When did suicide become a real option for you?

[maketner]

Thought on and off for decades... but only became fairly real a little over a year ago... then became very real last month when I made my first attempt... but I failed... and a string of events happened out of my control... and now I feel lost. I don't know what to do anymore. I had a plan that was going to take me away from everything, and it didn't work. So, there is no more plan... but the world is crumbling around me, slowly but surely, and building to a devastating crescendo very soon. I wish my attempt had succeeded... but I don't know if I can do it again or come up with another method to even consider. I am a failure at failing now, and that's hard to move on from... in any direction.

I'm sorry to hear of your failed attempt.

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

ive had small passive suicidal thoughts for years, but i didnt actually start seriously considering it until last september when i went to my sister's wedding and saw how happy everyone's lives were compared to mine.

My though process after that was if i wasnt able to find a job before i would have to leave job corps, id ctb. and a few weeks ago i got rejected from probably my 100th interview and my separation date is december 5th, so ive decided I'm gonna go through with it

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

Honestly, I can't place a date to it; I think it may have lingered in the back of my mind for many years.

 

[AntarusDragon]

are you a bot or a real person? I'm so confused. I keep on seeing the same comments over and over and over.

same, i think he bot.