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11.04.2015 ❤️
- Jan 9, 2023
- 87
Almost any failure, even the smallest one, reminds me that if I were dead, this wouldn't have happened. But most of all, I want to die, when I compare my present with my happy past.
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singingcrow
Student
- Jul 7, 2024
- 122
in the morning or when i see a lot of happy people around me because i don't know why i can't be happy like themWhen i wake up and realise that this is my life. The rest of the day i dont feel anything i just have suicide on my mind.
somethingisntreal
Self sabotaging day #178406
- Aug 30, 2025
- 146
For me, sleepless nights are an indicator of my increasing SI. I had been getting good sleep for a while but I haven't slept over 4h in the last week or so. I lie awake at night begging for my thoughts to stop once again. Wish I had a gun to paint the walls with my brain mush.Waking up, feeling physical pain. Waking up from an afternoon nap seems to be worse than waking up in the morning. It's that added disorientation of briefly not knowing what time of day it is and the feeling of being useless.
If I ponder on my life choices, I can get some good suicide fuel. Having a look on social media at former school friends and what they've become.Similar threads
