, the older sister of a GF of mine came home from college and hung herself.
I was so impressed by her self-empowerment.
I also thought it was a kindness of her to hang herself at home and save the parents the expense of transporting her body from college to their hometown.
I knew immediately that this was a reasonable choice to make when a compelling life-situation should arise I knew (and know) that I can do this, too.
Comforting to know such an option is available.
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Mylifeispointless, Master Atsu, RaphtaliaTwoAnimals and 6 others
I was a really skinny, short-for-my-age kid up until my junior year in high school when I grew a foot over the summer before senior year. Very painful--like having your bones broken every day... Before, I was constantly bullied. I saw our local ER so frequently they thought my mom was abusing me. The first time I said out loud, "I want to die," I was attacked by a gang of boys while walking home. I was nine. I was so sick of being assaulted just because it entertained others. And of no adult ever doing anything about it. If it was "wrong," then why were the grown ups in charge of everything allowing it to keep happening? I just wanted off this f*cking planet. And I have never stopped wanting death since then.
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Letmego. Please, CornerE, RaphtaliaTwoAnimals and 3 others
i member my first thoughts about suicide. Such naive plans with a belt fixed on a tree near the river bank. No will, no orders about my dead body, no police involved. I even didn't got an idea, how exactly should i fix the belt and how will such an action influence the life of my parents...
First thought of suicide was at age 7 after a decent ass whooping by my mama and I thought fuck this. Got a belt but didn't know where to tie it and how. The next time was at age 14 and it's been pretty consistent from that point on. I'm 24.
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RaphtaliaTwoAnimals, brighter and Kikoo Loool
This is a wonderful thread.
An opportunity to share truths about ourselves and discover that we are not alone in our developments and feelings.
I learn from this sharing that there is NOTHING to be embarrassed by or ashamed about ourselves.
We can be and are true to ourselves.
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lululoo, deathplease, RaphtaliaTwoAnimals and 3 others
I had some suicidal thoughts on my past, but not consider to proceed to attempt. I had two serious thoughts on 16 years old and on 25 years old. I'm 30 years now. Seriously consider suicide since last December.
You're all so damned young! You ought be out "banging beaver" (to quote JN in 'One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest')
It's a good question and one I don't really have an answer too. I guess I first had abstract thoughts about it decades ago, maybe as a reaction to life's woes or whatever. It's a subject I've thought about for a good many years but only really in the last 2 or 3 has it seemed like my inevitable fate as I feel my life has run it's course.
I have always been severely depressed but also very hopeful. I lost all my hopes 2 years ago (well not that I lost them, I just realized how stupids and unworthy of my time those dreams where) and became suicidal. I'm 22.
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