when i was only couple years old my mother picked me up by one arm causing a injury to my left shoulder that wouldent effect my life into later on, my mum and dad split up when i was very young, growing up in a majority muslim area in the uk england like i was one of a few white people at that school the area was a shithole, i didn't like the school at all so i started skipping it at age 11-12 year 7, my sister and her boyfriend was giving me weed from the age of 12, i started smoking cigarettes aged 12 as well, i came from a borken home single mother she let me down the most in my life, anyway i robbed her benefit books and cashed it in at the post office, also i burgled my mothers house at age 16 robbed her stereo system and sold it to a friend, i got done by the police for both of them, i also got done for shop lifting and common assault in my early teens like 14 years old, anyway fast forward i meet a girl at age 16 we both stayed together for 2 and half years result in us having a baby boy that i was there for at the birth and the first 6 months but she ended the relationship i was devastated, during this relationship when i was 17 i got into a fight in my backgarden after one of our so called firends attacked my bother i end up dislocating my left shoulder the same one my mother caused a injury to all those years ago, anyway it's dislocate 10 times now goes weak and limp , also at 18 i got sent to jail for a crime i didn't commit all because i was having a party at my dads house where 4 of us where drinking beer this girl came onto me and one of the lads there got the hump anyway me and this gril end up going down to my room 30 mins later there was a knock at my front door it was one of the lads from the party said the other lad from the party was in a fight and he need help anyway i went and got a wooden pole and took it out with me to this fight it just one of my so called mates beating up a old man anyway this lad took the wooden pole off me and proceed to hit the old man with it the cops came and took away my mate the cops told me to go home on the way home they came back and stop me and ask me if that wooden pole was my weapon i said yes so they arrested me as well bassicly i ended up doing 4 months for something i never did i'm 37 years old now and havent been in trouble with the police for 19 years, also after the relationship breakup i ended up developing schizophrenia at 18 so i was dealing with a relationship breakup and schizophrenia and jail for a crime i didn;t commit all at the same time, after that i decided if this can happen to me then why would i want to bring child into this crule world, i never did have sex again for 19 years i've been single, my life was over and ruined at 18 years old, at 22 i took a paracetamol overdose resulting in a damaged stomach lining i can't drink achool without being sick plus i need to drink milk all the time to settle my stomach, my parents never took me to the dentis and i learn in jail that i had 22 cavities by the age of 18 i never took my self to the dentis either resulting many decayed teeth, at aged 30 i was addicted to weed and listening to music with big headphone one anyway i endup causing my self tinnitus and brain injury, now i am bedbound without medication so my life was ruined before it even started at 18 and didn't get completly destory into i was 30 now 37 and looking to kill my self soon with sn
